My soul is split for you
Your hands carry my fortune that I wouldn't have without your grasp
I give you all
but you can;t give me answer
The effort is wasted when you leave without talking to me


the clock keeps going


I forget you even know how to talk

I'll be sorry about this, but it's what I "truly" feel right now

The truth lies in the seconds you can't count
The mind races, but you can't measure it in the track

I'm just typing what I feel, not what I am

but do my thoughts create me?

We control this moment, why can't you feel my effort?
I feel like you're testing my love

but you're only cutting the cord to our love

It hurts knowing you're capable, but thinking you're useless

Things are changing
The waves are moving different directions in the ocean in my head
Sorry I expressed what I felt
What kind of care do you give?
I'm drowning and holding on to your hand
Watch me sink in my thoughts I would've told you
I can't open up because I get no reply

As long as I know I do

Then why should I pay the price of wanting something from somebody who is a wall when I talk

How do you sit while reaching out aboce your ocean of tears?
The water keeps overflowing, but you are not moving
The question is not why you cry
but why you sit criss-cross with your head down with not a will in the world to even think
I fear not seeing you on the other side
Don'y fall behind
You are by me, girl
In this world, the people hate and the animals listen
The eyes of millions fall in comfort when they lie
The eyes of millions cry when their lovers lie
This has no point
The moment called for this
I expressed and delivered, this way
I chose to type these words, letters...language....to explain how I see... how I feel

The format doesn't make sense

I'm trying, you should too

Barely

OD on L O V E... and try to see
We're meant to love
Meant to feel pain
To feel happiness
Love is just a word that makes every emotion into a list
Follow me through the distance between us two
Let's slither down our trust
Until it doesn't exist
Until the rules melt between our finger tips
A bed in the middle of the nothing
I don't try to not fit in with the ocean

Keep me

My emotions go crazy
Preaching the peace within me
But you know how make my craziness punch a hole on the wall when you upset me

Let's sail away from the factors
Suffocate me with your presence
Make me think I'm your only one
I know it's just for the next few experiences
We are only 19

How can she talk about a tomorrow that hasn't been written

But I'd live what I've created in my mind with you... only you

Tag me in the pictures you smile in

So that I have something meaningful (only perspectively) to smile at

I know this me drives me away from you

Just acccept this swing of words before they erode inside my head and into my memories

Just love this part of me

You can't pass by and sigh/
The water runs over waters like the *** /dripped down your face/

Haven't ate in 19 hours////

I love the sound of your mind/
Your wind never dies/
When do you not ******* away?/
I can't stay and no I cannot say why/
these eyes begin to cry when I realize what you are to I/
Just know that I am near, so is death/
And love doesn't begin, nor does it end/
We just **** and I put my hand on your face/

The people wonder why we ever came about

Time doesn't come with a why it happens
There's no book to find answers for the reasons we question

Shouldn't we be aware of this?/
That to love is not always bliss/
Sometimes your presence won't mean much to me/
My face aches whenever the vibe is dead/
But the experiences are worth listening to/

The moment fly out of our hands and merge within the books of our existence/
Distance is nothing you say, but I can't bare the idea that you are not there/
A 15 minute car ride is already too much/

And I love you too much

12:51 AM
Planet Earth I think

1/18/2017

Don't make me mad

I'll just repeat that again, like always

How do I seek truth when I can't see beyond the moon
How do I wonder so far when I can touch my head
Inside I wonder with no disguise
Because I don't fear what comes in my day
Accepted a wound to the heart, so I could accept pain everyday
Losing you, like vapor coming from the pax
There you lie, without the soul

Can't even blow

MUUUUst write

because the moment has letters that I can turn into delight  

I have 18 tabs open right now
But sometimes I want to get out and take 18 tabs

then say Hi to Terence Mckenna

I can't compare
But I will anyway
Individuality
To me
A state of being without anything afflicting the current "self"
I can't even say self without feeling wrong

But there is self all over my room

Self there self here

Self within

Self.... everywhere

Like working out
I have to read more to get my mental juices flowing
Language is weird
Not linear
I couldn't see my past so I had to fly out the atmosphere
Imagination
Imagine, my death is near
The roses have risen but time finds its way until the end
Nothing beats a teens ambition to fit in like a trend
and LIKE LIKE LIKE LIKE LIKE
it ALL gets boring

\this got really borning my fineghsr are;nt even toucing the right lettersss anymore  amshhaha

SN was sitting away from me
We had gotten into a little argument but I knew things were going back to normal after she left
I can't leave an open wound bleed out
People tell me I overdramatize
I just like to see things from that point of view
Helps me write poems
Like this
To reflect

I haven't written seriously for a while

I don't think it was ever that serious, I just didn't know how to express whatever my mind held inside on to another platform
Now there's YouTube

Everything revolves around you Charlie
I miss you so much my precious girl

White fur white fur
Your house I made makes my mind blur
My throat doesn't think
But I think my brain makes it do something
Not sure what
My eyes begin to rain

Your missing is to blame

Death is only scary when you don't accept

When you don't accept, it will hurt

And I'm still hurt


Because I don't want to accept looking out the window believe you're not ******* THERE

AND I GET HEATED BECAUSE THE DOOR WASNT LOCKED
AND I BLAME MYSELF FOR GOING OUT THAT NIGHT AND NOT DOUBLE CHECKING THE DOOR

AND ITS BEEN 5 MONTHS WHERE THE **** ARE YOU

MY BROTHER IS IN THE OTHER ROOM MINDING HIS OWN
HE HAS IT GOING
HIS MIND IS ELSEWHERE
MY LOVE IS IN HER HOME PLAYING HER DS MAYBE
MY MOM IS PROBABLY PRAYING RIGHT NOW

AND HERE I AM AGAIN THINKING ABOUT YOU

ALWAYS
FOREVER

I LOVE YOU CHARLIE

hey,


I've been away
Living but no decay
Don't worry I haven't been away
From here, so to say
I found out I was half gay
But that just makes me happy

I'm going to pop my website off

under something else

She's loose, sorry
I had to buy her a belt

The tongue makes it tingle

i guess whatever comes, i have to not only deal with
but accept, enjoy, and become conscious about
i don't need anybody
and the ones who say that are the ones who have people they need
even if they've read "freedom" by osho
i love this being named sabrina
i never asked for anything more than ****
but i got the heaven my mother speaks about after death
there's no heaven, but her existence sure is like no other
i don't mean to cause love
it just happens through our consciousness
and the way our minds work
they dont correlate, but just being makes it happen
and its lovely
more than lovely
more than red, cupid, and all that ****
no romantic love
it goes beyond that

