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4.5k · Feb 2015
scars
my scars
do not define
who i am
but define
the reasons why
i am
who i am
3.1k · Apr 2015
lungs on fire
I had no clue
that standing in the room
screaming at the top of my lungs
would cause
no one to even acknowledge
my existence
2.6k · Feb 2015
caring
how could someone just leave your life
and act like it never happened?

oh yeah.

it means they never cared in the first place.
1.3k · Jul 2016
untitled
i really cant believe
that you cant see
how broken and torn
you left me
laying there
on the floor
aching and wishing
i knew what i did wrong
1.2k · Apr 2016
true colors
and when i finally decided to let you go
you showed me the one thing
that you said was never a lie
and that was behind all the black and white
you hid more than the truth
but how you knew how to break me down
and torture me from the inside out
1.2k · Apr 2015
headache
my mind has been lost
in a maze
full of
thoughts and feelings
that in a while
will **** me
1.0k · Jan 2015
rhyme
1.0k · May 2015
*inspiration*
death inspires me
like a dog inspires a rabbit
or a lion inspires a gazelle
or a storm on the horizon inspires a bird
or a wolf inspires a lamb
or me whenever i think of you
when you took the only thing i had left

my sanity.
shoutout to twenty one pilots <3
998 · May 2016
just like a drug
how could I know
that your presence
your touch
your taste
your smile
your lips on my neck
could possibly be so addictive?
forbidden love is a *****
944 · May 2016
CHOSEN LOVE IS BULL SHIT
if i'm not allowed to love you
then what am i supposed to do
with the butterflies every time i see you
or the smile i get when i hear your name
or the deep feelings in the pit of my stomach
when our hands touch
or eyes meet
and at night
when i lay awake
crying
shaking
wanting you
that i know
that the world does not want me to be happy
i need to learn that it gets harder
and harder
to rid of the toxins
others call love
because our stars will forbid to cross
and you will never explore my galaxy
for the endless depths of feeling
i have for you
913 · Mar 2015
self inflicted harm
sometimes
i like to imagine
that if i left
that the world
would be better off
without me
since i am
just a waste of space
881 · Mar 2015
Unconciousness
I love how
when you sleep
all your problems disappear
for just a little while
but my problem is
trying to go to sleep
with all of my thoughts
screaming at me
to stay awake
864 · Jan 2016
heart strings being pulled
i didn't know that
letting you go
would end up hurting me the most
and making me do everything
to keep from going back to you
847 · Jan 2015
Awhile
It's been awhile since I last saw you
I heard that you found her
The perfect girl
That is not me
And you treat her like a princess
While I am obsessed
With listening to the voices in my mind
Telling me to die
Everyday
842 · Jan 2015
Love
i never thought that anyone could love me
until the day i wasn't there
to love anyone else
or myself
801 · Feb 2015
rock
you were my rock
my stable being
my beloved
my breath in my lungs
the main reason i was still here

until one day
you left
out of the blue


and i am still here
living in my own sadness
and you still haunt
torture me even
and still seem to speak to me
like a whisper in the wind
they always say
that best will always come out in people
but how can the best come out
when i don't even
have any left in me?
771 · Mar 2015
you as a whole
when i first met you
i thought that you were to good for me
but now as i have figured out
i am not good enough for me
728 · Dec 2014
Knew
I used to know what happiness felt like
It felt like
Freedom
I never thought that I would be brought down
Like a wall
With strong bricks
But then my happiness
Went away
Like you
On that summer's night
And then I started to listen
To the demons in my mind
you are like a beating heart
spreading yourself through my body
through veins and arteries
healing me
because i
did not know
how to heal
myself
716 · Dec 2014
Sadness
Someone once said to me
"The sky is sad, just like your eyes."
I've just come to understand this
That the reason the sky is so sad
Is because the heat of the sun
Leaves it's dark depths every night
Just like you
When you left me standing there
That cold winters night
In the frightening depths
Of my own terrifying thoughts
And years of feelings
That visit me every night
In my head
And tear me apart
From the inside out
711 · Mar 2015
skin pigmentation
701 · Dec 2015
snowflake
i am like a snowflake
i think i am beautiful
for just an instant
and then i am gone
in the blink of an eye
gone from the cold frozen tundra
of the world
676 · Feb 2016
toxins
not only do the drugs
and alcohol
drown out the pain
but they also allow me
to drown out myself
635 · Jan 2015
HURT
who knew
that words would hurt
just as bad as
the blade
that was tearing my skin
632 · Dec 2014
Remember
I remember that night that we fell in love
In my room
Listening to the sound of each others' heartbeats
Our breathing becoming jagged and shallow
Our faces getting closer
Feelings going haywire

