When someone leaves your life
To go on with theirs
There's a lot
To be missed.
Not the miss that remembers
And makes you ponder for days
Not the miss that forgets
And tries to remember.
When someone leaves your life
The miss you will encounter
Will be the one that is not there
The one that happens
Without you noticing it
The one that keeps on going.
What you will miss most
Is all the things that you will *miss

I don't see the point of your glare
Staring, and calling me unfair
There is no need to feed
My overflowing despair.

You say my eyes seem empty
And lack of emotion,
Well, it was no lie
When they said  eyes
Reflect what's inside.

I am not heartless
On the contrary,
I got so much of it
That I can't stand it
Feelling everything
I wish I was hearless.

But what did you expected
I was promised the sky
And got thrown to the ground.

Next time I fall in love;

I'll be more cautious
And be less precocious
Won't keep my flaws in
Let my tears flow out
Add someone to my world
Instead of making them mine
Sing my lungs out
Won't shut my feelings

Nex time I fall in love;

It won't be with you.

I had some letters,
Written with your small
Handwriting and,
Filled with promising moments.

Now they are somewhere
Where the trash went
Along with our pictures and,
All I thought mattered.

Conversations deleted
Sad songs play on repeat
Avoid your profile
I won't be able
To see you together
I've had enough with,
My ******* imagination

I can't take this any longer
My mind is now a haunting corner
There's no way to avoid it
My thoughts are flooded
With pictues of you
And your new ****** lover.

My tears are stucked
In the ol' realm of
"You really got me ******"
Stopped by anger and despair
Filling my insides
I'm about to explode
My heart is now a shattered
Mountain of drifting dust
All beacuse you couldn't wait
To get your **** ******.

Was it all worth it?
I guess it was
Since "the other"
Has become "the lover"
And the former lover
Now can't stay sober.

I don't care
That's all I'll say
Repeat it enough times
To convince myself
I really don't care
But trust me
This is something I can't bear.

I never thought I would fall in love
Yet I did.
I never thought you would love me
Yet you did.
I never thought I would loose you
Yet I did.
I never thought you would cheat on me
Yet you did.
I never thought I could see you again
Yet I did.

Everything I've never expected has happened.

I always thought I would be the same
Yet I didn't
I always thought I would love you forever
Yet I didn't
I always thought you would keep me safe
Yet you didn't.
I always thought I would fight for love
Yet I didn't.
I always thought you would change
Yet you didn't.

While all  I've hoped for never occured.

I love you
But you are his now
He can feel your lips
Whenever he wants
And all I have is memories.

I want you
But you are his now
Your smiles are dedicated to him
And not a single thought
Is spared towards me.

I love you
But you are his now
He can hear you laugh
And I must let you go

I blame my mind
For believing my heart
And picturing a future
That was only a dream.

I blame my lips
For believing my heart
And surrender to yours
When you had another.

I blame my eyes
For believing my heart
And ignore the truth
That you weren't mine.

I blame myself
For loosing you
And letting you go
When I did nothing wrong.

I will keep blaming
Everything but
My stupid
Careless
Wrecked heart.

I hate the way
You make me feel
And the strong effect
You still got on me.

How you turn my world
Upside down and up again

It leaves me dizzy
Hands shaking
Heart shattering

I can't belive
How much I hate
How much
I still love you.

There is no need
To remember my dreams
I know what they are all about
Your taste lingers in my mouth
Long after I woke.

The swolen feeling in my chest
Is all I need to know
Another night has passed
I have been dreaming of you
Once again.

When I was able to remeber
Those dreams of november
I dreaded the time to sleep.

Now that all that I have
Is the dark feeling of
A forgotten dream.

Look at the clouds
Swimming in the deep blue
Of the sky
And I'm [not] thinking of you.

Hear the birds
Singing their lungs out
Preaching their love to the morning
And I'm [not] crying.

Feel the warm of the sun
How it ignites your skin
With the heat of the universe's stars
And I'm [not] ready to start.

Gaze over
To the boy sitting alone
Who is [not] in denial.

One will taste happiness,
Your lip's softness
And that final exhale
You give at the end
Of every kiss.

The other will taste sorrow,
Your silence's pain
And that final glance
You give
Right before you leave.

One will feel your skin,
The beating of your heart
And the smile
You make
Between kisses.

The other will feel pain,
Your absence
And the sound
Of your voice
Saying goodbye as you leave.

He will be blessed
I will be cursed
He will walk between clouds
I will walk among devils

He will be chosen
I won't be anything.

What are this tears
running down my face
doing?
Who let them escape?
Who let them exist?
What is their point?
Their salt only sours my soul
And their warm mocks,
To the cold of my heart.
Who said tears
could do you well?
What's the good
In feeling so small?
It feels like I'm melting
I'm so sick of it
Who would've thought
You would do me so wrong?

