Sometimes I feel like I could just cry
The way you treat me drives my heart wild
You're so sweet to me and you're so kind
You're learning to be gentle with me I'm so glad that you're mine
I felt so alone before you came along my smiles were just packed away
I felt so numb before you came along
I'll always want you to stay

I wish that you weren't so negative
I don't want to talk to you because of it
You're like that black shadow in my dreams
You are a cancer taking away everything

I have a lot to do today
You can either come along or you can just stay
I'd be happy either way
I love the thought of you and I love your kiss
I love the thought of you kissing my lips

Get inspired by the music
Get inspired and then lose it
Go crazy
Yeah baby
January weather is finally over
It's getting hot
It's now or never
Make a move

I want to share this with you and I want you to know
That I'll always be there for you I will help you to grow
It may seem as if I'm mad but I'm not
It may seem like I hate you but I don't
I just want what's best for you that's why I called the cops
Maybe they'll teach you that it does no good to stalk

Up in the morning
Feeling a bit *****
You're fast asleep there
I'm lying in my underwear
Lace chonies but not a thong
I started to play our favorite song
Then I stopped to feel your ****
It's not standing up
I really feel as if I have bad luck
With him or maybe it's just me
I'll please myself and get lost in the galaxy

Nice is the icing on the cake after it's been baked
Nice is water streaming down the rocks and the ground
Nice is the breeze that plucks autumn leaves
Nice is perfectly combed hair and lace underwear
Nice is red nice is green
Nice is not me
I am kind
With a strong powerful mind
I am kind
Nice and smart combined

Your words they slip right out of my hand
Your lips they kiss but it's so sad
You don't want me
No longer need me
When we're together it's like you don't believe me
How can I trust someone who won't trust me
How could I breathe when the answers are so hard to see

I write I write about my life
You write you write  about your nights
Out and about and partying
While I live in my room vibing
Just alone and at peace thinking of you
You're my man and I put my trust in you
I'll never fear a day again as long as I have you in my head

Nothing is the same with you gone
Everything seems to always go wrong
I think you make me whole
I think you make me feel like myself
More than I can alone
Being with you is necessary if I want to survive
Being with you is  necessary if I want a better life

Let's be serious let's love each other right
Let's make beautiful love like we did the other night
Let's hold each other and dance like crazy
Let's wear nothing and be all lazy
This feeling I get is feeling from hell
But it honestly feels like we're doing each other well
I love you and you love me
Why is it so hard for us to see ?

I am not in the mood to write but I think that's okay
I'm not in the mood to write at least not today
It's better to lay down and dream up unreal things
It's better to chill and forget everything
That doesn't pay the bills though
That doesn't keep you fed
If you can't pay your rent then you won't have a bed
I'd rather go to sleep than to work on anything
I must be sick

You're honestly just like me
All hurt and sad so clear to see
But it's only clear to me because you hide it from the world and that is what I do too
Everyone thinks I'm happy but they haven't got a clue
I'm very thankful that I bumped into you
You're honestly better than the rest of them there's something about you that makes me want to stay by you forever
You're so kind and loving and clever
I just love the person that you are today and I really hope that person never fades away
I honestly believe that I am the only one who can understand you I honestly believe that I'm the only one you call, "boo" I honestly trust you with everything inside of me I honestly love you for who you're becoming you're the one I want to give all my loving

You are my home and everything inside of you is so amazing it is so beautiful
Your hair is so golden so thin and so soft
Your eyes are a deep soft blue pulling me into your world that no one else has got to experience
I got the chance to have you and I know that we may not be together forever but what I do know is, is that I want your kids I want your soft hands on me too
I want your love
I want you boo

If I had a chance to sing or to dance I would choose neither because you aren't in my hands

If I had to choose to love or to lose I'd love with all my might if it meant that I could find you

If I had to leave the US and live alone, I'd do that in a heart beat as long as you'll stay my home

If my life is meant to write poems and songs then let it be
I can't be wrong
I love to do many things that excite me
I love to do things that are bad
I love to do great things and
I only want what I never had
peace and love are for me
Poems and songs set me free
From all the bad things that they all left for me

I have missed you while I was away
I missed your scent and your smile and the way that you played
with me at night then held me tight
you were a constant reminder, everything was alright
again you are here and you are in my face
now you are here and I will never escape from you my dear
I'm so glad that you're here

There are so many bad things that are happening and I am getting irritated more quickly.
What if I told you that I would become famous. What if I told you that one day everyone will know what my name is. What if I told you that I can't seem to shake the shade. What if I told you that I no longer feel comfortable in this bed I made. What if I told you that you were right and what if I never saw the world and never came home at night?

