Never hesitate to look back for your scars hold reason for the way you are and the way you will persist to be

Embrace your past for it has the power to shape in everything about your future

Loneliness will  be scary if you are uncomfortable being lonely with the person you are-_-some are really content and comfortable that way

Loneliness=>improvisation=>
improvised prospects=>improvising perspective=>you get where you are going:)
If you get comfortable alone you are definitely heading where you want to be:)

Sometimes it all boils down to
knowing when
to give up.

Sober up pal you ain't living forever.

Still burning for the scars that we never planned on having,
yet dreadfully dreaming that it was all worthy of having.

Some feelings get stuck in your heart and perched in your mind
You will never express em ,you will never speak of em but those feelings
they are as real as the air you breath
as lively as the breeze that bezels your soul,those feelings they are the ones you will never be able to shake it off.
They are the ones that wont fade away.

Somewhere between
learning to love you and
watching myself lose you

My black heart realized it had traces of red too.

Everything you touch,
Everything you feel,
Takes a toll on your Soul.

Weep and wither on the edge or the crevice
The Deep and Dark devoids all the same.

Cry and Love all you want but in the End
All you get is all you Take.

I waited so long to see you happy.

I am truly happy, to see you smile.
I hope you finally found someone who is worthy of you.

For whatever we had was worth, I know I truly lost something that was real.

And i logged out of the account i was stalking you with for so long.

Still falling
Solemn rains being
Still_watched by a
Soulless bloke who
Saunder sleeps with the dead but
Slithers amongst the Living

My love might not be a two way street but sure as hell i knew she was the one the moment i realized what all of my heart ever craves was just to see her wiggling somewhere happily on the surface of this rock. ^_^
She is the one that i would never forget.
She is the one who i would  always be longing for.
She is the one who slipped right through my hands.
She is my one and only.

I am Awake all night wondering what if  we never did what we did so we never got where we are.

No it didn't **** me but something inside me died,
maybe it was the part of me that you exposed to the world,
maybe that's the part that i didn't realize that even a person like me  could be capable of,
oh dear ,
you showed the devil what love could actually be and just when it thought you were real
you vanquished in the vandalized sanity of this insane stage with the mere actors in it.
So yes something that was a part of me died and
i am always grateful to you for you being the one person to show me what i was capable of .
You will be the one and only person who will ever know that even a devil
had heart that was
capable of love.

This
is
not
the
way
how
my
story
ends.

Around a thousand faces
Among a million smiles
Across a billion miles
I still find my heart weary of Your lies.

Our hearts
long for the places where it once
belonged.

Running in circles with the people I love.






Closer I get,farther I move.

What i had wasn't perfect,
It never had to be.
I just loved the way it was,
For it laid perfect on its own way.

Everyone lie to their loved ones on a hope that lie protects them but they donot understand that the toll that a lie takes on their loved ones
outweighs the hurt truth
could have ever done.

We lie because we love them,
they weep because they love us more.

Breathe as i bleed,
Drink as i drown,
Dream as i die,
Sing as i sicken,
Leave as i love,

                 But dear love, please learn to
Love  someone who loves you as much as i did.



P.S: I Love You, forever and beyond.


                                          Yours lovingly,
        The one who misses you the most.

As much as it burdens my heart to accept that we are not a couple, it burdens my soul to let go of that thought.

Maybe someday I will get the strength to accept it but I dont think, I will have the luxury of forgetting because I record and write my every thought and dream, about you and hold on it for as long as i would as if my life depends upon it.

However silly all of it sound somethings cannot be expressed by words and my love for you is one such....

I don't know what i am feeling
But there sure is lots of it that reeks of your cologne and hairspray.

I almost forgot what i had but you know? they say plants do have memories i once really thought they were all lame until the roses we planted reminded the rich lucile
Love and lush we festered onto them.

Losing what you never had
Might still be the worst thing that could ever happen,

Cause once you lose what you never had,
you never stop contemplating " what if you had it ",

and though you know what your heart wants,
You ll never do it because it wasnt yours to begin with.

Oh slower!!
Slower!!!
My dear blood
Dont rush i dont wanna do this fast.
I wanna feel it,
Every ounce,
Every droplet of red rushing out of my body screaming her name,

Within a closed Casket lies my head weary and dread where i rest all my thoughts and finally free myself from the torments of my haunted long lost love,
For i know my love wasnt fickle,
But for her It was just my love not hers.

Heart of fortune filled with frecklish love for solitude,
One minute i love all, the next i love nothing.
I dont know what my feeble heart desires.

And the prophecy calls me a heretic for claiming that the wider vision puts the hoax as a pursuit of distraction for herds to follow and while distractions, distractions are the ones that keeps the inner animals at bay, for all we are, are animals with distractions. Claiming to follow the noblest of all paths that are laid bare, before eyes, Eyes that lack vision, eyes that don't see beyond.

For Its a curse that i bare witness to and cross that I owe for letting the sheep's that are gutted for its shallow thoughts and fleeting distractions. I wish, I could unsee all that I see. I wish, I saw no pattern. I wish, the bigger picture was forever hidden and be gutted as one among the many.

I think of you often  maybe it was because of the way you looked  at me,  like I was something that was worth looking into.

Now I am just longing for your eyes which I will never see.

I long for the way you turn your head towards me those are the memories that I will remember and cherish as long as I walk this Earth.


Loved you since we met.
Lost you  once when you died but I promise I will,...
I Will find you! again!!! and I will Love you thence.

She thought ignorance was her virtue of command over everyone right until he showed her what real ignorance feels like.

Love is
neither eternal nor existential

its just like a spark from a flint in a flourished forest.

When the spark vanishes the forest burns.

The songs that were never sung
The wedding bells that never rang
The vows that were never exchanged
The aisle that we never walked
The boquet you never threw
The ring i never proposed
are all still waiting right were they are supposed to be.



Grrh!! I woke, sorry for the disappointment guys.

Dear God,
I am sorry, for hurting myself.
I am sorry, for blaming her for all my sorrows.
I am sorry, that I couldn't find the strength in myself to let go her,
To bare the sight of her being in love with someone else.

I realized that its okay that she is not in love me. I realized its good that she is in love with someone who makes her happy.
I am truly happy that she is happy.

I know you'll have something in store for me, I am gonna forgive myself for all the pain that, I put myself through and I am gonna do what makes me happy. I am not at peace now but I am sure I will find it someday.

PS.
A withered Soul.

When the person you love
feels ,you've become the person they loved then
The person you love will become the person who loved you and
no matter how hard you try,
their loss , their memories and your love for them becomes your cornerstone and
There is nothing in this world that will help you snap out of it.

No books , no prep school , no charity , no clubs , no friends ,no amount of alcohol , not a hundred dates ,  not even writing a thousand poems about them is gonna help you snap out of it.

Your love,your true unrequited love will forever persist as your cornerstone from the day you fell till the day you fall.

My diary says the stories and words that i never had the courage to say but these words are always gonna remain the way they were meant to be ...

Untold.

Time Froze
The Wind Stopped
The Rustling leaves
The Whispering Trees
Their Falling Dews all stood still.

In the Second Floor Corridor.
I froze, I still am frozen right back on 28th of October 2017
The day I set my eyes on you,
You, You who looked at me as if i was more,
You, you thought i mattered and
All of a sudden across the 18 years of my life in this world,
My Life, It didn't feel so Meaningless.

And I froze right there in that moment,
I am not out of it, I Never think I will ever be.
That one Ferroro Roacher,
In That one glimpse,
In That one Moment,
With our eyes set upon eachother,
as if we were the only people in the world,
I froze,
I froze and I am still there.