I run my tongue along my teeth
And it feels like it should be yours there
Because I put words in your mouth anyway.

Dad,
You don't get me,
You never have.
When I ran away,
Were you even sad?
Dad,
You wanted me gold,
I tarnished in your hands.
I fell through your fingers
Like grains of sand.
Dad,
You don't get me.
Especially not when
I told you to call me
Kylo Ren.

Okay, here it is.
You drive me crazy.
Some nights I want you to just kiss me already.
And then other days, I want to strangle you.

And then you smile at me like I'm the reason you're happy.
Then you go and make her feel that way too.

You say something mean
And later tell me you are interested in me.

Say it doesn't matter,
Say the opposite.
And then "What do you want?" You ask me. "Is it me?"

But I don't even know who you are.

4/19/16

I am not the girl who sits by the phone waiting for you to call

I am not the girl who will tell you that she misses you

I am not the girl who will whisper to you how she really feels

I am not the girl that will ask you to come over tonight

I am not the girl you will drape your long arms around

I am not the girl hanging onto your every word

I am the girl you are frustrated with because I am not that girl.

Am I like her?
So brilliant, so kind,
Ahead of us all shining high?
Laughter a song,
Silence a book,
Stories told
Don't need a hook?
A lovely goddess
That makes you sigh?
Or am I just a lamp you wouldn't buy?

4/24/16

I hope you don't shy away from opportunities
And sometimes live in the moment, but don't take unnecessary risks and make avoidable mistakes

I hope you learn that it's okay to make mistakes and learn to enjoy learning new things, even if you aren't good at them

I hope you don't give up and miss a chance to see what you could have accomplished
However if you do, I hope you don't dwell, and instead move on, making the most of the door you've chosen- it may be better than you anticipated.

I hope you make new friends who will teach you and help you grow in the direction you need. Don't let your old friendships fade when time seems to be an obstacle.

Love and forgive yourself. You make mistakes. So does everyone else. I hope you won't take things so seriously and personally because you
are you.

Speaking of which, do you. Don't let yourself be ruled by others' opinions because in the end, shouldn't you be doing what you love, not what they do. That's for them; This is for you.

Give yourself to relationships making sure you invest in the ones you care about. Cut negative, unnecessary sources from you life. Learn to say no. There will always be that person, so you might as well learn how to do
it now.

But I want you to live. I want you to experience so much, realizing you only get to once. Try new things a least once. Listen to advice, decide if it's worthwhile. I hope you always do your best. Live like the movies and mimic the cliches, making sure you are original too. Let your heart beat and let yourself feel.

4/18/16

The precious stones I collect,
I share some with you
Always picking them up
Don't even notice when our rocks have fallen
I know I should have a basket
But it's so like me
To think I can hold them all on my human own.

4/11/16