People expect too much from something that can go either way
The road splits in two
And maybe even 4 if your mind has the desire to take other routes
Nobody ever finds true love
It is built with our humanity
It is built from nature
It is built with joy
And even though I don't say many serious things
I know you don't know I know the things you never would've thought I knew
But I do, and the gift isn't given, it is lived
Before my smile, I had to walk miles in denial
I am free from that now
But I still have scars on my wrist
And I know you can barely see, but I'm free
And I know I don't make much sense to you, but that's why I write
That's why I spend hours being mindful on life
That's why I cry
That's why I smile
That's why I think about death
That's why I think about surviving
And accepting makes me fear less
Enjoying makes me neglect less
Showing enthusiasm makes me live the dreams I never seemed to reach even in my sleep
I haven't posted on this website in a while
I'm not really sorry, I just am
Literally, just am
People on Twitter won't get that part
I'm talking about Hellopoetry.com
It's 1/4 passed 12
And this is me trying to write poetry
Don't tell me what you think of this poem
Just read
And go on with the life that was given to you
This
Is
Bitter
Honesty

Woman with the white dress

You look old

And healthy

You're waiting for someone or something outside your door

I saw you for 1 second and thought I'd write about you

Maybe you're waiting for the man you met at the grocery yesterday to pick you up

Too bad he won't be able to get it up

Or maybe you're waiting for your daughter to pick you up for dinner

Or the second coming of Jesus

Or maybe you're just observing the blue sky you've cried to many times

I'm just assuming

Have a great rest of the day

It was good seeing you for one second as I drove by your house

You'll never meet me

And I'll never know if you ever got **** or if you even had a daughter

I love you

if you don't go crazy at least once in your life


you will die in a crazy way......

Black vans
I've been around my neighborhood with them only to see that the people that lived down the street sell drugs and have two adopted children
I dont really know how that works out
Nor do I know how my mother and father worked out for so long
They both seem too different
My sister and I are 5 years apart and I wonder how my mother kept my father around for so long
I hear relationships don't last after the first child
So I wonder what kept the *** going
And I wonder what keeps me going when relationships don't workout after they find out my secrets
I wouldn't have had kept going if I was my mother
Then again I wouldn't be here
And none of what I've written could be true
Maybe I could give my accidental birth some purpose in which I am yet discovering

Being able to exterminate but knowing how to control the fire
Being able to let go unconsciously
There's more to what we see
There's more to labeling
It's not just pain
It's not just happiness
It's freedom within
Being able to handle without thinking of how to control
Being able to forgive when the lions are eating your family members
The more aesthetic you are, the more "****** up" you can be
Or the more YOU you can be
Freedom
"Losing all hope was freedom" -Andrew Hales
So profound
The more you grow, the more accepting you are of what's to come.... even if it's death
Living spontaneously because overthinking is pain you control
The more you love, the deadlier you are to the "enemy"
But it's honest
If the future was written I'd fight the present and alter it's vision
What I'm saying now goes beyond being controlled
The more you fight the more freedom you have with the self
Balance and create
Peace in pain
Shift gears and go a different route
Ego death to defeat "yourself" to see yourself in a true color
Chances are given and not taking them is the same as not existing
Broke barriers and saw myself naked and vulnerable
Accepted myself for what I was and didn't take **** from others
Showed loved and confusion drove them insane.... anger builds within their souls and I just wanted to release anger in a love form
"Become the better version of yourself" -Elliot Hulse
I'm not close to my prime
With every profound moment that passes I start to cry
My phone is dry, but my heart is an ocean of opportunity within
Welcome to your real mind where being free with thoughts isn't a crime
The world is in you, don't let fear control your life
Here's the thing, I'll only grow and grow.... and grow even more
Consciously and physically
Focus on the self
We'll die fulfilled and the mind will be filled with wealth
You'll be prepared for anything
Control is in your hands
You are not a character
Fight for freedom within
It'll slowly fade and strip down
Again, I'm not even in my prime
"I'm only human" there's no excuse
Capable of so much, watch and learn
Do everything you want to do, because death doesn't give you second chances
Live, don't just exist
Take the risk
We try to put a title to everything and it goes beyond what the word means
If you found out your life was being controlled by another type of being would you fight it?
Would you end it?
Find cheats to be free?
If you found out earth was just a grid and your consciousness was based on experience, would explore?
Would you fight what controlled you in order to live free?
Self love will cause them pain
Realizing your worth would trouble their control
Suicide will only please them
You are more than just a character in a game
So fight and release your inner insane

If it was up to me I wouldn't have a name
Menace to society now I see the irony
Every sound is a different kind of feel to observe
A different present moment
How we live during certain  times
It just flows in me snd I let it **** me
Stages of our life that we cant define in time
Character from a high being innovating
With worth in their brains
We're all soldiers since birth and we rebel
And we **** inside..... and we live consciously
*******
A grasping student
I belong to her.... my mother from above
mother of my heart, you are one
And we create ourselves
Just a being from planet earth
We are the creators of life
And mother nature is just being
Treat her well
Stages in my mind
Cages are being broken
We are beings
I see them in my room
There's no mind
There's no rules
There's no mystery
Embrace misery to learn and earn
I'm just a being
Fall for yourself
Open arms...vulnerable
Feel you
I see you
We're just beings
Aliens are here
They're just other conscious beings
**** social media I see myself in keys
Lost in black and white
I own the measures
So vulnerable
**** a phone
My lord, we are our own
What is ******
A way of being
Aliens
I see classically
The MUSIC
I see
Stages are shown
**** a title
The being
Myself
I feel it
I'm just a ****** to you
FUCKKCKCKKAJAKQIIQ
The self
DUDUDUDUUDE
GOD
Communicating
I'm so free
Recording in my mind
Molecules I see you
Messengers
To this feel
The being
This experience
*** and the being
Insane in the king
Voyage the self spiritually
I'm ******* in person
No LANGUAGE
Spiritually depresses
THE SELF

Back in time

SPEAK IN ***

Characters

Languages

****
nd death

BACK IN TIME BEINGS

AND DEATH

I am energy
****

MuSic and death

I AM AN IDEA
Human

Humans e
DOkao

Omggggg in my head


In my head

Prrscrfkkk

Peace and sacrifice k

*** peace
Ggaggaga
Ajgkkkk
*** ACCEPTANCE
THE MIND

*** I'M LIVING
*** I FEEL
***

DUDE
In my head

HEAVEN
HELL
I SEE THE GODS
THEY SPEAK IN CODE
MODERN

I SAW EVERYTHING

I WAS NOTHING
I WAS SO SATAN
I WAS SO GOD

we're not alone

I see you looking at this miss

Baby we're so intimate
And this love will fade, sadly
You'll know me, then you knew me
We'll blow trees and self reflect and see the truth under leaves
So intimate only when lit we'll die like shots with a full clip?
Nah I hope we strive and dive into the fountain of youth where the truth between me and you isn't so blue
And you thought I was Gold and I wish I never doubted your truth
Time flies and we died like the falling leaves during autumn
What's the problem? You said I went in harder without the ******
You said I made you happier than your trips to Nordstrom
Talking as I go I wish I had the nerve to tell you upfront
Least I'm honest now and I'll get **** for this
But I can't look back at the past because these thoughts wont last
The day we split I was suffering from boredom
Went *** and felt numb
You were crying for a couple months
I was barely living, my mother was questiong her last son
What's the reason? There's no reason in seasons when you believe in God
Believe me and please me
You never did, I guess it was just emotionally
Self improvement they wouldn't understand
On the other hand, I'm yours if you say you need to other man
Positive energy
Ah **** I see our lives in geometry
Can't take our way our inner chi
Could never do monogamy
Guess I'm just like my father, nah I'd rather be d.e.a.d
**** a reaction
This **** is blasting
And this will go way harder than my last **** blasphemy