You have a lot of work to be done and I could help you if you'd let me
You won't though cause ***** jeans and stained hoodies is all you know
You filter it in black and white just to look decent on Instagram
We all know that it's fake but you still post that half smile anyway

I have mastered this at a very young age
Trust me, darling, I feel no pain
You think you're cooler than me
Well I think you're strange
You think you have life figured out and that yo are going to go far
Well guess what ? I hate you now and I egged your car
Your smile is a very sweet one but when you open it to talk at me I want to delete you out of my life
He was taking photos of me and now you're trying to become his wife
You feel like an ancient queen so here's my advice
Ready for it?
Just die.

I made the biggest mistake of my life more than twice
This is clearly not okay yet all I do is cry
I get confused by the things that I like
I pretend that I am doing just fine
When in reality nothing is right

Neglected
Disrespected
The world has me disconnected
Fiery eyes
A very small size
A bad mouth for the window to my soul
A bad colored dress appears less shiny and more dull
A crooked tooth
A former teacher named Mrs. Booth
Books to read that aren't yours
Watching the sky fall on the shore
Lying in the sand where my whole life was planned
With you. Contigo.
With me. There's a seagul.
He pooped on my thigh
It's so brown and now I want to cry
Wait! But that means Good Luck!!
Watch all of my dreams erupt!

She is trying so hard to be famous
I am forever wishing I was nameless
When she looks at me she is so focused
She really thinks that I don't know this
She wants to be me so bad
I just really want to stop being so sad
I have made up my mind...I am moving to LA
She thinks I care about her being away
The truth is I am just trying to make enough money
To get out of here
To be 5 blocks up from Santa Monica Pier
I want to leave myself a mark
I want to leave my light in the spaces where it's dark
When they turn on their lamp they will always have a wet cold feeling
I will be in my beautiful studio apartment just chilling
Just remember me when you look in the mirror
And how I always took away your sadness and fear

Look at the smile on that woman's face
Look at her shoes
Feel her warm embrace
Watch her laugh
Hear her sing
This woman right here is everything

can you see me?
I am still here
I walk with a limp but I am still here
my eye has a twitch but I am still here
I can feel the heat on the face
I can feel the blades of grass between my soft hands
I can smell the dirt
I am unstructured
But I am here

Go to bed little child your days have come
To be the adult you’ve wanted to be since you were young
Didn’t mama tell you that your hair is a mess?
Maybe that it why she never got you that dress
Anyways young child please go home
You need to sleep. Your days have come.

She has sixteen cents and a bottle of coke.
Walking home from Grandma’s in boots and shorts
Her hat hangs low and her mouth is cold
She has sixteen cents and a bottle of coke.
The wind screams loud and the summer gets cold
Her days are young but they seem so old
She has sixteen cents and a bottle of coke.
She walks up to the trees whose leaves are orange and red
Her eyes get black.
She has found a place to lay her head.
She had sixteen cents and a bottle of coke.

I'm starting to see the light
I would say I'm starting to see the light again
but I have never seen it
The sun is coming out
peeking from behind the grey mountain tops
it's going at a fair pace
but things are getting in the way
and stopping it from rising
Those **** crows
always flying in a pack
trying to ruin someones day
my day

I would hug you my friend
but my clothes are tattered
my hair's a mess
I don't smell very pleasant either
I want to tell you it's okay
but I'm nothing
I'm under you
I'm living in poverty
you have plans to go to college
I don't have enough money to get me through the week
my friend you mean so much to me
I wish I meant something to you

Look at that bunny
over there
stay away from it
it looks ill
no longer sane
do you understand?
you'll catch it's disease
if you go any where near it
now I tell you this, child
to keep you safe

Slitting her wrists was a cry for help
a very faint whimper
she watched as the blood dropped freely onto her lap
splashing against her tan skin
waiting to feel "okay" again
but this time she didn't
she cut until she felt weak
weaker
weaker
....
gone