How do I say its not going to work out? How do I just randomly break his heart when I honestly care so much about him?
"He's my LORD" I will tell him,"You know our earthly love cannot compare."
I feel he is allowed me to stray from you oh LORD, for he tempts me so much.
But what do I do? Do i just come out and say it? Do I let the throat cutting words that slip from my lips be as simple as,"Excuse me, do you know the time?"
And the worst part of it is the selfless soul dwelling with in me. I have given too much, and so much so that my own skin is growing thinner and thinner. My insides slowly disappear every time I offer you something.
I am dying.
I have been giving ever piece of myself to you completely, and I can't take it. And the thing is, my body is already so weak that it makes it so much harder for the words I need to tell you to even reach my lips.
You are the collector of my insides, trapper, hunter, and experimenter.
Your check list is almost filled up along with the shelves stacked high with jars of me. Pretty soon, my soul will be wrapped around your finger, and I am certain that will be the ultimate death of me.
"Oh LORD, please hear my thoughts. Save my soul from this false love and take me home again where I can be consumed in your grace."
If at all that is possible.
-Julia Aubrey Rhodes-