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Sep 2 · 210
Moving out
Dianali Sep 2
Box after box,
I was having trouble
with the move—
so much to carry.
Until I understood:
some things,
so fused with the room,
belonged there now.
They weren’t mine anymore.

And in my heart—joy:
I’d left that space
better than I found it.
Some people are houses
Aug 16 · 190
Afterlife
Dianali Aug 16
I bought a Ouija board
on impulse, to contact you.
Then I remembered:
for you, unlike me,
there was life after love.
Aug 15 · 113
Cancer man
Dianali Aug 15
They asked me what you were.
“a cancer man,” I said.
They frowned and politely clarified —
“we didn’t mean astrology.”
“Neither did I.”
A soul’s malignancy
Aug 3 · 70
A sacred possession
Dianali Aug 3
In the safe of my heart,
next to my grandma’s earrings,
and my dad’s childhood art,
I keep your devotion.
The way you said my name—
with such emotion
I am a hoarder, I know
who am I hurting, though?
Aug 2 · 60
The fig I wanted
Dianali Aug 2
Just like Sylvia Plath
I found myself still
before all the possibilities.
And you know what?
It really ****** me off.
There’s one fig I really wanted—
Me birthing his kid.
Honey-dark and out of reach.
Yet it haunts me,
every other spring.
Jul 8 · 90
Scab
Dianali Jul 8
The wound is forming a scab.
New-knit memories are healing it back.
The wound will scar,
so it could be skin again.
To feel, to be caressed—
by the sun,
by your touch,
by the rain..

The wound will be skin again.
To be scratched and ripped away.
The wound will bleed—
but it will be skin again.
Healed by a newly-formed scab,
woven from fresh threads of recollections
and bedtime-story yarns.
Jul 5 · 149
Promise-keeper
Dianali Jul 5
I heard an expert say
missing someone
is simply an act of love—
So often woven
into unhealed pain
and heart-sores.

I thought of the night
I vowed to engrave
your laughter in my soul.
Kept safe as a personal vinyl,
sometimes replayed—
because I kept my word.
Jul 5 · 193
A gentle ache
Dianali Jul 5
Sometimes with watery eyes,
Sometimes with contained sighs,
Sometimes with deceitful what-ifs,

Sometimes in late shifts,
Sometimes in mood swings,
Sometimes in life’s sweet plot-twists,

but always—always—
thinking of you.
Dianali Jun 19
At the edge of your sheets
I take off my sweater;
my sorrows and earrings
get stuck in it.

They're both still there,
under your bed.
It's no problem if,
with kisses, you drain me.

But stay close
to the erratic rhythm
of my heartbeat
Jun 17 · 288
Target
Dianali Jun 17
A  battle of egos under the table.
Will they notice my blush
from this angle?
Any maiden in line
for your last name?
Would you ******* a vest
If I aimed at your chest?
Jun 14 · 120
Black Ribbon
Dianali Jun 14
I’d love a cheat day
In my calendar—
Let my years-patched dignity,
For a single day,
be torn again.

I wish I could tell you
I wrote a poem for you—
A cheesy gift
for your thirtieth—
I know.

You are still breathing.
Yet I pin to my chest
A neat, felt
black ribbon—
To commemorate
The aching
Jun 13 · 655
Wound
Dianali Jun 13
You hurt.
You will always do.
My favourite wound.

Every now and then,
I sprinkle salt on it—

And if It’s healing,
With bare hands
I rip it open
in my heart.

Keeping your memory alive
through this pain,
tearing me apart
Jun 13 · 116
Inheritance
Dianali Jun 13
What am I—
if not a seed
of a tree
of romantic branches,
Who taught those before me
How everyone and everything
Hums with daydreaming and glee ?

Another generation passes;
a family heirloom to me handed—
Vintage, well-preserved:
rose-coloured, polarised glasses
Hopecore is in my veins :)
Jun 6 · 205
Mouthwash
Dianali Jun 6
I’d like your taste to linger
A little longer on my lips—
Citrusy-bright,  caramel-rich acacia honey;
You fizz, umami.
  A hint of cashews— yes, I’m nuts for your being!
So sweet, sugary, cavity-worthy—Guilt-free.
A flavour I should let just fade out..
For the inevitable,
minty and cold reality
scheduled to rinse it
Everything delicious is temporary.
Jun 6 · 190
Q2
Dianali Jun 6
Q2
April.. you were a sweet reminder
of the joyous oath of spring—
Slowly but surely,
coaxed the cold to give in..
I have this theory:
Yours are the days
love nests to begin.
Call it cliché, that’s the way it must be
Scented your days are with blossom;
Roses and hope in bloom and in glee!

My, my, May!
you were so good to me!
You may as well be
my favourite of the three!
Your daylight hugs feel so sincere;
Quick-witted, heart-warmth breeze;
Birdsongs are echoes of
Family laughs and cheers—
May, please— I’m on my knees!
Like a lover that’s bright,
And made just for me—
The rest of the year I’ll be craving your heat!

