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Jul 2015 · 1.5k
make my heart skip a beat
Hanna Kelley Jul 2015
If the heart is a time bomb
ticking away
Then keep making the beats skip
Inspired by Meghan Foukes
Jul 2015 · 240
Untitled
Hanna Kelley Jul 2015
You stole my heart
and as I tried to take it back I fell for you
so then I let you keep it.
Jul 2015 · 928
Untitled
Hanna Kelley Jul 2015
I knew your wrong intentions from the start
I could feel them when you hugged me from behind
I could see them every time we kissed
I could hear them every time you said I love you
I knew.
And when you thought I didn't, you left
"You can't say I wasn't loyal" you said as you held her hand
Jul 2015 · 396
i love you
Hanna Kelley Jul 2015
"I love you"

When you hear it your supposed to be happy,
It's supposed to be the most amazing feeling.
Like he put the butterflies in your stomach
With his own hands
when he held your waist as you kissed.
I wonder why I don't feel that way.
Jul 2015 · 322
Missing person
Hanna Kelley Jul 2015
What happened to my friend that would hug me every day?
You were the only person that didn't push me away
What happened to that smile
And that laugh happiness used to show?
I miss that smile.. Why did it have to go?
You used to hang out with your friends every chance you had,
You changed and blocked out the world, you always look sad..
I don't know what happened
To the girl that was as happy as could be
But you will always be like a sister to me
I'm sorry Emily, the Hanna you used to know needed a break...
Jul 2015 · 754
thank you poerty
Hanna Kelley Jul 2015
I thought that if I could
Walk away from poetry
Then I would be able
To stop looking at my
Life like it's broken..
I still see the wrong
That I have done
But now I see ways
To fix them.. :)
Thank you poetry
Jul 2015 · 1.2k
so far gone
Hanna Kelley Jul 2015
no matter how hard I try to reach out to you

you will never be able to respond

for you are so far gone

that I can't feel your presence anymore
I miss you guys ~RIP
Jul 2015 · 240
pain
Hanna Kelley Jul 2015
Pain may be measured on a scale of 1 to 10

But the pain that you have caused me can't be measured
Jul 2015 · 1.7k
dear bully
Jul 2015 · 1.6k
unspoken
Hanna Kelley Jul 2015
Pure silence is the sound of words left unspoken
Jul 2015 · 2.2k
too late (10 W)
Hanna Kelley Jul 2015
So much I want to say, but it's too late
Jun 2015 · 4.4k
broken promises
Hanna Kelley Jun 2015
Don't make a promise to
Somebody if you have
no intentions of
keeping it
Because
one
of
the
most
Hurtful
Unnoticed
Most common
Pains in the world
Is a broken promise
Don't make promises just so you can break them
Jun 2015 · 1.4k
hidden
Hanna Kelley Jun 2015
Everybody has a second side to themselves

One side that everybody sees
And the other that you want to stay hidden
Jun 2015 · 7.1k
learn to fly
Hanna Kelley Jun 2015
sometimes you just need to let go

like a bird
You will learn to fly
On the way down
If you believe
You will survive
And live to be stronger
And more confident
Than you ever were
Jun 2015 · 1.3k
what i want to be
Hanna Kelley Jun 2015
At age 8* my teacher would ask me what I wanted to be when I grow up, so I told her a fashion model.
She laughed and wrote it on the board.

At age 9 I wanted to be a doctor along with half of my class.

