Time was chasing me,but I was fast and swift,
it was time to run,laugh,be as dramatic as I could be.
It was the best time of my life...my youth.
Nothing could stop me,I was invincible,
No ache or pain could harm me.
I was young, beautiful,flawless...
Why could I not see the full scope then?
Feeling sorry for myself because he wanted you,
not me.
I was the friend the buddy.
Drowning in low esteem,my friends...my friends,
determined to make me happy.
Why can't I find a person not squeezed by their personal
selfishness, now in this time?
My friends gave me humor,encouragement,love.
My youth has been the softest blanket I have ever been wrapped in.
The silly, crazy things we did,
protected by the law and our own ignorance.
Running and running we could not be caught...
except by our broken heart.
Why do I romance my youth,
far from perfect,
but I had so many perfect moments.
So young knowing nothing of the world,
except our dreams and fears.
I miss that girl I was.
God please just one more moment with her with me,
to feel her strength,desires,hopes,dreams.
I have to work so hard now to dream.
I want the breath she breathed,
I just want youthful me.

I want to be free.
Free of these bonds.
Without these turning thoughts.
Only the innocence
of happiness.
Not a person,not a thing,or even a state of mind,
just are...
happy.
No moments,
no time,
freedom.
This world was not around
in my time of power.
Where my heartbeat was law
and my breath ,my Spirit
one and the same.
They were not invited,
it was just me
and knowledge,
was there and absent.
It was love,
it was peace,
it was wisdom,
but no thought.
I was free.
Please let me go back.
Can I ?
Where is the entrance?
It is hidden.
It is defended.
Breath out this life
and then I can go back.
Look at the bird...
does it not look free?

You talk
I talk.
Do we understand?
I know I don't.
Can I hear you?
Do you see my lips move?
Of course not.
I speak,
you yell,
without a sound.
Sigh's between us
speak a new language.
We understand not.

I love you.
You love me...
right?
Then why is this so hard?
Does not love cover
a multitude of sins?
I don't want to fight...
My Soul is exhausted.
we want sleep,
but I need resolution.
Is their a manual for us?
Telling us the do's and the don'ts.

We must honor...
each other
and our covenant.
More than the thoughts
of anger
and being right.
More than the words
we wish
in our hearts,
that we could erase from
time itself.
Walk in forgiveness,
make forgetfulness
a pass time.
Take a leap of faith
to walk in love,
in this moment.
For that is all
wisdom requires of us right now.

Learn to Dream
and
Fight the Nightmares.