These girlies aint real
Claim they fufilled only when they on the pills
Claim they got it but they missin some bills
Claim they higha when they on some loud
But when they confront all you hear is them meows
**** is you saying
Ain't gotta slang to show you my deal
Don't **** with these cons
I'm shooting these names
These girlies is talk like you run up just for the bronze
Play you in a room full of ******* and all you hear is the yawns
I swear I see you dudes when I mowing my lawns
Snakes in my backyard like you committing a fraud
**** outta here with the weak **** I'm sick of ya bars
i’ll eat you ******* and yall multiply so i’ll never starve
have my heart in my sleeve
you wookies got ya hearts in ya cars
possessions all you living the norm
i bet that **** is corn, you say you cold but you straight looking for warmth
throwing these shots like if these bullets were thoughts
king of these clowns they aint ever been down
you know they cats when they hear me coming they bounce
you know they cats when they shoot me through fake accounts
you know they cats when **** up the deala for the ounce
you know they cats when they roll deep in the city and aint claiming they ground
they flossin what they wish they had, i hear you want them discounts
like whats up your talk?
you just lost and found and soon to be shot with em rounds
with these words so i would back down
im with the funnies so im the clown of this town

When you think of drugs, you think of all of the bad things they do to your mind
I mean, what's so bad about being addicted to happiness
Drugs aren't just drugs
They are addictions that guide the soul
So is her *****
Intelligent ****
Mental serial killer
Universal artist
Emotional balance
Diseased heart
Romantic ******
Spiritual heterosexual
What have I become?
In the end, I was set at the right place... at the right time.

and so the wind blew dust at my way
I put my hands out to cover my face
Then I realized that... when life throws things at you that you don't even want or expect
You have to let them hit you even if it hurts
Because the lessons will be learned and you will survive anything that comes your way
The first punch is always the hardest
You will live

So her hair grew long
Bit her nails nervously on the daily
and so did the memory of her lover who had left without saying anything about his farewell
All she remembers were his last words, "I want you to be happy and that's all... with or without me... you will prosper my darling"
He looked at her and his neck twisted slight to the right
beeeep....beeeep.....beeeep

and so he rest forever in a universe where they guide the lower consciousness with signs in the sky that read
"life goes on"
and so it does
and so you will prosper
You will live with misery and joy
In the end, let yourself fall into a pit of hope that one day you will see you other half in bed, naked
Forever the love is in your hands
So will her heart be on your mind
and yours on hers
The scars will heal within the love you build during the moments you wish you cherished when all goes wrong

LOOK UP


There's a star for you


and it will glow for you


Forever

thinking about what to write..... *idea hits

& she looked so amazing walking out of her house with the beige dress I had bought her for her birthday the month before.
“Hey my handsome prince, where are we going today?” she said.
“Well my love, for our anniversary we will be planning out our dream date together… how does that sound?”
“You always have the best ideas, lets go to “the spot” and write the ideas down…… but first, can we stop by a 711? You know how we get when we’re on high caffeine and full of ideas. I feel like we deliver them more properly, plus I just woke up an hour ago so I could use it”
“Sure thing babe.”

I always wondered how she could say the right things at the wrong times… although all went bad, her words always picked my knees up from the ground when I took the wrong turn.

At this time, I don’t think I’m at my best, but I know that if I lead the road while holding her hand, she’ll know exactly where to turn when I swerve off road.

This moment is special and I’m currently watching her move her head around to our favorite song on the train going to Pearl.

May 27, 2015// WHY DOES THIS GIRL ADD SO MUCH ******* CREAMER IN HER COFFEE *** SHE IS GOING TO DIE OF OVER CREAMING…. THAT DOESN’T MAKE SENSE AND IT ALMOST SOUNDS WRONG… DAVID YOU’RE WEIRD… 2:04 Pm.

-David Bojay

I could see the places we were passing on the train from the reflection in her eyes. I never thought I could see the world in someone’s eyes. I can feel the tilt of the earth when she changes emotion and her eyes change in shape.

“Dream Date List // May 27, 2015”

1. Go to Downtown Dallas
2. Art museum
3. Ice cream trucks
4. Meditate at Klyde Warren in the middle of the field
5. Go for a walk Downtown and try to get on rooftops
6. Get on green lane and go to Deep Ellum to get serious pizza

“Babe are we almost there? I forgot where the stop was..”
“Yes my princess, we’re almost there”
“I’m so ******* hyped dude ***, I like how I can call you dude and feel comfortable like… dude….dude… dude dude dude nothing can tear us apart dude. I love you dude. **** too bomb dude. Dude you’re daddy as ****. Dude. Dude…. See? Our bond is one of a kind and we’re both kind of crazy. I wonder where we’ll be in 5 years”

“To be honest, we’ll probably be in a loft in New York doing a lot of drugs and on Spotify. That would be “goals as ****” don’t you think?”

“Boy hell nah you got me ****** up we are both going to work and make that mullah baby!”

Nothing could crack our humor.

2:54 Pm, May 27, 2015

DAVID DUDE, YOU MADE IT WITH THIS GIRL YOU LOVE… SOMEONE CAN HANDLE YOUR CRAZINESS.. DUDE WHAT THE ****… SHE’S LIKE….. LSD??? CLOSE. WAIT… NO… SHE CAN’T BE COMPARED.. **** I’M SO YOUNG, AND SHE IS TOO. THERE’S SO MUCH MORE TO EVERYTHING….
ART
MEDITATION
WATER
ENERGY
BREATHING
PROTEIN BECAUSE GAINZ AS ****
BOOKS
CONSCIOUSNESS
QUANTUM PHYSICS
PSYCHOLOGY
MONEY (**** THAT)
PASSION
NATURE

THERE’S SO MUCH MORE TO ALL THAT, I AM ONLY 17 AND SHE IS TOO

-David Bojay


We stepped out the train and I had waited for her to get out first because my mom always told me to always let the lady go first…. and so I did.

“You hungry?” I asked
“Not really… but I will be after we smoke this..”
“Did you really just…. you know us so well it’s almost kind of alien of you.”