At age 10 I wanted to be a teacher, they all told me it takes a lot of education and I would have to work hard in order to get there.

at age 11 I wanted to be an artist, they told me to pick something more realistic so I said a singer.
They said to stop playing games and choose a job.

at age 12 I was pretty hooked on the idea of a singer, so I sang
And I sang
And I sang
Until I believed that I was good enough to be famous.

at age 13 I was so confident about my singing
Until I heard their voices.
Most of the girls in my choir were reaching the high notes and their tones were so clear.
I gave up on that dream.
I knew I wouldn't be like them.
So I began poetry.
This was the year I wrote my first poem "nobody cares".
I showed it to a few really close friends and my sister.
They said it was really good, it got them emotionally and that was what I was aiming for.
At first the poem was about 2 pages long but I cut it shorter every time I showed it people because they told me what parts didn't make sense to them.
I took it as a way to improve my poem.
So then I started posting it on quotev, and tumblr, and now hellopoetry.
I wasn't expecting anybody to like it.
I continued poetry and now it comes to me so easily, I can write poems like I'm writing my own name.

at age 14 I told my teacher I wanted to be a poet and he told me that
"I needed to improve"
At age 14 I didn't know what I wanted to be.
Nothing was good enough
Nothing was realistic enough
Nobody gave me enough support to go with my dreams.
At age 14 I decided that I wanted multiple jobs.
I still haven't told anyone because I already know what they're going to say.
Jun 2015 · 2.7k
unwanted by the higher power
Hanna Kelley Jun 2015
2 year's ago
Hey God, it's just me.
I'm trying to reach out to you again.
Why don't you ever talk to me?
The people at my church say that they hear your voice in their times of need.
Well here I am sitting behind a closed door because I can't face anyone with tears in my eyes; but I'm reaching out to YOU...And you still don't answer my prayers.

1 year ago
Things seem to be getting worst, but I'm trying to look on the bright side;
I know you will make things better over time....right?
That's what others are telling me.

3 months ago
Actually, when I think about it; you've never answered any of my prayers
You never stoped the bullying, I did.
You didn't get rid of my mom's tumor, it's still there.
You couldn't get me through my problems because you never answered me.
I'm trying, im REALLY trying to believe in you right now but your not giving me any proof..
All I need is one, just one prayer to come true
Then I will know I haven't been relying on nothing.

last night**
No? Nothing? Really?
So now it's up to me to make things better,
Here's goodbye to the higher power that Is known as our Lord and savior.
I just want to know why.
Why when I have no proof of you, I still try?
still try and talk to you, to believe in you?
Why am I even writing this?
Is it that you actually don't exist or that your ignoring me?
This is MY opinion about God, sorry if this disrespects your religion.
Jun 2015 · 1.7k
one-sided
Hanna Kelley Jun 2015
Sometimes I wonder
How much you think about me
Because I spend all my minutes
Thinking about what we could be
Jun 2015 · 1.9k
the sun and the moon
Hanna Kelley Jun 2015
girl: Why do you love me?
boy: why does the sun die every night for the moon?
girl: your so mushy and poetic, but it's cute
Jun 2015 · 530
the one
Hanna Kelley Jun 2015
You'll know he's the one if his smile makes you smile.

You'll know he's the one at 2 am when you can't sleep because your thinking about him.

You'll know he's the one when you can say you love all of the things he truly hates about himself and mean it.

You'll know he's the one when you hug him because all of your worries have gone.

You'll know he's the one if he looks in your eyes and you can't look away because you are drowning in his laugh and the way he says your name.

You'll know he's the one when you guys get close and all you can think about is kissing him.

You'll know he's the one if his cologne is your new favorite smell.

You'll know he's the one if you can't think straight around him.

You'll know he's the one when he cries because your heart breaks and you will do anything to make him feel better.

You'll know he's the one when your getting ready for the day because you try your hardest to dress to impress.

You'll know he's the one if you trust him with all of your secrets.

You'll know he's the one if you think about your future together.

You'll know he's the one when you guys can hang out and your in the moment, nothing else matters except for him and you.

You'll know he's the one when you get nervous talking to him.

