I'm
no saint
never was
never will be
so
I
will make
your mind see
a scarred mortal
heart
I
fell for
a baleful
halo disguised
white
And
because
of it my
heart has paid the
price
I
given
trust to be
paid with several
knives
All
are dealt
unlike hands
and to play life's
game
Why
should I
be judged for
every fault and
flaw
Flaws
make me
beautiful
I'm human like
you
Now
people
have worsen
making hating
cool
Time
from my
childhood was
stolen from my
life
I
only
want to find
my own way in
peace
I
hate you
perfection
It's used way too
much
It's
also
expected
from everyone
here
My
love for
words and myth
burns bright in my
soul
I
have lied
I have judged
I make mistakes
so
Why
condemn
me because
I am honest
look
I've
got my
share of chips
and cracks on my
skin
Don't
make me
some target
on media's
wall
I'm
alive
Living art
now broken and
scared
But
God sees
and for all
I have done
He
will
deal with
me in time
The way He sees
fit
These
Lanterns
my lanterns
will adorn the
sky
With
my truth
I am fraught
with flaws and I'm
proud
Now
lanterns
take a piece
of my heart and
burn
Rise
to the
endless sky
and take my soul
home
These Lanterns poem are really close to home...
Consider them like a continuation of my poem 'Naturally'.
I can't act like I'm perfect all the time. Needless to say that society's obsession with perfection has worsened. It feels like an image one will forever to forced to strive for but never reach. To be honest, being perfect all the time only makes people more excited for your fall from grace.
What I mean by people 'making hating cool' is that people enjoy jumping on the hate bandwagon when someone (e.g. a celebrity) does something they don't like, says something they don't like, or makes a mistake. In most cases, it's unnecessary. It's sad it happens...
The divine light that these lanterns have comes from a really emotional and insecure place in my heart. A treasure that I want you to see. I'm young, I've made my share of mistakes. Who hasn't? I've got a past. But I shouldnt be pressure to feel guilt for ******* up in life sometimes.
These words are from a 22 (23 tomorrow) year old who even though she acts like shes got it all covered, she's terrified of life as a whole. Fraught with her own personal issues and demons. But I'm still here for a reason.
There have been days where I wanted to end it all but I didn't.
Because deep down, I know. I couldn't deny myself a chance in life.
A chance to finally have some stability and to be happy. A chance to truly find myself and embrace who I am.
Something that I'm honestly still learning to do.
I hope people here who are going through this understand where I'm coming from.
I'm me, Lyn Purcell and there's nowhere and nothing I'd rather be.
Thanks so much for 88 followers. For me it's insane!
No words can express how I feel but you have my gratitude!
Really!
More Lanterns are coming as well as Sijos.
So, have a lovely day/night and be back soon!
Lyn ***