I wish I
had the guts
to walk away and forget
about what we had,
but I can't because I know
you won't come after me
and that's what hurts the most.

I told myself
"I will have a great day"
We tell ourselves things that are so cliche
but makes us feel even more isolate.

Despite the positive affirmations
I felt so unmotivated and everything I did or told myself I will do
made it feel like it was obligated.

They are exactly like a mirror
that has been punched and
d
r
o
p
p
e
d
on the floor into p
                             i
                               e
                                 c
                                    e
                                       s
and been joined back
together

when you stand in front of them,
the create hundreds of different  incomplete
                                                                                  υoγ ʇo  ƨnoiɈɔɘlʇɘɿ

"As long as I
don't lose you
I am ok"

Those words will forever
be embedded in my brain,
because you still left me
what a shame.

Somedays I'd just rather
be alone than being with people
that make me feel lonely.

Other days I'd rather be
alone and unbothered
because I want to feel nothing,
exactly nothing at all.

as long as I don't talk about it , then
it never happened.

I know I
said I wouldn't
be capable of
breaking someone's
heart,
but I guess I lied
because I have broken the
hearts of those I never
loved in return.

Last night I was
in pain,
I cried loud and clear
but no one heard me,
people were around
but
no one helped me
despite my plea.

god ****** you are so beautiful, you're like a walking piece of art

and as someone who loves art
and has seen **** like van gogh's starry night in person
or monet's water lilies
or any of beth cavener's sculptures
you are so ******* unique
and breathtaking
I can't get over you
I never want to have to
you're as priceless as salvator mundi
and I feel so ******* lucky to have even gotten a glimpse of you