You'll know he's the one if you had him in mind as you read this.
Jun 2015 · 1.9k
just for tonight
Hanna Kelley Jun 2015
Hold me, love me
With all of your mite
Be with me
Just for tonight

Let's drink and get high
Until the morning light
Have fun and let go
Just for tonight

Be wild and crazy
Let's start a fight
Be stupid with me
Just for tonight

Travel with me
And see new sights
Let's have an adventure
Just for tonight

Let's jump off this cliff
And then take flight
Take risks with me
Just for tonight

Lay with me
And count the satellites
Let's be silent
Just for tonight

It's just you and me
in the moonlight
Thank you so much
Now it's good night
Jun 2015 · 613
to the guys
Hanna Kelley Jun 2015
To the guy who was there when I was born
*******.
I know your my dad and I will always love you
But some of the things you've said and done have left marks that I can't erase
To the guy who bullied me as I grew up
*******.
Your my older brother.
Your supposed to make me feel safe, feel loved.
What you did still haunts me, I will always hate you
To the guy that first caught my attention
*******.
I was taught that love was a beautiful thing.
What we had wasn't beautiful because I was the only one that had true feelings
To the guy I thought could be the one
*******.
I will always remember your name as the boy who got my hopes up
To the flirts
*******.
I never thought I looked like I enjoyed being talked to like that, apparently something made you think it was okay
To the guy who taught me over the year
*******.
Your my teacher.
You shouldn't be looking at teenage girls like that
To the guy who snuck around
*******.
Because you were with my mom, I had to be nice.
I hope you feel horrible for what you have done.
Forgiveness is given easy now
But I will never forgive you and I hope to never see your face again
To the guy who had to die
*******.
You told me that we were going to have a future together.
You were like a brother to me, one that actually treated me like a sister.
Why did you have to go?
I needed you then, and I need you now
Jun 2015 · 1.1k
i wish
Hanna Kelley Jun 2015
I wish to be the girl you hold so tight
I wish to be the one you lay with at night
I wish I could be able to trust again
I wish I could stop writing with this blood pen
I wish I was beautiful, thin, and tall
I wish I could just sleep and forget it all
I wish I could go and live on a star
I wish I was strong enough to go that far
I wish to be confident, important, and smart
I wish my first job will be a good start
I wish to stop growing and always stay young
I wish I could hide my nicotine stained tongue
I wish that I will graduate and live a great life
I wish that my husband will think me a good wife
I wish to have kids so I can watch them grow
I wish I was strong enough to just let go
I wish to move on, forget, and forgive
I wish to be happy so I can just live
I wish that soon you will understand
I wish I could replace my thyroid gland
I wish that I was a healthy child
I wish that I could fly for miles
I wish that my family will begin to be kind
I wish to rid the suicidal thoughts from my mind
I wish to be recognized for my art
I wish that the right boy will fix my heart
I wish that I will be more optimistic
I wish that my wishes were more realistic
Jun 2015 · 507
read
Hanna Kelley Jun 2015
Just let me read

I don't want to be here anymore
Just let me read so I can leave this world for a little while
Just a little break from the drama and the torture

That's all I ask
To be in a world with dragons and zombious plagues because its better than here
To have the ability to freeze time and have powers so I can finally be the one in control
To see God and Jesus because they promised to make my life easier
To be immortal and shapeshift because death does not exist

I need to be able to pause
To just place a bookmark in my life so I can continue the one that lives on the pages

I need the magic
I need the fairies and mermaids
I need the talking animals
I need to fly
I need the stories
I need the possibilities

I know, I know
Their just fiction
But sometimes I just need a happily ever after
Because I know ill never have one

Please just leave me with my books so I can just pretend for a little while
Hanna Kelley May 2015
You were only using me
to solve your problems,
and hide your lies
just because you couldn't compromise

I thought you were my friend
apparently I was wrong,
I thought we could be friends again
that we would finally get along

now it's my turn, I need help
and this is what you do?!
your going to leave me here alone
while I was there for you?!

and now your reading this,
don't start caring now!
just because I'm telling the truth
doesn't mean you get to back down!

let the world see you
for who you really are,
she's running from the truth
but she's not getting that far

your not going to win this time!
you hurt my friends, you cheated,
you lied! You acted in pain
as we fell down and died