We were walking towards the elevator and I was talking about how I was about to ******* the other night to the thought of her grabbing my **** at my old church while everyone was praying… we both worked a different way and we thought the idea was…. doable.

lights blunt
“It’s funny how we’re so annoying to each other yet we can’t get enough of eachother… I guess you the one huh?”
“David, to be honest… you’re too much for me sometimes… but holy **** I always want you around…. you’re such a sick ****.”

starts to laugh

“Dude… babe… do you feel that? I THINK THOSE ARE FEELINGS I FEEL TOWARDS YOU AYYYY”
“You’re ******* lame” HAHAHA.
“Come here..”
smack smack muah muah **
“Ugh you always kiss me at the wrong times… I ALWAYS GET WET AT THE WRONG PLACES… SEE THIS IS WHAT I MEAN BY YOU BEING A SICK ****”

Time goes by so fast when you want it to last forever. Whenever something feels so good, the impossible is wished and you want the delusion of “forever” to be actualized.

“Remember that time you told me I could never be able to make you *** in under a minute?”
“Uhmm yes… you can’t…”
puts hand under my pants
begins to stroke aggressively

The view was breath taking… or was she just taking my breath away.
“The Reunion Tower is so small compared to the others, but I guess it has a better view?” I thought to myself while she was jacking me off.

“TOLD YOU I COULD HAAAAA, YOU OWE ME HEAD NOW”

“*** I DIDN’T EVEN FEEL IT COME OUT WHAT THE ****…. MY **** NUMB”

3:48pm, May 27, 2015

YOUR PAIN IS MINE NOOOOOOW
THIS SONG IS SO GREAT
WE ARE SO CLOSE
WE ARE ON EARTH
GROUNDED
WE ARE HERE
TODAY
RIGHT NOW
LOOKING AT CIVILIZATION IN “MODERN IN TIMES”
IN 20 YEARS THIS WILL BE SO OLD
TECHNOLOGY IS ADVANCING SO FAST FOR HUMANS TO FULLY UNDERSTAND THIS
WHY ARE THEY KILLING SO MANY TREES
MAYBE PEOPLE LIVED LONGER BACK THEN BECAUSE THEY HAD MORE OXYGEN TO BREATHE
MAYBE OXYGEN IS LIMITED TO EVERY INDIVIDUAL AND SOME OF US JUST TAKE DEEPER BREATHS AND THAT’S HOW WE DIE YOUNGER
I DOUBT IT BUT ****… I’D BE DEAD AS **** ALREADY BECAUSE MEDITATION
WE ARE HERE
IN THE NOW
WHICH IS TECHNICALLY THE PAST NOW
NOW
NOW
NOW
TIME IS…. I DON’T EVEN KNOW

-David Bojay

Walking towards the art museum, we had talked about how men are just like animals, they target women with big *** and *******. We share information like if we were Gods communicating.
In my opinion, we are Gods… we are put in a person's life at a certain “time” and we deliver messages from a higher consciousness to them and they do the same. I think it’s fate, we need eachother. We need to communicate.

“David, throughout all the fights…. I ******* love you so ******* much and I appreciate you so much for listening…. I’m trying to tell you how I feel when you already know, I just thought it’d be romantic…. I’m such a fool for you… in the gayest way possible.”

I looked at her and smiled… she already knew what I was saying. It’s like if we could communicate with our eyes.
As we walked into the art museum, we noticed everything was so productive. The art spoke to us in a language on our eyes could try to understand and our minds could read if we really looked at it.

“Do you think it’s possible to understand art David?”

“Art is like a human, it never really stops changing. It renews itself like how our cells do. It has purpose, and that is to keep the world alive. To make life worth it in the moment, and the moments gather and moments put together is called “LIFE”. I think. Art is every subject you know blended into one. It can only be understood if you choose to box it in a place where it can’t breathe. Let it breathe. Let it flow through your mind like how blood flows through your veins.”

Every painting spoke to our minds and the more we observed, the more our minds opened and let the angels and demons of the art dimension live in our heads.

“I’m getting pretty hungry now?”

“Pizza my love?”

“Yes please.” **holds hand

// 4 minutes until green lane arrives //

“You guys happen to have any spare change? I’m just trying to get something to eat, I’ve been out here sin..”
“Look man, I don’t really care about your ******* story, I don’t believe it.”

Nobody needs to explain anything if they need it that bad, it’s yes or no and if they do explain, they’re lying to you.

Arrives at Serious Pizza

“What would you like darling? Anything you want, I got you.”

“Oooooook mister big ballah.”

“Shiiiiiet you already know.”

As we were eating, I noticed how unafraid we were to eat infront of eachother. The days, people are so afraid to be themselves and act scared because they’re afraid they won’t be accepted by how they really are. You have to find comfort within yourself before anything.

“Are you full yet?”

“Yeah I’m pretty ******* full, you want to head back to the park and chill?”

“Yes, plus we still have to meditate over there remember?”

“Oh yeah, well let’s dip.”

As we get to the park we find a spot and just sit for a while without saying a word. Sometimes silence is needed when the world around you is being noisy.

“Cross your legs and close your eyes, remember not to name the sounds you hear and to just let every emotion settle in, let it sink, and let it go. Practice your deeper insight and just relax.”

During meditation, being comfortable is key because if something is bothering you, the practice will be interrupted.

// 20 minutes pass //

“We’re so small, but it’s crazy how you and I are the change.”

Our conversations really put us in the right mindstate and that’s what made our spiritual sides really connect. We are one and together pain is numb.

phone rings

“David my mom said I have to go home….”

“Already?”

“I know babe… sorry. We’ll schedule something this week for sure.”

Getting on the train we both realized how tired we were and how the high wore off.

Together our love could break barriers, they might as well not even exist. Barriers are just limits created by someone who was too afraid to give it their all… to unleash their full potential.

“Hey, want to read a poem I wrote for you?”

“Why would you even ask?”

“Ok here we go, I’m still not finished but you’ll get it…”

“The world is there for you
My arms are open
These envelopes are yet to be sent
When the leaves fall don't change your mood
You've been one since the start
Don't die on yourself over someone or a situation you can control
Your strength is the equivalent of that of a bull
Love will come and go
But self love stays and I hope you love yourself just as much as you dream a guy will love you as much as I did
Look at the waves clashing for you
Admire the sky that's falling for you
******* yourself for the eyes on you
But stay strong for they are not all pure intentions
Feel free to test but not enough to cause relations“

“ I want you to know that your words are imprinted in the deepest parts of my heart and that they’ll remain there for the rest of my life my love, we will prosper through the thick and through the thin of this life we judge so much when we try to understand it. David I love you so much and I hope you never forget that.”

“ I won’t princess, I promise you that I won’t.”

silence for the rest of the train ride

7:57 Pm, May 27, 2015

TODAY WAS ******* GREAT
DAVID
YOU ARE IN LOVE
HOW DOES THAT FEEL
HOW DOES IT FEEL HUH?
YOU ARE 17
YOU ARE A DREAMER
YOUR DREAM CAME TRUE
I’M WATCHING HER SLEEP RIGHT NOW AND IT FEELS LIKE IF I’M IN A MOVIE

OKAY WE’RE ALMOST HOME…

-David Bojay

“Wake up baby, we’re here.”

“Dude I’m so glad we’re home, I’m tired as ****.”

