i can feel you -
everytime i put a hand on my chest.
i feel your breath -
everytime i can't breathe.

we made a dynamic duo, me and you.
you where the batman to my robin.
you where the harley quinn to my joker.
now you're the rachel to my harvey dent..

we where the best of friends.
you caught me when i fell.
you stopped me when i jumped.
you showed me the beauty of being loved.

we where so close..
it breaks my heart to think of the miles.
i miss you buddy.
thanks for being my hero.

On top of the world, without no recognition.
Lonely on top when your there's only one position.
You must recognize that I am not in best condition.
The toll to stay the strongest has took a vast commision.

If you don't understand me then you must be standing under me.
A life of isolation is bringing out the beasts in me.
A rebellious cast out kid will take these trophies home.
Life is bottoms up so i live up on a throne.

The sun sets.
The moon rises.
The moon sets.
The sun rises.

now backwards.

The sun rises.
The moon sets.
The moon rises.
The sun sets.

The story is the same.
The names are differant.
Like a palindrone.
Like us.

I was broken when i met you.
Fresh out of the hospital.
Attempted my own burial.
But then magic happend.

Stitches formed in the place of cuts.
Hugs formed in the place of tears.
Love formed in the place of pain.
Happiness formed in the place of suicide.

Then you gave up.
Saw how much fixing i really needed.
Saw how ****** up i was.
You became like everyone else.

You left.
You ******* left.
"forever and always, to infinity and beyond. I will always love you."
You ******* lier.

Blood baths took place of talking to you.
Cuts abolished the strength delivered in those stitches.
The sacred seconds we held each other caroded  and rotted my mind.
Hugs became a passion i re-enacted with a teddy bear you gave back.
Thoughts once replaced by the thought of you returned, prepared for revenge.
Pain eluded its way into every memory of loving you.
Smiles turned into hours spent under the bridge by the school, waiting for that ******* train.
Suicide filled every night as i worked to live the dream.

You said you loved me.
You promised me i would be okay.
You let me believe you cared.
You ******* lier.

I am a caged beast of rejected soals.
I sit in a forest of death as i watch a beautiful bird land.
Then i watch as the bird sits.
Stares.
Right into the eyes of a lion.
I scream.
I yell.
I ******* beg.
Please.. I cant loose another..
But the bird still sits.
Right before the death of the bird, a feeling i lust for so deeply, the bird turns.
It looks at me,
As if to say, "i shant not fly nor run away, for this beast i face is of pure hate. The malignity of extinction I can not fear, for i am the speacies of the lost and weird. I am beasts of prey turned into prey of beasts, the hungry lions who will not feast. I am the prey of beasts witch turn beasts of prey, beasts to beasts who are beasts to prey. For when the world will come to end, when time ceases and begins to bend, a beast is a beast, defined by life, we are all the same in destinys fight. Beasts are beasts in this jungle of hate, so let love replace the beasts today."
Within a second, seeming forever slowed, the bird flys right under the lions nose.

We are all beasts.
Weather you are a beast to beasts, a beast to prey, or a beast in a cage,
We are all beasts.
The bullies are attacked by those who want to help the hopeless, when the biggest bully of the hopeless are the hopeless themselves.
I don't want to be a beast.

The freak show is here
Grab your camera
Point and laugh
Join The Crowd

Don't try to help
Don't pretend you care
You'll just join me here
Entertaining The Crowd

Free to watch
But the price is high
You wouldn't care
It's just my life

Let lies cover your pain as you say you cared
You've seen the freak show but you've never been there
If your opinion is minority but your neighbours is gold,
who's life are you ******* living?
"Freak"- more like "Free"

I write about you alot.
Shh.
Don't tell anyone.
I don't want them looking for my words.

There is a reason i don't where shorts.
I have to hide the words.
If people see the words,
I can't be a poet any more.

My poems are words.
Unspoken words.
Everything i wanted to say.
Everything i never said.

Don't ask to read them.
You won't understand.
The only person who can read them are me.
For they are my memories.

I am a poet.
I write things people don't understand.
Nobody reads my storys.
Because there are no words.

Just soal.
Just pain.
Just scars.
Just love.

I am a poet.
A silent screamer.
My words are powerless without sound.
I will scream with my life.

Mustang from the past.
Let me ride until the moon falls down.
The sun is a loathsom beast.
I want to drive all night.
I want to love you.

When im with you a beauty occurs that burns brighter then a sun rise colliding with the morning tide. I can not euphemise the excruciating cry from when my insides die and the pistol lets fly a single beautiful try to illuminate the sky with cries held high. Trophies to a suicidal guy. The flame burns low as you tell me to let go, as i remember that ride through the pure white snow. The beautiful glow of your cold breathes blow. The hole without you continues to grow.
This pistol brings the bullet but pain pulls the trigger. I was just another boy to add to your figures. Im sorry that I can not heal quicker but I am  running low on liqour. My friends have started to snicker and say all i do is bicker but they dont understand that all i can feal is bitter. I love you. Thanks for showing me its okay to be a quitter.

The love i gave you was every ounce of my bleeding soal. The love i gave you was pure passion. Sorry I terrified you with my messed up side. Sorry I brought our twin tours down.

You were speaking but the words had no sound.
I feel eveything as if the bad was little more then nothing.
As if the past became the future.
As if it was that first day again.
That first touch.

