You know ,
Confusion is a clear
Symptom of abuse.
Healthy relationship
Are always clear
Like the deep blue sky
on a sunny day.

You always know
Where you stand
Like the deep blue sea ,
You do not  waver

Yes,  it is not always
Easy to let go
But
You’ve got to find a way
To let people go
And
Institutions that bring
Confusion in your life

Cut off the power to this brain
for a day I'd like to live "normal"
without anxiety ruining my days

without depression keeping me in bed
not wanting to shower, not wanting to take pride in myself
I used to spend hours doing makeup and making myself look fabulous..
now there's not a day that goes by where I don't wear makeup or bother to even brush my hair...
what do I really like about myself?
Nothing...

**** switch, could there just be a switch that I could turn off?

Today I don't want to off myself, today I will try to heal myself from this pain I carry!

just **** the switch...

As I took that plunge into the deep blue sea
I never thought once to catch my breathe
as the water fills my lungs, I whisper it's time

closing my eyes, feeling the cold water rush around my body
my body is numb, my fingers don't feel
I am one with the sea...

now I'm barely breathing...

Days turning into long nights, woken by cold sweats, and horrifying ****** screams.
tossing and turning in my bed, laying paralyzed...
thinking the blankets over my head will protect me from the demons lingering about in my room.
room drops degrees while they stand above me, taunting me, keeping me awake!