“Tell me about it… get up… the doors are opening.”
We were holding hands on the way to the car and telling each other jokes, time finally felt still.
The sun was close to setting so we sat on the curb and just watched the sky sink into the ground… at least that’s how it looked like from a distance.

We stood up and walked to the car, I opened her door and let her sit down before I shut the door.

I stood there for 3 seconds looking at her through the window… she blew me a kiss and I stood there and smiled.

Walking towards my door I had to face the truth… I opened the door….


the seat was empty, my heart was too.
I hope she’s resting easy.
I hope her spirit was with me today, I knew it was.
The delusion felt so real, so so real.
My mind sees what it wants, I talk to the air as if it was you.
I spread my love, as if you were there to grasp it.
I hope you know I miss you, so so much.
I don’t know where I’ve been, and I don’t know what I’ve been getting myself into.
Your ghost is so beautiful.
I wish you were alive to celebrate our anniversary.
We did everything you wanted to do…. I mean… I did everything you wanted to do on our anniversary.
Today was in memory of you my darling, I’ll prosper if you guide me.
I’m really good at pretending you’re alive, I wish it wasn’t all just an illusion, I wish I wasn’t so ******* crazy.
I wish you would’ve never ******* died.
I’m dead inside, but my breathing is split in half so we can share my life.
I hope I prosper.
Why did you have to leave?
I miss you.
Baby.
Dude.
Whenever you decide to come back, I’ll be waiting and we’ll relive today… forreal this time.

8:23, May 27, 2015

DAVID
YOU’RE SHAKING WHILE YOU ARE WRITING THIS
YOU ARE CRYING
YOU ARE CONSCIOUS
YOU ARE ALIVE
SHE IS PASSED
DAVID
WHY ARE YOU SO CRAZY
YOU SEE HER AND SHE’S DEAD
SNAP OUT OF IT DUDE
I CAN’T MAN
DUDE
PLEASE
NO
I CAN’T
DAAAVVVIIID
PLEASE STOP CRYING
THIS SHEET IS GETTING WET
DAVID
I THINK YOU SHOULD GO HOME AND GET SOME SLEEP
DAVID
YOU WILL BE OKAY
YOU WILL PROSPER MAN DON’T GIVE UP
PLEASE… DON’T

- David Bojay




I love you so much.

WE'RE SO INCLINED
REALIZE IT
YOU'RE IT
YOU'RE HERE
PUT YOUR PHONE DOWN
BREATHE AND LISTEN
FEEL YOUR SURROUNDINGS
I'M SO PASSIONATE
IF THERE'S A WILL THERE'S A WAY
ABOUT EVERYTHING AROUND
WHAT I CAN FEEL AND CONTROL
THERE'S SO MUCH MORE TO EVERYTHING
YOU ARE YOUR OWN DESTINY IF YOU BELIEVE IN YOURSELF
DON'T BE TRAPPED IN THIS HOLE OF ADVERTISEMENT
THERE'S SO MUCH MORE TO YOUR EXISTENCE I PROMISE
ASK ME WHAT'S ON MY MIND SO WE CAN PROGRESS DON'T BE WEIRDED OUT BY IT
ANSWER ME HONESTLY
TELL ME
BE HONEST WITH ME AND YOURSELF
**** GOES DOWN BUT IT'S SO POSITIVE
IT'S SUCH A LESSON TO LEARN FROM
MOVE FORWARD
DON'T SETTLE
I'M SO INTO EVERYTHING TO BACK DOWN
I CAN'T BE STUCK
APPRECIATE
THIS IS EARTH
WE'RE HERE FOR A LITTLE WHILE
BUT FOREVER KEEPS THE VIBE GOING
IF THERE'S NOT A FOREVER WE STOP TRYING
IT'S A BEAUTIFUL DELUSION
LET'S KEEP IT GOING
SPREAD LOVE AND GO WITH WHATEVER YOU BELIEVE IN AND ACHIEVE IT BECAUSE YOU WANT IT SO BAD
I WANT TO BE THE BEST
THE WEIRD IS SO YOU
"WHAT'S ON YOUR ******* MIND?"
IT'S SO SAD HOW PEOPLE THINK IT'S A WEIRD QUESTION
I CARE, I WANT TO LEARN ABOUT YOU TO CHANGE PERSPECTIVE
IT'S BAD THAT I THINK IT'S SAD
BUT THE TRUTH HURTS
YOU ARE NATURE
IT'S ALL AROUND YOU
BE WITHIN YOU
THE WIND AND THE TREES
THIS HAS BEEN HERE FOR SO LONG
ON EARTH
THIS IS OUR HOME
DON'T GLUE YOURSELF TO A SCREEN
GET OUT THERE AND BE ONE WITH WHAT'S BEEN THERE SINCE THE START
WHY ARE WE SO INSIDE THIS BUBBLE OF JUST MONEY
THAT'S NOT FULFILMENT
YOU KNOW THAT
SPREAD YOUR PURE NATURE
NOT FOR THE MONEY
DON'T LET IT CONTROL YOU

WE'RE SO INCLINED
REALIZE IT
YOU'RE IT
YOU'RE HERE
PUT YOUR PHONE DOWN
BREATHE AND LISTEN
FEEL YOUR SURROUNDINGS
I'M SO PASSIONATE
ABOUT EVERYTHING AROUND
WHAT I CAN FEEL AND CONTROL
THERE'S SO MUCH MORE TO EVERYTHING
YOU ARE YOUR OWN DESTINY IF YOU BELIEVE IN YOURSELF
DON'T BE TRAPPED IN THIS HOLE OF ADVERTISEMENT
THERE'S SO MUCH MORE TO YOUR EXISTENCE I PROMISE
ASK ME WHAT'S ON MY MIND SO WE CAN PROGRESS DON'T BE WEIRDED OUT BY IT
ANSWER ME HONESTLY
TELL ME
BE HONEST WITH ME AND YOURSELF
**** GOES DOWN BUT IT'S SO POSITIVE
IT'S SUCH A LESSON TO LEARN FROM
MOVE FORWARD
DON'T SETTLE
I'M SO INTO EVERYTHING TO BACK DOWN
I CAN'T BE STUCK
APPRECIATE
THIS IS EARTH
WE'RE HER FOR A LITTLE WHILE
BUT FOREVER KEEPS THE VIBE GOING
IF THERE'S NOT A FOREVER WE STOP TRYING
IT'S A BEAUTIFUL DELUSION
LET'S KEEP IT GOING
SPREAD LOVE AND GO WITH WHATEVER YOU BELIEVE IN AND ACHIEVE IT BECAUSE YOU WANT IT SO BAD
I WANT TO BE THE BEST
THE WEIRD IS SO YOU
"WHAT'S ON YOUR ******* MIND?"
IT'S SO SAD HOW PEOPLE THINK IT'S A WEIRD QUESTION
I CARE, I WANT TO LEARN ABOUT YOU TO CHANGE PERSPECTIVE
IT'S BAD THAT I THINK IT'S SAD
BUT THE TRUTH HURTS
YOU ARE NATURE
IT'S ALL AROUND YOU
BE WITHIN YOU
THE WIND AND THE TREES
THIS HAS BEEN HERE FOR SO LONG
ON EARTH
THIS IS OUR HOME
DON'T GLUE YOURSELF TO A SCREEN
GET OUT THERE AND BE ONE WITH WHAT'S BEEN THERE SINCE THE START

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I came out with a little pdf file book that costs $8, I'm saving up for college and I figured I'd sell 60 poems and some art work to spread my thoughts and ideas.

