How can you feel?
if you don´t feel at all

How can you live
if you don´t live at all

it´s not my fault I´m like this
or is it?

I can´t feel I can´t live my life

I tried everything from singing

to dancing

even doing drugs

but nothing touches my heart

do I even have one?

do I even exist?

Do WE exist?
i hope so

Cause you´re the only thing that makes me feel and be alive

If I **** myself now

Will you be there to feel my own self anyhow

If I lose myself now

How bearly will you feal when I'm gone and not found

I'm gonna **** myself somehow

I just hope you can couope

With my demons, with myself

The self that died cause he never felt held

I ruined my life as I ruined yours

Now I'm doomed to live in a abyss

My kingdom of infinite pain

I just saw god,
not your god
not mine either
it was our god
the good god that makes us gooder

outside the licor store,
he was catching some air
after he was done killing with is stair

he told me i was lost,
I said the only lost soul here
was his

cause god is fake
and he lead me and us to our ending
he traded love and peace
from war and vengeance amongst us
he was the reason we hate
he was the reason we take
and he was the reason i wrote this poem

cause god should be written with a minor g
as him should not be more important then we

Now I see

What I should have done, what I should have been
I don´t hate you...
I won´t hate you!

I just saw in you and him

What you and I didn´t had

And I´m sorry if i, me, myself was not capable
Of being as good of a ridding angel as he is
i just feel so small right now
As if my heart is about to explode out my chest

it all hurst so much now
how could i waste so much time
in someone who doesn´t even love me

Now I see,

But you don´t see me anymore don´t you...

If we fight
Let the words fall on their own

Cause deep inside us
The only place to hide

Is in each others heart

I was in love once
I was in love somehow
but she just destroyed me every time
We crossed throw mountains together,
We broke barriers and barriers,
limits that not everyone can get through,
but
During all of this
She didn´t loved me
She was just there because she had spikes of happiness with me
But she didn´t loved me at all
Not as deep has I loved her,
she love me superficially and loved me because she was afraid
Of losing that one tag called
Boyfriend
so she tried not to lose me...
I was innocent, I loved her so I wasn´t really thinking straight,
cause not thinking straight is really the only true way to love someone,
just something that you feel inside you
and explodes in you
when you see that one true person
you stop
thinking
and just get guided by the feels you have in your heart.
She was not like that
Not now
She had been
But not anymore
Not today, tomorrow or ever again.
This was the day I new what love was
and how it would bring to my life
pure agony and darkness...