I cannot speak,
Could not foresee,
It was a danger,
My judgements was led astray,
By liquor and talk of women,
The ugly truth of my sin,
Is I always try to hide,
Committing a crime of passion,
I want to desperately say,
But world's weight crushes me,
That is the lie I tempt to deploy,
As it was a lady of the evening,
I spent a night with not of love,
It was voracious lust,
Twas gluttony of ***,
Promised my hand to another,
Spent it in another's arms,
Now my name and money pay,
Not known as a saint,
Just the cheating dog,
My wallet cries with pain,
Every cent ripped from itself,
That night cost me my life,
Now I am forever gone,
Goodbye my friend,
I'll see Reaper at my rope.

Do you see these nails that are bitten and torn to shreds.
Do you see my hair that is mangled and tangled, it hasn't been washed in days.
Do you see this acne on my face, I pick at it till it leaves scars.
Do you see the clothes I'm wearing, I bet I haven't changed them in weeks.
Do you see this room, I haven't cleaned it in months
Do you see my teeth, they bleed because I haven't brushed them in awhile.
Do you see I go on binges of eating or not eating, cause I feel guilty.
Do you see I go on benders if drinking or smoking.
Do you see my eyes and face are red from crying recently.
Do you see my texts I never send cause you wouldn't care.
Do you see when I say "I'm ok", "I'm fine" that those are just lies.
Do you see my smile and laugh, it's mostly fake.  
Do you see how I sleep all day and wake up and go right back to bed.
You don't see but you should.

This list could go on for infinitely.
It's signs like this that should be noticed.
Depression, anxiety or any mental illness is important for learning the signs.
Your story matters just as well as your voice.

When I’m in love, you’re the only one I see
I search for you and try to give you everything I own
Nothing matters more to me than how you feel
And I can listen to your voice, every sound you make, all day and night
And everything you have, will be sacred in my eyes
For you, my love, I will sacrifice my time and change priorities
So that you come first
You’ll be all I think about for hours long
And all my words will have for center you

When I’m in love, I tell you everything I know
I try to make you happy and comfortable with me
Everything I do, I hope you like
Because I do it especially for you
My heart becomes yours and you can do anything with it
I will try to remember all the small details that you hold
For you, my love, I will be tireless and shameless
So that you have all
And I will tell you all my secrets, and my prayers will be towards you

At night I’ll dream of you
How much I love you, and how you love me too
And I will harbor that the feel’s mutual
But little will I know the truth
For this is how I feel for you
Your feelings may not be so same
Even if you like me, even if you want to be with me
Sometimes things happen, and you spend the night in cheat
Or so sometimes I hear
I don’t know your thoughts and I can’t read your mind
If you don’t say it, there’s no way I’d know
You either be with me, or don’t touch me at all
Since I can’t do it for the night, I’m not just for the season
I give my heart to you, so I expect at least to be held with care
‘Cause I bound my love to you
And it hurts when tore apart

When I’m in love, I forgive your all mistakes
I pretend to be heartless, so that you can have your fun
For I accept your every laugh and every joke you make of me
I will stay all night wondering if you’re okay with how I speak
I will close my eyes when you turn to stare at someone else
Even if I cannot stand, I’ll open up the door for you
For you, my love, I’ll take your all bad habits, and make ‘em mine as well
So you that I’d be close to you
And when you need me, I’d be there for you

I'm done being shamed for being me
For not believing in god
For being a lesbian
For listening to the music that isn't popular
For being a female with short hair
For being curious
For being a feminist
For being myself
I'm not going to change myself to fit into your standards
I'm not going to change the way I think and learn
Because you think I ask too many questions and need to keep my nose outta things
I'm not going to change the way I believe
Because I cannot change that you will not make me
I'm not going to change the way I look because of you
Because I really enjoy the way I look
I'm not going to pretend to like what is popular and in trend
Because I don't want to have the exact same interests as everyone around me
I am not going to change myself because I'm happy with myself
Just because you are not confident in yourself, doesn't mean I can't be
I'm done trying to change to make everyone else happy
I'm not going to shamed for being me
I'm unique and no one change that