We'll smile for the camera
Smile for the picture,
Then why won't we smile
When we see our reflection?
We'll held our cups up
And scream 'cheers' together
But we are not cheering,
We are actually trying
To clear up our conscience.
We'll discuss about ***
Like we are the masters
But the truth is,
We are still not over
Our last ex.
We act so precocious
To start the next stage
But we are not conscious yet
To leave this stage.
We should stop expecting
To do what we see
We are still on time
To change
What others will see.

Forgive me,
If my lips
Find others
After you.

Forgive me,
If my mind
Does nothing
But to think of you.

Forgive me,
If I miss
Every single
Thing of you.

Forgive me,
If I hate
The one
Who take you.

Forgive me,
If I still
Love you.

People say
That whenever you hear
Of someone's death
You will still hear
Another two,
For dead always comes
In three.

I wonder
It the same happens
About heartbreak
After all
It leaves you broken
And sometimes
You feel dead inside.

I've had my first
And it hurt like hell
Almost killed me.

Now
I've had my second
And it was
Like a puch in the face
Before you even wake up.

This time
I'm both scared
And excited
To know who will be
My third.

We can cry
Till our eyes
Are burning.

We can laugh
Till our lungs
Are burning.

All in just one day .

We will promise,
We will vow,
For a future
Unknown to us.

Look at the sky,
And feel the stars
Like raindrops
In our eyes.

We can cry
For the beauty
Of life,
Or for the simpleness
Of it.

We will risk
All we've done
For a few seconds
Of fun.

Create memories
Everywhere we go.

We will promise
When we are happy
And curse
When we are angry.

Forgive in exchange
Of a kiss in the lips

We will love,
Like there's no tomorrow
And postergate what we want
As if we had a lifetime.

We won't finish all
We begin,
We will end things
That we shouldn't.

Appreciate
The small flames
But forget
The warm it gave.

We will get lost
In the way
Of finding ourselves.

We'll be selfish
We'll be humble
We'll be vain

We'll stay up
All night
Lookin at the moon.

Sleep all day long
Dreaming of,
What we will do.

Drink till we fall
And fast till it hurts

Create ourselves
Just as much as
We will destroy
Ourselves.

Tell the truth
With hesitation
And lie
With more faith
Than a preacher

We'll fight
For no reason
And give up
For the wrong reasons

But then again,
That is what young people do.

It wasn't part of my plans
To find love in such a strange land
Word by word
You caught my eye
And my sleepless nights
Were never lone again.

Old songs recovered its meaning
New ones gain a meaning, too.

The taste of colors became stronger
And day by day
My quirks became in super powers
And before I knew
We were already lovers.

I know
We may not last till October
Or perhaps
We'll last for forever
Honestly,
I root for the latter.

You asked me to wait
So I did.

Small,
Cold
Was the table.

Big.
Crowded
Was the place.

Black.
Hot
Was your coffee

Steam floating from it
And just like fog
it dissappeared.

Black,
Cold
Was your coffee

Big,
Empty
Was the place

Long,
Sad
Was my waiting.

Let me give you some advice
for the next time you dare to say
'I love you'.

Don't flash it just because you are happy
or because you are just sad
or alone
next time you say those words
made sure you meant them.

If you are feeling the heat
between your thighs
say anything
but don't say it

The next time you say those words
I know you won't say them to me
that is a fact
but anyone could be me.

I'll keep writing you
although I know
you'll never see them
not even a word

The sad part is
I got so used of
being ignored
that now I don't care

Now we are nothing
we drifted
and you are not alone

But thinking of you
still aches
just as much
as listening your name
or remembering your voice
even the 'if's ache

How wouldn't they?
when you first came
flashing
'Hello'
but left
without a
'Goodbye'

Left me to figure it out
that your heart
was no more
mine
and mine
with all the ache
remained yours

Let me tell you the story
of one named Me
who met one
named You
who went by Yu
for the love of
Oh.

Me first fell in love
with Yu's laugh
and then
with Yu's face
but what Me
loved the most
was Yu's heart.

Yu's smile
brightened Me's life
fade the darkness
and fill it with kisses.

Me and Yu
used to meet
at the last bench
of a magical park.

The trees where
the witnesses
of how their love
was proffessed.

And kiss by kiss
they got
an 'I love you'
that lasted longer
than the time they had.

Me knew
all the many reasons
of the love towards Yu

But Me never knew
what Yu saw in Me.

That would be Yu's story.

As time passed
the 'oh's
became fewer.

And Yu
took them back
and became in You.

Me and Yu's story
ended.

The day You left with Him.

*14

You get there
by words unsaid
things undone
falling in love.

It is surrounded
by frozen smiles
haunting memories
broken promises.

It is made
by the sound of kisses
a big laugh
a dropping tear

It is life without you.