A little dramatic,
But June, don’t despair!
Handle your grace
and sun-varnished grass trace,
Don’t be shy—bring lilac skies;
Let’s walk in warm sand,
I’ve got you by the hand.
No doubt at all, but pure delight,
You are already opening
beautifully right !
Jun 5 · 200
String Theory
Dianali Jun 5
If my body were strings—
Dancing to pure vibration
Granting the possibility
of lively, touchable matter,
Matter itself would hinge
on the sweet tremor of your name.

It sure felt the rip—
Heart out my ribs—
when your voice went silent.

Still,
in love-frequencies,
such filaments rejoice:
knotting and tangling
replaying us through
Several hidden dimensions—

Or whatever modern physics
keeps hinting at it.


I lost my focus—dreaming a quantum leap

Believe me:
Such threads tense at every thought
of their plausible alignments:
A bunch of them making
Your ancestors’ atoms colliding!
Just so one day
— for my own personal desire—
one random entanglement
could finally produce—
the loveliest colour
your eyes would have.
Yeah Modern Physics
May 30 · 371
Final Boarding call
Dianali May 30
What an irony—
an over-prepared traveller,
first at check-in,
practically airport-camper—
sprinting, breathless,
for the only flight
that truly matters.
Bring what you can—
No luggage claim planned
..
May 27 · 198
Defrosting
Dianali May 27
Soon I’ll be home;
time will move again.
My heart will thaw,
Beating outside the frost.

Preserving its warmth,
I carefully packed its pulse—

Kept in frozen brief moments:
Three a.m., laughing in the stairwell
Floor-dusting kitchen dancing,
Long gates and airport goodbyes,
The tightest hug I ever had—

Soon I’ll be home;
I will breathe again.
My heart will thaw,
beating outside the frost.

Summer is a promise—
Ice is melting;
with every tick
of the passing clock
May 26 · 188
Engineering
Dianali May 26
Parallel lines once—
Somehow converging
At such an improbable intersection
No equation calculated the outcome
If x was the distance,
God turned engineer—
Solving the crossing,
Integrating us.
May 25 · 233
Heart weather
Dianali May 25
Cruelest sensation
Rain needles on my skin—
Still warm from
that last ray of sunshine
May 21 · 214
Baggage
Dianali May 21
Someday I’ll finish unpacking.
It’s going to take time, though—
I have too many memories.
May 21 · 201
Animals
Dianali May 21
Our laughter echoed in the forest.
Chill wind tangling my hair.
Good insulation in my chest.  
Knowing glances.
Someone who cares.
Such a brief moment—
In the air, fog mixed with fate.
Humans are social animals.
Today I was reminded,
—in the sweetest of ways.
May 14 · 323
Storage solutions
Dianali May 14
Heart is no closet
They say—
But in mine
Each compartment,
is perfectly organised.
I neatly fold
Your sighs—
Some still
tangled in my hair.
Your fervid stares,
Vacuum-sealed
In a box on the left shelf,
Next to the neck kisses,
faded birthday wishes,
and hangers —full of
teenage lust—
pressed, rarely worn.
May 5 · 578
All me
Dianali May 5
Deep in the middle
of the Irish midlands,
my essence is all over.

You’d put one foot inside
and say I haven’t changed—
hoarding sentimental knick-knacks,
all valueless, all lovely,
all me.

You’d put one foot inside,
and say I haven’t changed—
house like a heart: So cozy, so warm,
all irrelevant, all lonely,
all me.
Apr 25 · 228
Diver
Dianali Apr 25
You ground the **** out of me.

I expected a
flawless dive,
My Olympic-gold Diver.
So I put you 32.8 feet  
off the ground—
Above the chlorine glare,
  levelled with my expectations.
Just for you to ******* slip
hard and graceless.
Right in the last minute.
Pathetic. Disappointment splashed.
Apr 21 · 159
Tunnel vision
Dianali Apr 21
Could it be tunnel vision?
I wonder, in the park
as I see
they are running when;
He kisses the hand
he’s already holding.
I could melt.
Way better than fiction—
Real life romance.

Could it be tunnel vision though?
I wonder again, on the bus,
as I see
she’s shifting her foot nervously—
and in a rare sight:
A sudden feet-hug,
his reaching hers,
containing and calming.

Could it be tunnel vision?
Or just a sweet foreshadowing?
Apr 20 · 185
Next picture
Dianali Apr 20
I saw you on a picture.
—And for a split moment,
I didn’t recognise my brain.
I programmed it differently.
For that specific task,
it’s usually set
to unpair itself
from my higher conscious self.

My standard policy is:
No empathy your way.

But today…
I could tell.
You seemed unwell.

Despite the damages done,
under your affection dictatorship
I didn’t rejoice.
I actually cared.

No trace of a mean smirk.
really wished you the best.

Hope it reaches you,
written all over your face,
Next time I catch a glimpse
In some picture of a friend.
Apr 18 · 641
Cozier
Dianali Apr 18
It was cold in your dorm.
I choked on my silences.
I felt unwelcome,
and briefly— desired.