And then I woke up
And found myself alone in my bed
The blade still in my hand
And then I remembered that night
Like a memory lost in time
And thought about why you left
Because of her
And how I would never be good enough

So in that moment
I let the sadness overcome me
And take me to its hell
And I thought
Why me?
627 · Apr 2015
DRUNK
I can't take back
The words I never said
Because they stay on my tongue
Like liquor on a alcoholics breath
i hate knowing
that if i was gone
like the moon when the sun rises
that no one would miss me  
and i ceased to exist
602 · Apr 2015
UnTiL ThE EnD Of TiMe
a best friend
is someone you can
laugh
cry
make jokes
draw
write
listen
observe
watch
and
LOVE
until the end of time
this is for my best friend who i love so very much <3
580 · Dec 2014
Little did i know
Little did i know
that you would haunt me
little did i know
that you would break me
little did i know
that you wouldn't stop me
little did i know
that you would end up killing me
579 · Nov 2015
HIGH
I'm only tripped out
by the thought of you
and burning by
the feeling of your hands
on my hips
but the sad thing is
when i'm sober
the high goes away
and reality hits
572 · Feb 2015
software
my mind
does not work
like everyone else

it stores everything
good or bad
like a crashed software

that has been beaten up
and  failed to be fixed
and just has given up
560 · Nov 2015
scars on my hips
when i think of the lines and scratches
that scatter my hips and thighs
i realize that each one
is a release
a small bliss
of the sizable pain inside me
545 · Feb 2015
LOVE AND HATE
how could
someone
hate
and
despise
me
so much
when
I've
never
even
talked to
them?

I
guess it
must be
me
531 · Feb 2015
darkness rushing over you
being stabbed 1000 times
through the chest
with a rusty blade
over and over again
with your feelings and emotions
gushing out of you
feels the same
as someone telling you
that they don't
love you anymore
512 · Feb 2015
crumbling earth
As everyone stepped over me
one by one
they kept walking by

you're the one
who actually stumbled upon me  
and picked me up out of the mud
to clean me up
and take me home
creds to my boyfriend <3
508 · Mar 2015
impacted
I never thought
that you could love me
because i never even knew
how to love myself
473 · Apr 2015
IN NEED
I never knew
how much you could help someone
until they were in need
of someone
or something
when they felt alone
and tired
and sad
and didn't know what it felt like
to be cared for
452 · Dec 2014
Breathing
The day I started to actually breathe
Was the day that you took those breaths away from me
Those breaths became shallow
And jagged
Like my lungs were craving
The sweet taste of oxygen
Air
That only you could deliver to me
Through your soft lips
And hands that explored places I never thought it would
But then came the day
That the air through your lips
And the feeling of your hands
On my rough skin
Left me for the last time
And on that same day
I finally took the blade to my pale skin
And took my last breath I would ever take
On this living hell we call the world
432 · Dec 2014
Girls
All girls have a dream
To be loved by someone
Boy or girl
And to grow old with them
But for me
That dream will never exist
Because of one person
Who ruined me
And because of them
I will cease to exist
And I will drown in my own sadness
424 · Dec 2014
Breaking
You gave me a million reasons to leave
But you always gave me one to stay
You broke me
In ways no one could fathom
But I held on
To the cliff that was you
Until one day
I decided
To fall into its murky depths
And let the water
Take me away
And into the deep
406 · Dec 2014
Your Demons
Here's to the New Year
A new me
But little do you know
That I will not change
I will stay the same
And so will my mind
In the ****** up state
It is already in
Because of you
And your demons
393 · Feb 2015
what has to be said
388 · Dec 2014
Time
People say that time heals the heart
But I believe that is not always true
Because it has been so long since you left me
Standing there on my front porch
With mascara running down my face
And my heart still in your hands
And your breath still lingering on my lips

Time never heals
It only leaves scars
That with memories left behind
Will burst open again at the seams
And replay themselves in my head
Over and over again
Like a broken record
Or and old black and white movie
And with time
Will devour me from the inside
343 · Jan 2015
WHY ARE WE NAMED
Why are we controlled
Like mindless robots
In this society
We live in

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