Light this up real quick lighter
****** hear Sage and they go insane
Who's to blame
Lonely soul just a name you can't detain this brain
Scandalous
Triple six what the **** is sane?
Seeing kittens without the ******* haze
Stroke game long and fast that's Usain
Can't hear you over your girls moans, what the ******* saying?
Super lubin
Leaving all you spoofs
Stupid ****** leave me drooling on the stool
So above to even fall for these hoes cause they come and go like my sadness that makes me feel like a ghost
Too legit to even roast on my foes
Thoughts of overdose
But I can't die cause I am the Goat
Dismiss the dope
Very cynical
Self heal without the clinical
I've been there
I wish it was that easy but it was too difficult
Get it from the back and yo girl in fear
Always teased for being weird
Changing routes like I'm swerving the steer
Off some xanax and all the *** isn't pleasing my emotion to disappear into what's really real
That's death and thats what make you ****** squeal
Ruthless, heart of steel
All I see is snakes when I walk the halls
Down to ball
Never for a *****, money and nothing else
Helps me dwell
Living well trapped in this mental cell
214 ***** where I learned to be myself
Live to excel and to focus on my wealth
Dumb ****** live to flaunt what they cant even cop
Your girl pop lock and drop on this 7inch ****
Dumb ****** get socked up in this world like if their throats clogged
****** sour lime
These acts so undefined
Yo girl kinda fine my girl a ******* dime
The truth I'll help you find
In time we'll be divine and our hearts won't divide
I swear these ******* flinch when I leave em cause the sticky getting to the *******
Up on a podium on some potent
I told myself I'd quit cause I'm just a student
Bish yo man got them moobies
Bish I'm on yo girls mental movies
Bish we smokin some doubies
Bish we making moves
Bish keep up with the groove
Bish yo girl got them cooties
Bish you acting pretty goofy
***** not into materialism but this **** is Gucci
Bish we trip on some lucy
Takes me a minute to make yo girl juicy
Nosey ****** boogie
Bish I'm genius but I'm still pretty gloomy

We were on our way to see the sunset
You had told me that's when your heart felt the warmest
I thought no longer and wanted to feel your hands when you felt the summer sun in your soul
"Move On" by Garden City Movement was playing, the vibe felt so romantically deep
I was falling within the time the song was playing
The mellow sounds made me imagine we were sinking into each other’s paths
Everything felt so surreal
You were looking out the window with a blank stare
When you turned to look at me I swear I could see cosmology in your pupils
I saw the truth, so bright and clear
I felt a kind of love that wasn't prompted
It was there in the most natural way
The sun was setting and our destination was close
Along the way we had talked about living together after everything had passed in our lives
You had mentioned names you'd name our kids even though we weren't serious, I knew deep down we had envisioned it already
We talked what we'd name our dog
We talked about what kind of diet we were going to have
We talked about showering together to save water even though we knew we'd have enough money to pay the water bill
We talked about reading to each other before bed
Going to bars and meeting each other all over again as a game
Movie nights
Barbecue nights
Silent nights
And long walks around the city at 1am
Heading back home and going to Ihop at 3am
When we got there I told you to wait up a bit only so I could open the door for you to show you that I'm still the same gentlemen I am when we first met
You smiled and got out the car, I held both of your hands and kissed your forehead and told you I loved you so much
Although we were erose, we knew we'd make it
I got the blanket out of the back seats and walked a certain distance uphill
Tall buildings, orange skies, and a little forest under us
You were into constellations and I was into the truth
I had named a star after you every night for the past year and a half and told you all of these stars you see now are a reflection of what you mean to me
Endless nights I wish I could've been laying down next to you
We saw everything, so you meant everything
The grip between our hands could start a fire
The grass we were laying on was so soft, you had said you’ve always wanted to watch the sunset with someone you loved
You said “my dreams finally came true” I smiled and held you so tightly not knowing time will take this moment away soon
The voices in my head were yelling random things out of excitement, I didn’t know what to say so I leaned over and kissed you like I’ve never kissed anybody else in my life
Every one of my senses were whole at the moment and your kiss reminded me of what it felt that one night I had a dream of visiting myself in heaven when I was at my lowest mentally
Now we’re here and the sky was darkening, a breeze was coming in so I let you borrow the hoodie I had in my car
The sun was nowhere to be seen so we headed back to the car, I opened the door for you again and you had smiled again
I thought to myself, I’ll never get tired of opening the door for you or seeing you smile
With everything that was going on around us, the positive and the negative, I only cared for you and you only cared for me
Our spirits had binded in between silences and we took long breaths before we kissed because we knew we wouldn’t be able to pull away after that
Driving away from the place, we told each other it wouldn’t be the last time doing that, in fact we told each other there would be better days which I doubted because everything about your presence alone was already the best experience in the universe
I could’ve gone to Mars and I’d still prefer being with you because it all filled my heart with joy
A kind of hope you know you can depend on
A kind of destiny that plays out the way you imagine it
A kind of love you know will last even after the bugs under the ground start eating away my body when I’m buried 6 feet under
The moment was taken away when I saw the lights of an eighteen-wheeler coming right at us because the driver was drunk
I looked at you in panic and you looked at me, time had froze
You closed your eyes just before the crash even though everything was going by so fast
I only remember seeing the sun one more time and that was in your eyes as if they had recorded the setting where I felt the most whole when I was with you
“WHERE IS SHE?!” I yelled
“WHERE THE **** IS SHE?”
My heart was beating so fast and you were nowhere near me, I could feel it
A lady wearing a lab coat came in, suddenly in my head a had a conversation planned out and she was saying you were in the other room and that you were okay
But you weren’t
“She didn’t make the accident… I’m sorry”
I remember doctors coming into the room because they had heard me screaming out
“NOOOOOOOOOOO” “LET ME SEE HER” “THIS HAS TO BE A DREAM” “WHERE IS SHE?” “THIS ISN’T FAIR”
My pillow was soaked in tears, they were falling by the sides of my cheeks
I moved my body around even though it hurt worse than a million knives stabbing me at the same time
I had to go see you
I had to go see you no matter what
The doctors held me down and I had to fake being calm for the longest
My mind was dying
My heart was dead
My body couldn’t take the pain
I figured it was you that gave me the strength to pull the cord, so I could go visit you…. In the other life
And so you did, but I had committed too many sins to go where you were
At least you tried to save us, I love you so much