You walked me to the stop,
Said I was almost running—
As I waited for my bus,
the plastic bench felt cozier.
Apr 17 · 112
Old friend
Dianali Apr 17
I thought you seem familiar—

I don’t know if remember you,

From another lifetime,

Where you also let me down—


                                        Just  gentler.
Apr 15 · 195
a family kid
Dianali Apr 15
I am comprised of
endless assumptions,
and small superstitions.
Keeper of traditions,
hoarder of
memory-shaped
trinkets,
deep feelings
and thoughts.
A non-professional
curator of
favourite places and
favourite songs.
I have my mother's
sweetheart warmth,
her tender disposition,
My father's
charming wit,
and noble spirit,
My sister's
chaotic fierceness,
and her incredible
resilience;
Probably,
some other
relative’s eyes too.
I guess after all,

I’m truly just  

A family’s child.
A random collage
Apr 15 · 374
First love tax
Dianali Apr 15
It’s so messed up that every lover
I ever entertained,
After the hurricane of you,
Had to carry an unfair ungodly tax—
The burden of your pain.
Crashing soul-markets,
Until I fully exorcised
The sole idea of your existence.
Thank God you fully exited my body—
For It wasn’t sustainable
In any lover’s economy.
I was going bankrupt babe
Apr 14 · 215
Myth
Dianali Apr 14
And I’m going to make you
so much of a memory,
That you’ll be more of a myth.
Linked somehow,
to the subtle pain
woven in
some parts of my voice.
Barely noticeable,
yet still lingering there.
Legend has it,
every now and then,
just between the happiest
and saddest
words I say,
If you listen carefully,
I’m just
Whispering your name.
A folk tale in my lore
Apr 13 · 341
Selfie
Dianali Apr 13
Maybe no one would get my essence
Like I do. Even after many tries.
Is that pretentiously narcissistic?
or just deep self-awareness?
Apr 10 · 170
Architect
Dianali Apr 10
A word after more words,
Creates other dimensions.
Changing entire generations,
A whole new structure,
Built for different intentions.
Persuading,
Emotional expression,
trickier purposes —
Like old plain manipulation.
Of an individual,
Or perhaps a huge nation.
So take precautions.
As this is a cautionary tale.
Since you are building,
Each line of yours
can either shape or break.
After all,
Here,
we all are
What In my mind
I like to call:
“The World’s oldest Architects”
Apr 10 · 318
The Repairman
Dianali Apr 10
Turns out,
I’m a talented repairman.
A messed-up wall?
I’ll fix that patch,
and find the perfect paint,
to colour-match.
A misunderstanding?
I’ll shape the perfect situation,
So It can be flawlessly justified.
Yes. I’m a great repairman.
Because after all—
I’m nothing,
but a destructive tenant,
In the flexible lease,
That is your heart.
Once I was told there was no need to be that skilled in justifying anything if I did nothing wrong from the beginning. Hit me hard.
Apr 8 · 175
Wordslave
Dianali Apr 8
My mother just told me
I’m constantly ‘a slave’ of my own words.
And I have to agree with her.
I can’t seem to ‘own my silences’
as she so smartly puts it.
I know, I know.
I should ponder on
such valuable insight— yup.
Yet to me…
that was just short for:
 ‘You should shut up
Apr 8 · 197
Weak
Dianali Apr 8
I missed that call.
And I knew
It was for the better.
You weren’t up
To anything good.
I knew
answering
wouldn’t lead me
to anything good.
And I wish It was
That thought—
the
Impeding,
rational force
The reason
for not
picking up,
But sweetheart,
honestly?
It was 3 am,
I was not that
mentally strong;
I just wasn’t
Awake.
I wish I was stronger, smarter, with more self love back then.. but It was an accident.. I would’ve picked up.
Apr 7 · 255
Brain rot
Dianali Apr 7
My brain keeps rotting
But I just don’t care.
the longer I scroll
The more chances I get
Of catching a glimpse
Of your beautiful face
Apr 6 · 129
Sundays
Dianali Apr 6
Sundays are made for God and for poetry.
For they both can see us fully through.
Apr 6 · 134
Nomad/Nómada
Dianali Apr 6
Maybe I'll be an eternal nomad,
Since my only home is in your arms.

A lo mejor sere una eterna nómada,
porque mi único hogar esta en tus brazos.
Originally wrote this in Spanish, my mother tongue; a little cheesy, I know
Dianali Apr 6
It’s a Sunday Morning where I am,
Lying warmly in bed.
It’s time to get my coffee
and catch a brief glimpse—
Through my small virtual window

I get to see,
A lot of different Saturdays
Happy faces in familiar supercuts,
Montages of their laughter,
No trace of sorrow or loss.

Everything is better in spring.
And the hearts I miss—
They seem happier in their spring.

Grateful I got this vibrant collage;
And more grateful still,
Summer’s sprinting towards me,
among the sun and joy, I’ll be.

Counting the long,
And lonely weeks
Until I’ll get to be
(Smiling)
on the other side of the screen.
Apr 4 · 155
Curtain see-through
Dianali Apr 4
Have I left it too open, my window
For you to see the inside?
—A room, full of thoughts,
Crafted by my spiralling mind;
A bed, full of love,
Overflowing,
from an oversharing heart

Would you go inside?
Would you ran far?

Tbh I left the curtain half drawn
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