a momentary lapse of thought:
staccato thuds sounded by a hollow heart
upon the realisation that the clarity of 'best friends'
becomes muddled
and confused with the passing of time.

hearts become restless:
heads are filled with shinier thoughts
as the people once loved are replaced. we recreate ourselves
worlds away
from the ones to whom we once gave our soul.

the silence of an evening punctuated
by memories of our faded selves
they watch us as we blindly dance
to the symphony of their sighs.

today
you slumped in your seat
head inclined towards my shoulder
as your eyes flickered open.
I felt the warmth of your gaze upon my face
so I turned to face you
and you looked away.
so for now I'll just sit in silence
and feel the comforting pressure of your arm against mine.

liberated:
the weight of you lingered until i was strong enough to push you away.

the fog has lifted:
the cloudiness of my mind replaced by the clarity of knowing i no longer want you here.

so walk away,
throw out your fingers to count those who let you down.
whilst you were mourning those who didn't care
the ones who did struggled
under the burden of a love
they could no longer bear

you pitied yourself,
now i pity you too
a cold, unfeeling pity reserved for those who cannot feel warmth

i told you to walk away.

you're the difference in between of
what i think and what i say
you're the only one who's capable
to take my breath away
you're the shadow i remember
in the nights i stay awake
you're the last remaining victim
of the promises you make
you're the arrogant admirer
of your own self-righteous good
you're the shallow little dreamer
drowning in your lifeless blood
you're the hopeless overthinker
who can't hold a conversation
you're the absence in the thought
behind your insecure frustration
you're the joke behind the laughter
you're the end and yet the start
you're the one who i chase after
you're the thief who stole my heart.

you can't see what i see;
how she hides you from my sight
as if the gods above could see
the battle i will fight.
she whispers to you softly
as she takes you by the arm;
in no time you are captured
by her beauty and her charm.

her clever wit and confidence,
her voice, so soft and calm
she wooed you in so sweetly
'til you rested in her palm.

you couldn't see what i saw
how she tore you up inside
she broke your heart in pieces
said she'd love you, but she lied.
i'd tell you that you're better now
so many times i've tried.
but my words are never quite enough
to make your tears subside.

the cracks are never mended
and the scars, they will not go.
you'd go back to her quite willingly
because you love her so.
but you don't see what i see;
how she loves to see you cry.
i know how much she matters
and without her, you would die

but with her, it is killing you
this pain will never end
until you save yourself from it
so let her go, my friend.