I miss you more then anything.
I just want to be alone.
Wounds don't heal if you keep opening them up.
Please..
Somebody..
I need a bandaid..

Tonight the gauz will be all im place but it will not matter.
I will pick the wound a final time.
I dosn't take alot to bleed out.
Just a memory.

I love june.
A feeling not even death could take.
A feeling inside me, brought only from you.
The perfection of beauty i get to call "baby."

I touch your beautiful face.
Then i remember.
Thats your picture.
This is december.

I saw you today.
I smiled.
Reminiscing on you, and i smiled.
This is new.

You are not mine.
But i smiled.
Because now i will never be yours.
Only mine.

You might hate me.
I don't mind.
I was your punching bag.
And now  i'm all mine.

I smiled today.
The thoughts of you are going away.
As the train prepared to **** my lifeless body,
I smiled.

You took everything when you left.
Now its my turn to leave.
This beauty is all mine.
You will never take this from me.

I am a person hiding in another. I scream but no one hears. I may only whisper,
when they let me. When i get them to drink enough or they want me to take the pain of the blade. Thats how i met her. She gave me the strength to stay.

Then she left.
And took my strength.

They punished me for holding them back. Imitated me and won her over. Then let Him out. He just wanted to impress her with His necklace. I screamd but she couldn't here. The belt only got tighter around His neck when she tried to take it off. He didn't know what was wrong. He wanted her to smile. He grabbed her. "Whats wrong?" She wriggled. "Whats wrong?" He squeezed. "Whats wrong?!" She broke free. "WHATS WRONG?!"

He only wanted to help.

I screamed blood from my knife when she never came back.
I don't blame her.
I will never forget that night.
She will never forgive that night.
I don't blame her.
The marks are still there.
Hers and mine.
I don't blame her.
The look of pure fear..
The look of my heart.

I don't blame her.

Do you feel that?
The feverish split second you decide the night is when you feel most alive and creep quickly, quietly, your heart hastening with every faulty step creating a domino effect of blood pumping mistakes that only you notice because only you are looking for them.
Of course you don't.
You grew up.

Lier.
You said you loved me.
Im only playing ninja.
But you are too grown up to play.
I hate it.
2 hours on a bike in snow higher then my thigh with an ice coverd road and nothing but regret.
You told me to do this.
Why did you lie?
I hate liers.
I know you still want to play.
You show it when i kiss you.
Growing up seperated us.
You are just as ****** up as me.
Don't lie.

I die everytime i see you.
And i see you every day.
I have a panick attack from the thought that you don't love me like you used to.
Im a drunk.
Im a ******* drunk.
Not a drop of alchohal in my blood but im always ******* drunk.
Im not what you think i am.
I didn't mean to hurt you.
Please. Im ******* begging.
Please.
That wasn't me.
You know that wasn't ******* me.
I know i did it.
But it wasn't ******* me.
I have night mares.
Please.
Please.
I dont want you back.
I ******* hate you.
Why do i ******* love you?
***** dont ******* touch me!
All i ever wanted was that touch!
Please forgive me..

They said "the world is yours to take"
Then put me in a school
And told me every move to make
Show'd me all the rules to break

Be like a normal kid
Do as he just did
I'd like to be myself for once
"Growing up" - keeping creativity hid

Goodnight, goodnight
Forever and a day
Dream sweet of me tonight, my love
For from this night i will not wake

I saw a muse today.
She didn't see me back.
She was thinking about her muse.
My muse, too, infact.

I've been to Hell and Back.
Back was fun yet wrong.
Because nothing changed when i whent Back to Back.
Hell has been here all along.

Send me down to Heaven.
No one would really mind.
Just one shot till the meds will start to work -
Then i'll go back in time.

I havn't always been this way.
Hurt is my new friend.
In fact, it's only known me for close to a day.
About nine hours before the first ten.

I was born in the first second of the morn.
Twenty-four hours where my life of plight.
I hope you're not to torn.
Suicide is the victor tonight.

I loved pain
Pain loved me
I let pain in
He did too
Pain loved him more
Pain left me
Pain consumed him
But pain soon left him -
When pain got bored
Now me and him hate pain
Because pain loved everyone -
Too much
Pain play'd games -
Too much
We loved pain -
Too much

A common enemy makes unification
Me and him have unified
Bestfriends are so much better then pain
Because that's all you are -
Pain

Let actions form from emotions
Let emotions form from actions
Let actions speak louder then words
Let words be your only weapon
Let words never seem enough
Let not enough become too much
Let too much settle with no home
Until one day when
we Let emotions form not only from actions
But from words
we Let words express our actions
And actions take their places
we Let emotion form those actions
And create all the words
we Let ourselves stand up
As words alone never could

i feel the pressure as i fall to fame
just one more shot
one more brain
another kid who feels this pain
another body left to hang

You
arn't woth getting to know
Don't even think about people who

are beautiful
Everyone thinks you
are worthless
No one will say "you

are the love of my life"
"you

matter more to me"
No one can

love you
I

hate you
I can't
no matter how hard i try

take even one look at you
My heart skips a beat when i

laugh so hard
because you make me
feel ashamed
I hope you never

love again
I will never

forget you
I can't

Blood tattoo of a pain unknown
why do you exist?
To us a story to be told
to them just scars on wrists