I left you because I couldn't even deal with myself
I guess it's because I helped you forget about what you really felt
Introspect so you could dwell
Spiritual healing, no need to reach a psychiatrist for help
Unlocking ourselves from these media cells
At the moment I see it in your walk that you're full of misery
Just cause I don't miss you doesn't mean I don't wish you well
In time you'll realize, everyone has been God
Visions from the past, weary brain
Timid dreams troubled teens 17 but living kings in this vivid theme
Afraid of the risks
Don't be like her
It's all a blur
Don't clear it up
Diseased since birth
It's not your fault
When it hurts let it burn
Keep going and never turn
Keep what you see and feel to learn

http://davidbojay.tumblr.com/

Writing stories under the moon
Like creating for our universe
Like writing for the future
Like inspiring for my children
Like making stories for kids to correct in textbooks
Like writing lies for a truth based on theories
Like writing truth for a false prediction of the future
Like disproving the Egyptians
Like showing just how passionate I am about words
False intellects tell us differently
But we've got it all
We've got it all
We've had it all
We'll have it all
Unreal limits, the only limit is the speed of light
Like knowing loving and not knowing what to do with it
Like regretting someone you've had for so long
Like running around looking for passion when it's in you
Like existing but not knowing how to live
Like acting but not knowing what you did
Like popping ecstacy and expecting to please
Like hugging your mom and not knowing wether she'll wake up the next morning
Like walking away and never coming back to what was your destiny

The future, we fell out
Like how did we grow apart
Like how do we forget our childhood
I'm building a still with bare hands
I wish glue could fix us
This time has been remotely mild
Our anthem was the cheers from away
WHY DID YOU LIE TO ME WHY DID YOU LIE TO ME
YOU DIED ON ME
YOU'RE DYING IN ME
Like I don't want a lung to fail on me thats what you are to me
A reason to live, another soul that keeps another one alive
Why did you leave me
My time is wasted if you're not on my clock
LOOK AT THESE TEARS LOOK AT THESE LETTERS I TRIED SENDING YOU
YOU DIED ON ME, YOU JOHN LENNONED ME
My feelings were like rust and you were the magic that made them gold again

Patterned multi colored visuals to make you look ugly
Them pills didn't help me concentrate
It was always about the passion behind it
I've been realer lately
What if happiness isn't for everyone?
What if depression is supposed to be the way someone feels because that's the way they're meant to be
Apache heart, feel everything around me
I love without the mystics
I love passed the speed of light
I'll love until my grave becomes dirt
I knew I could be everything when I surpassed my Elliot Rodgers phase
I'm under the sun, under a ray that distinguishes us
A ray of light that makes us discriminate

It takes time
It takes time to just be as things are
It takes time to be who you are
It takes times time for me to be me with you
I think it's just you
I'll be indecisive
I'll be weird
It's just you, in the most loving way because I don't want to lose you
We'll have time to move forward with our rhythms
Be real with ourselves
With our emotions
With our everything, together
We won't have to force it
Our comfort will take time, it'll be worth it
You'll be there
And I'll be here
For you, always for you
If it comes true, then count on me
Tell me about the wars inside your head
And I'll tell you about mine
They're just words, so I'll hold you tight
Because they don't mean a thing
Promising acts
Promising kisses for the future
Feeling love for the present
Living in the moment for the thrill of love
love love love love love love love

True colors, born brothers
The ugly is the pretty to a soldier who's seen it all
Have I seen depression? Have I seen it all?
Have I really seen my true sadness?
Have you really seen your mother?
Have you really kissed her knowing that's all she's ever wanted?
False perception
Good intentions
Real decisions
Small connections
When I think of all the love, I'm in trouble
Have you thought of yourself as a king or queen?
Because you are
You've always been in a world that's yours to rule and conquer
We could live, we could become
Always become

Saw God and haven't even died
I saw myself and began to cry
I looked at my mom and fell to my knees
I thought of death and never went through
I got the noose but never tied it around my neck, old news
I was on the edge when I sensed wonders
Studied the universe with my eyes
I felt the wind pat me on my back
I felt the sun hugging me with it's rays
I heard the birds composing for me
I saw God and I was looking in the mirror
I saw us and we were walking together
I saw everything and thought of us as citizens of the universe
I saw you and felt the love
A new kind of love
I felt my skin and walked back
I looked at my palms and saw atoms
I saw God and it was us
I saw God and we are true
I saw God and we are conscious
I saw God and we make it possible
I saw God and I felt love

Losing sleep in this modern grid and losing contact to get attention
Baby girl we should get off of this
Patterned paper to see the ourselves as superior from all of this
Jailed in this God state of mind when we've been everything from the start of all of this
Dmt got me feeling this feeling doesn't really exist
Got me thinking we don't coexist
Got me thinking there's really a sphinx
Got me loving wrong, loving wrong
How do I love?
I want you to teach me baby girl, I'm off of this
You're my addiction and I'm so off of you
We're God why are we so being so narcissist
Love is real, we have to learn to bind our ****
Loving you wasn't an accident
It just happened and time has drawn us in this opposition of symphasis
It's crazy, I just want to belong to a world full of fantasists

Let it breathe

Let it ease

Let it free

I have the key

Let me cease the moments with nothing but love

Keep me away from jealousy because insecurity comes and goes

Its human nature

Let us feel everything bad and good, balanced

Its human nature

We’re supposed to for the best at the end

Let me feel, let me feel

Feel everything there is to love

Feel everything there is to pain

Feel everything there is to life

Because that's when I know I really lived

Fluid loving
Intellectual touches to my ego makes me feel safe
These faces are similiar and my is mood levitating in the cosmos full of misery
The dreams I've been diving in have been hallucinations of my twisted universe
I wrote a eulogy of a person who made me suffer most
Oneness with the universe, I'm one with you baby girl I still think you're all that's worth
Lost in the prisms
Walking in natures holographic reality
Getting through with this spirit that helps me feel real to deal with these feelings I get when I'm missing you
Wasted love like unfinished letters to my old girl
Like how did we fall out?
Playing some John Lennon to convert tears into melodies
Acidic skies, many why's
The answer to the questions are neither truth or lies so I'll keep reticent and keep my 2 cents

I keep rereading what I wrote last night... everything is so true and I don't deny it
I was out of it
Out of myself but so in with words
My brain is loose and fresh
I feel me
I feel you
I always will
I always had
Why don't I have the guts to tell you?
Why?
You'll ******* off most definitely
I keep thinking of you
If you think about it, we're so close to death
I could be typing this and someone could be pointing a gun at me from a distance
I hope you're okay
I hope you're safe
I think I'm God
At least the concept
We served our time with depression and we made it out
I was crying inside the mental hospital knowing you left me when I fell down on life
I'd pray and pray that one day you'd be my wife
We'd talk about how we would live together and how we'd own pets
Trips to the store and *** that would feel so right
No matter how cliche that is I'd say I was saying only the truth
Our truth is made up and thats what makes it special
It's ours and only ours
It was never about me, but us
As conscious beings
We
We are here we are there
We are ours and sometimes lost
I drew myself in your arms and time is erasing me
We've erased the future we envisioned and the present is gorgeous for the moment
Poetry speaks and the wind sure likes to listen to me
I hope you're listening
I hope everyone knows there is still time to forgive
Because I forgave
And love is a reflection of the cosmos
Like we're a reflection of equations
We could be the truth or we could be misinterpreted
We've created number we've created numbers we've created numbers we've created letters letters on letters on letters
We are time
We've made it to the point of limiting experience
We've created beliefs to follow for comfort
Do we really understand what life on earth was a million years ago?
Are we that great?
I don't want to get caught up in the past or in what I can be
I may be scared of what I'll turn out to be and I've always been scared to fear the future
What happened to me?
I hope in just simply becoming
Why cant we be together and grow strong?
We have titles for those who believe and for those who dont believe and those who don't and that separates us from us and judge eachother
Why can't we live without despising eachother and our beliefs
I'm just feeling more these days....

