Warning
I will love you

Warning
I cannot handle friends
As lonely an abyss as it may be

Warning
Your eyes will start to scream forever

Warning
Your mouth will start to promise it

Warning
Time flies and it feels like we're on a seesaw because nothing is ever good or bad long even if they feel like the longest days of my life

Warning
We are sharing a bed
We have named our children the ones we don't have

Warning
You hold me every night
Make love every day
Until the time comes you don't do either

Warning
You are slipping and I'm suppose to catch you but I'm falling apart and you're sending mixed signals

Warning
Because even after years of being lovers and friends you cannot be honest with me

Warning
We will end over and over again
You will break my heart so many times

Warning
I will come whenever you call or text
Because first love isn't one you forget

Warning
I will climb into your bed
Make love half a dozen times
Sleep beside you
Hug you back everytime you hug me

Warning
One day you won't invite me over anymore

Warning
One day you'll have a new woman
Make new promises you'll break
Name new kids
Or say you never wanted any to begin with

Warning
You'll message me to complain some days
Other days you'll message me almost as if to gloat the nothingness I have

Warning
I will still love you

Warning
I will never really stop

Warning
I still see the world in your eyes.

Only he
Can make the ugliness
Of this world
Seem invisible,

Only he
Can make my yucky,
Bad days
Feel somewhat beautiful.

By Lady R.F. (C)2017

UNNOTICED
The first time i saw you
I couldn’t get my eyes off you
You smiled at everyone in that room but me
I guess your smile was what caught my eye
Was it the way you walked
Maybe it was the way you talked
I remember you sounded like the whispers of angels

  I was heading home that day smiling like riches kissed me
Too shy to explain the reason why
My friends see me as tough
As the one who doesn’t fall in love
But that is the biggest lie i live with

You were strangely too beautiful to forget
Your face as smooth as polished marbles
So i painted imaginations of us
I struggled to understand why i felt this way
I reached back in time wishing i told you how i felt
But i wasn’t so sure that you would feel the same way

I came back every time i had a chance
To behold your sun bright smile
To see the soft freshness of your skin
I wished your  gentle eyes would fall upon mine
I stalked you without you knowing
From a distance i loved you for you
In my dreams i constantly see you

In my own fantasies i took you on uncountable dates
I pinned pictures of you in my bedroom
I knew i loved you better than the one you love
I made myself to believe that you are mine
You are a human adorned in splendor
The honey that sweetened my life without knowing

Days turned into weeks and so it continued
I was comfortable with loving you from a distance
Why? because i was too scared!
Too scared that you would say NO
Too scared that i would mess things up and lose you forever

I know you might call me a coward
But would you blame me?
Would you blame me for being scared to lose you?
You were mine and i wasn’t yours
Yea truly most times it makes me really sad

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Without you knowing you melted a heart as cold as ice
Without you knowing you made me fall in love
Without you knowing you brought sunshine to my life
Without you knowing your voice became what disarms my demons
Without you knowing i smile in my loneliness
Without you knowing you are the love of my life

In your world i am but a foreigner
In my world you are everything
The stars that beautified my planet
The sweet violin constantly repeating in my head
You have become the commanding officer of my happiness
Yet in your world i am still the UNNOTICED.

You had me.

Completely.

From the very start. And you knew it.

It’s strange; how different you are to me now.

But, how foolish of me to believe a conman’s pitch?

But, how could I not?
It was the best kind of lie; one I wanted to believe.

My heart stopped beating each time I looked at you.
How could I overlook my own cardiac arrests?
Your tongue was so smooth, I didn’t notice it was forked.
Your words sounded so good, I didn’t realise they could be false.
I fell so hard, that I didn’t even think that I could hit the ground.

But, of course, I hit the cold concrete.
In fact, I crash every time I remember your face.

Because sometimes the cruelest of liars are the easiest to believe.

My heart beat like a drum
endlessly falling for you.
I licked my lips of colored plum,
hoping it will touch yours too.

You held me like I was yours,  
and it meant that you were mine.
It was a night like no other,
a feeling of cloud nine.

Your left hand wrapped upon my right.
Your right hand on my immobile arm.
I held on to you too tight
hoping that it will be no harm.

It was a feeling like no other
to finally feel loved.
Fortuitously slept, rather
than talking to my beloved.