This is not a poem.
This are the words
I can't say,
This are the words
I'll never say.
The words
No one would hear, and
Perhaps no one
would read.
Pressing 'enter'
Now and then
I won't say
That I miss you
You won't hear that
Neither read it
I'm too proud
I'm too hurt
I'll say
This is  
Obnoxious
But I
Don't know really
What it means
I have just
An idea
Of the feeling
The words gives
Like your name
And perhaps
It will make
This
Seem like a poem
But it is not
Just some spaces
and words
But it is not
A poem
Some words in caps
other not so much
This is not a poem
I am not a writer
or a poet
I'm not even a lover
This is not a poem
And
I'm no longer a person.

This pride tastes sour,
and the dignity bittersweet,
and all I can taste
is your lips touching mine.

All I can feel is
our skin so tight together and,
your voice saying
our hands fitted perfectly.

Where are they now?
I can't even recognize
myself without you
or trust the decisions I made
when I was high
with your smell.

It is like a facade that
has fallen  and,
I'm staring at the
same black wall, I
thought had left, but
in fact it never left.

It wasn't real
and yet
this broken heart, is
killing me
though.

There's nothing I can do
to get you off my mind,
neither from my heart.

Is this what it'll always be?
fake pretending smiles
and flashbacks
of our past?

The pain that comes afterwards
and the hollowness that follows
when it leaves?

There's no love,
there's no sadness,
there's no emptiness,
there's nothing.

Lines up and down
side to side
I'm imprisoned
by what I write

A blank paper
screaming to be
written

A written paper
filled with
screaming words

Waiting to be freed.

There,
In the night sky,
in the space between stars,
lies a dim light,
looking for its partner.

Flying in circles through space,
Floating still in the sky.
wandering around the corners
of the dreams of men
haunting the minds
of those who are awake.

There, it lies.
Lost in the light of its surrounding
slowly fading into a memory

Once it shined
More than any light,
but now
there's nothing it might,
since the light has died.

You know that itch you get.
When a bug bits you?
And suddenly there's a rash,
Not just in the place you were bitten,
But you can actually feel it all over you?

They say we shouldn't scratch them
or it could leave a scar.

So we try to control the itch.
And we focus to not focus in it.
In fact, it's almost impossible.

But then there's you.
You are not a bug.
And you sure did not bite me.
Worst
You kissed me.

And left something worst
than just an itch
or even a rash.

For the thing is.
a bug may leave a weal
somewhere in my skin
and that would be it.

But you are worst
than the most savage itch
and the poisonous bite.

You are in my skin.
inside my flesh,
deep in my bones,
locked in my heart,
haunting my mind.

I could take any kind of itch now
any kind but you.

And the truth is,
I've scratched too much.
and all that is left of you
is nothing but an infamous
itch.

It's been almost a week now, and yet you're still everywhere but where you should be.
How can you love someone and don't give a **** about them?
It's not the first time you leave, you've been gone longer, but there's a chance it may be the last one.
You said you loved me, missed me.
But here I am again, running in circles, all alone.
I can't keep doing the job for two, I can't keep doing the work for you.
I may not understand but at least I've tried.
You just left, oblivious if I cried.
You where right,you weren't playing with my feelings.
For to play with something requires affection to the toy.
Which you don't.
I'm not even that for you.

There is a difference
between making love
and having ***
we did both.

And I must confess
never have I felt
so in peace
as laying together
fully undressed.

There was no you
there was no me
all there was
was us.

Your touch
through my skin
and that small grin
on your face
as you whispered

I love you

Pressed your head in mine
looked you in the eye
and said

* I love you too *

Then you
and I
became one.

Now all is left
are the memories
of your touch
bringing me
to my knees

Your breath
caught in my mouth
and your taste
printed in my skin.

Now I sleep alone
and roll side to side
looking for,you
and wonder

If you're missing me
the way
I'm missing you

The truth is.
I'm not even sure
if I love you
or just long for you.

If what I'm feeling.
is called
love
or pain.

Honestly,
when I think of you
my stomach
doesn't feel
a thousand butterflies
but
a thousand knives
piercing
into my soul.

I'm not sure
if I'm afraid of letting you go
because I love you more than anything.
or just because I don't know how to live
with all this pain.

Can you feel it? How your blood vibrates through your veins?
that little push in your neck, that seems to never go away
Do you hear it? The deafening silence that lives inside your head?
how things shift into another in front of your eyes.
Can you see it? The weight of the choices you've made?
falling in front of you piece by piece.

As I knock the door for an unmarked door, waiting,
hoping,
for a reason unknown,
for a purpose.

Maybe I'm just afraid of accepting how wrong I am.
And how much I've messed up everything.
But,
loving you?
I'm not sure if it was
my biggest mistake
or my greatest deal.

Your silhouette fades in the blur of the people surrounding me.
But maybe you were never there.

Not at all.

I remember the first time
I whispered your name
like it was already mine
like it was my life.

your touch, so gentle in my skin
and your hand, laying in my chin.

your smile
your eyes
brightening my heart.

always yours
always mine.