It was the blankness
I thought I was losing
I was really just memorizing
Look up baby girl, you're going to grow up soon
& you grow down once you feel the falseness
I wish you wasn't so lost in the reflection of insecurities
I wish you'd see your stretch marks as progression
Baby girl, you'll eventually die in a positive way
You're so universe
I wish you'd comeover on a day my mom works late
I hope you feel more than you think when your yellow becomes blue for a few moments
I'll be green, you'll be flexing that smile
Point your gun at what you can afford
Don't let your parents beliefs affect what you can be
Political talks, that's how you intimidate
I couldn't be hoping for more with you on earth
These bridges aren't worth much to me
This wood only wants to be in you
I hope you'd let me explore inside the lips
Don't let them tell you you're not good enough
Because you always were and the past forgives and strengthens
I'd close my eyes if I knew you'll be my first vision when I open them again
I was just learning myself throughout the way
And you was just waiting for me to pass the test
We dont have to talk through screens cause my lips are smooth during the times I know I'd see you, for you

My liver is slowly dying
It's a sign to quit but I don't think I should
Drafts are reminders of what you are to me
I shouldn't let go of what I lived for
I'm fading into my patience
Red grains, red grains, yeahg
I'm all in for the energy
It is happening again, again, again
12:08 and it is happening again
7/11 for the protein, weird huh? Yeahhhh
My friends for the comfort
My mind for the **** of it
Seriously happening again
Dimensions for us again, yeahhh
Are we connected or are social media?
Visions for the blind, you and I
Music for the deaf, love is loud
God for the hopeless so they'll feel even more hopeless after
LET GO LET GO YEAHHHH
We are drowning, we have to learn to swim
Dancing like I'm possessed in my room
Dancing so gay, so happy, so smoothly
I'm having *** with the air
I'm making out with the random
I bet my mom feels weird telling me "God bless"
I am happening again, yeahhhh
Yeahhh

People cant live without music
A human made idea
We can do the same
We can't live without love
An idea in our heads
We can't
We've made our own satisfying ideas
We're so real with our senses
We're so words
Nomal, stupid, weird, mental, and great
We're so universe
We're so animal
We're so contradictory
The only thing we're looking forward to in life is dying and going to heaven
I'm not with that
I'm wanting to live in the moment and love everything
School is not a place to get through life
It's learning that will
Its crazy
Some people at my school want to commit suicide
A girl at my school is getting ***** at home
A boy is questioning his sexuality
Fight the challenge
If your likes makes you happy don't be scared to say them

Finding pain deap in the sea
Deep in the heart
8501
Becoming the one, erasing my dumb, feeling what was numb
The green make her come but don't make her ***
Junk days are done
She made me feel good until I found out she was drunk
What a deception I knew I was done
These new girls are trash and nothing but stunts
Why are your sheets so wet? I just wanted some fun
I was destined to pull the trig when I was aiming my gun
My rights could be a lie but I'm still certain
Could be derogatory to the way you're living  
Oh well

Kinda crazy
Mondays are lazy
These ladies they they mire me and I'm tired of the regular
I had to change it up
My incense is burning
My heart is burning
My mind is growing
My dad is more loving
My mom is hard working
My brother and I are bonding more
My sister is more open
I'm more at peace with everyone
I should've been more forgiving
The time is now and I'll say sorry if I have to whenever I should be

The real devil is social media
I am one with peace
Peace should be a chant
Everyone needs it
I shouldn't be drinking much
I shouldn't be stealing
But here I am, drunk as **** and talking to my ex girlfriend
My mom is really crazy
What kind of higher power makes her suffer
I'm ashamed
You deserved everything but the best and hopefully an extra large cup full of of hope will fill you up
Hopefully I'm not selfish
I'll believe in God if you cameback honestly
You were my one and only The real devil is social media
I am one with peace
Peace should be a chant
Everyone needs it
I shouldn't be drinking much
I shouldn't be stealing
But here I am, drunk as **** and talking to my ex girlfriend
My mom is really crazy
What kind of higher power makes her suffer
I'm ashamed
You deserved everything but the best and hopefully an extra large cup full of of hope will fill you up
Hopefully I'm not selfish
I'll believe in God if you cameback honestly
You were my one and only
The real devil is social media
I am one with peace
Peace should be a chant
Everyone needs it
I shouldn't be drinking much
I shouldn't be stealing
But here I am, drunk as **** and talking to my ex girlfriend
My mom is really crazy
What kind of higher power makes her suffer
I'm ashamed
You deserved everything but the best and hopefully an extra large cup full of of hope will fill you up
Hopefully I'm not selfish
I'll believe in God if you cameback honestly
You were my one and only
I might have said that twice
Nvm I'm fulfilled what am I even bringing up
****
So what if I have the world in my hands
I don't have you
Oh wait
I'm supposed to be forgetting
And I'll pray to the God my mom prays to unt the day you're mine again
DID I JUST REPEAT A LOT OF THAT

Look at your friends and kiss them
Look at your mom and hug her
Kiss you older sibling
Kiss your youngest
Tell your preacher I said *******
Tell him I found peace in myself somewhere else
Tell him I dont live for SOMEONE or SOMETHING but my life
I dont want to live life just so I can be judged at the end and fear it
I dont want to fear dying because all of the sins
I want to live by my sacrifices
I want to live it for me
**** is very dull... like I want to feel you and kiss you and touch you and just sense you not just ****...
Theres so much that hold us back from loving eachother like judging color and race or differences.. get to know them
theses so much energy that we can't even access in this form
You're human I'm human, lets be together and love
Every interaction should be loving and compassionate
The only thing we're looking forward to in life is dying and going to heaven
I'm not with that
I'm wanting to live in the moment and love everything
School is not a place to get through life
It's learning that will
Its crazy
Some people at my school want to commit suicide
A girl at my school is getting ***** at home
A boy is questioning his sexuality
If your likes makes you happy don't be scared to say them
Lets live instead of just existing
Lets let of our pride and forgive
Appreciate and act on it