Jonathan Nouse

Jonathan Nouse Apr 2018

Quit

Stop making me believe theres a chance to live a happy life again.

Stop feeding me some false hope that you'll come back some day.

If youre doing this as some sick punishment to break me down

You win.

I quit

I cant do this anymore

#quit #making #me #feel #love #for #you

Jonathan Nouse Apr 2018

Happily [n]ever after

Once upon a time,
My mind was so clear
I had a perfect little life
With someone near and dear.

Fast forward to today,
Where my mind is now hazy
Its really sad to say
How my life got this crazy.

Its almost like a dream
Turned into a nightmare.
And i just want to scream
At the thought that you dont care.

The stories that we're told
When we were just young
Of happy little endings
Are a false slip of the tongue

See the stories we are told
Are a lot less happy
Theyve only been changed
To seem a little more sappy.

These stories in their prime
Were much more gruesome and dark
Because happily ever after
Is an unreal walk in the park.

I wish life was as easy as the new version fantasy books

#once #upon #*** #time #life #was #good #now #its #not

Jonathan Nouse Apr 2018

If i die

Would you come to my funeral?
Would you be dressed in all black crying over me?
Would you have any regrets?
Would you wish youd done something sooner?
Would you mourn over me?
Would you even notice I was gone?
Would you even care?
Should I even ask?
do I dare?
If I were to die tomorrow
Would you even care?

Wrote this one in hopes someone wouldsee it. But i dont think she cares

#death #funeral #caring #not #so #much

Jonathan Nouse Apr 2018

My greatest weakness

You.

You'd think a grown giant wouldn't be intimidated by someone like you but its true. It's you.

All it takes is one glance at you and the kingdom I've built comes crashing down.

You have the power to rock me to my core and bring me to my knees.

And you'd think after knowing that,
I'd leave my greatest weakness-
But no.

For I need my weakness to find my strength.

Im very tall. And shes very small.

#weakness #weak #strength #strong

Jonathan Nouse Apr 2018

These sleepless nights

Oh how I dread these sleepless nights
Where my own mind is drunk on its thoughts that prey on my existence.

Thoughts of fear, hate, loneliness, and sorrow.

I fear my existence is too short to live the life i want and i fear my choices have been unwise and with no gain.

I hate the thoughts of hate
but hate provokes me
in ways i never knew.
I hate not knowing my future.
Not even in the slightest
and i hate that its because of my own self.

The thoughts of loneliness are by far the worst because they show my true reality of today. And for tomorrow.

And sorrow is a lonesome thought that passes by and it scares me to think of how much I hate it.

Its sad to say how much i hate
These sleepless nights

I dont get much sleep anyway

#sleepless #njghts #dread #regret #please #save #me #from #this #pain

Jonathan Nouse Apr 2018

Choices

"Have you made the right ones?"
The greatest enemy to your mind is the forever existing question that remains and will never be answered.

Thoughts that will forever keep me up at night.

#choices #regrets #wish #i #could #go #back #and #fix #things

Jonathan Nouse Apr 2018

Patience

A wise person once said

Patience is not measured by your ability to wait. But by your actions and your behavior while you wait-

How great is your paitence to wait for the fruit of your tree to become ripe?

In this day and age people say they have patience but cant wait 5 minutes to hear back from someone.

In todays society theres a demand to get everything now but how great is your patience?

Are you willing to wait a year for success? Let alone a few weeks.

And as the quote says above how will you be waiting?

Will you be waiting patiently? Or will the thoughts and fears that poison your mind saying what if it doesnt work out? Will you walk away?

Patience greatest enemy is that cursed two words. "What if".

But "what if things do work out" and everything falls according to plan and the stars align did your patience follow through?

See i can say all i want about patience but the true meaning is no words at all. Just silence. And peace.

How great is your patience.

How great IS your patience?

#patience #waiting #actions #speak #louder #than #words #silence #peace #time