Kayauna Rose Freeman

Kayauna Rose Freeman Jul 2014

crave

still you **** me, this isn't love
I tried to be someone else
but that just gave you another girl to *****.
you've brought me down.
and I can see you don't play around,
bring me skin to breathe
I need your bones next to me,
it's so sad, you see?

I crave the times you left your mark on me
I could go back to when you were touching me.
now I'm drunk and alone,
sitting on the phone,
listening to the sound of the paradise in your tone.

#love #sad #drunk #*** #bones #touch #ride #sound #crave #paradise

Kayauna Rose Freeman Jul 2014

you're so ******* shady

"No, please"
I wouldn't take it back
just stop it with all these scarring memories
I will not say I was wrong
my thoughts kept me going strong

it all got so bad,
I had a bad dad.
he had to go
to a different home, he didn't belong
his hands beat to a different kind of song

I was bad too
I had way too much drugs to abuse
I closed my eyes, I really did try.
they took it all away

daddy wouldn't listen
mama couldn't cope
next thing I know I'm taking my last ****
sent away. on a not-so sunny day

the sun didn't shine, it had no time
I was never sober, drugged with their pokers
Isn't that funny? I'm such a lonely joker
I can't fight this, I'm sick with their emptiness

it got so hard to breathe
I was drowning, and no one could see
I wasn't the real me.
I was dazed, and unhappy.
"So, what changed?" "Me."

#depression #abuse #memories #mom #dad #bad #dazed #drugged #rehab #sunny

Kayauna Rose Freeman Jul 2014

Angel

You take these brilliantly colored pills
to paint your soul
in a way that that can be done
with only the trigger of a gun
but the piano's song is not yet done

swaying with death
you're starting a game that plays in blood
your heart may flood, with the dance of a discontinuing thud
the ground is holding us all down
is it possible to be released from it?
or is the shot our way out from these ties.

when the piano play it's final note
you can't help but want to be numbed
it feels better but,
your angel won't tie your arm
they hide the beauty from you in the needles they keep from you

Fight it softly
make the holes reappear
make the lights reflect from the glimmering things you hear
leave now, let the gun take you out
to the beat of your life
you aren't living now.

So I'm two months drug free, and I'm not loving this.

#gun #depression #death #drugs #beauty #piano #colors #high #**** #unfair

Kayauna Rose Freeman Jun 2014

Dances with Moons

I've been rolling,
getting lonely, without trees here to hold me
stars have now exploded a million times, but is it only in my mind
it's only been a moment, I wish I could hold it
but I know time is on my side

Am I even outside
I think I'm walking on the  s
                                                  k
                                                      *y
                                                           / I'm feeling pretty HiGh,
I must be dinning on the stars tonight
I see the paper planes go by, they stop to say "h
                                                                              i"

I have some trees by my side.

Galaxy's* are in my cup,
I'll be swimming here sippin' up,
is it alright if I stay here tonight? I know I AM ON A FLIGHT
I'm here to dance with the moon,
I
  won't
                be
                      coming
                                     down
                                                anytime
                                                                 soon.

#drugs #moon #stars #dancing #high #swimming #flight #rolling #paperplanes #deepermeaning

Kayauna Rose Freeman Jun 2014

Never Wonder

I'll fly you to Neverland
make you my Peter Pan
I'm never growing old again.
I'll show them my Wonderland
I'm Alice on some ****, man.

#drugs #wonderland #fly #peterpan #alice #disney #neverland

Kayauna Rose Freeman Jun 2014

Fire

On fire
I spark, I flare
I have roared and danced,
with each passing day my flames fall.
but with each fighting breath my heart burns to jump and race.
Always so slowly my lights seem to dim.
With all these flames I wear, not a one of you have noticed I'm burning.
Maybe we are all on fire too.
Maybe I burn alone.

#flames #dance #fire #burn #spark #dim #imonfire

Kayauna Rose Freeman May 2014

Untitled

i'm crazy
on ******* baby
making love to all those boys who hate me

#love #hate #drugs #crazy #boys #*******