I tried to help you through your problems
and this is what you choose?
you makes everyone's life miserable
because you didn't know who you would rather lose!

just let me make this simple for you:
you have my friendship, but you have lost my trust
Don't be surprised
when I leave you in the dust.
May 2015 · 1.9k
fake smile
Hanna Kelley May 2015
I smile
I say I'm fine
But I never knew it was a waist of time

You saw through my lies
You held my hands
And stared in my eyes

You sat me down
Your smile was warming
You promised you would stay till morning

You hugged me
And whispered in my ear
*"everything will be okay, I love you dear"
May 2015 · 1.2k
too me
Hanna Kelley May 2015
Too tired
Too weak
Too gentle
Too sweet

Too honest
Too kind
Too loyal
Too blind

Too scared
Too young
Too hurt
Too done

Too distant
Too misled
Too me
Too dead
May 2015 · 711
Growing Up
Hanna Kelley May 2015
?I grew up too fast.

When I was younger, I was taught that school is important. Im going to graduate, go to college, get a job, have a family and then my life will be complete.
I used to get so excited thinking about all of it... now It scares me.

I miss being little
I miss having a dog that was bigger than me
I miss watching cartoons on Saturday morning's instead of studying for an exam that is most of my grade.
I miss my only worries being if I got coal or candy in my stocking that year.
I miss adding a new mark on the door frame, each mark a little taller than the last.
I miss the easy homework in elementary school that seemed difficult at the time.

I remember wanting nothing more than to be one of the big kids, but now I just want to reverse the years.
When your younger the only chore you have is picking up your toys and cleaning up your messes.
When you get older you have to sweep, mop, dust, the list goes on.
When you're younger you don't have to worry about relationships because "they have cooties".
When you get older you get this idea that if you don't date anybody then you're not cool, and if you date too many people you're a who're.
But we all grow up
We all have to take responsibility, and those who don't,
fail in life

My parents warned me,
They warned me about the people I would run into, the obstacles I would have to face, the peer pressure, the school work, the discipline I would have to learn in order to become successful in life.
I always thought I had more time to prepare myself.

when you grow up, one of the many obstacles you face, is the people around you; the bullies, the teachers.
when you grow up, you are exposed to peer pressure and are given no choice but to follow the leader.
Peer pressure is a horrible thing; it can get you to smoke, to drink, to join gangs, to ruin your life.
the lucky ones are the people that are strong enough to say “No”.
when you grow up, you have this feeling of depression, of loneliness, of feeling you are not good enough; and it's horrible because we all feel it at some time, no matter how hard you try to prevent it.

when your younger the years go by slower, making it feel like time will last forever.
Then the years pass by, they start moving faster and faster,
Especially when your having fun.
Growing up isn't always horrible, there are people I'm glad that I met, memories that will always make me smile, hard times that have made me a better person, and lives that I've changed.
Im thankful
I just wish the innocence, the simplicity could have lasted a little longer.
May 2015 · 839
just another yesterday
Hanna Kelley May 2015
Today you talked to me,
I know you left me for her
But I can't help but feel as though I miss you.

Today you stared at me,
Just like how you used to,
Starring into my eyes, you make me feel like it's just you & me

Today you told me you missed me,
That you still love me,
But it was best for us to stay friends

Today you held me once again,
Only this time
The hug was longer, tighter, sweeter

Today you flirted with her
Right in front of me
Told me "she might be the one"

Tonight,
I sleep...I need to get you off my mind,
Maybe I'll finally move on

Now I realize
That all of these memories,
Are just a lot of yesturdays
May 2015 · 1.2k
the coast
Hanna Kelley May 2015
The waves of the ocean crash against the cliffside rocks
The trees and the dirt behind me in the background
The water wakes colliding
The strong winds tossing my body
The sea water spray floating in the air
I think I am in my special place
Feb 2015 · 1.7k
you dont understand
Hanna Kelley Feb 2015
"You don't understand"
Said her friend with her broken heart.

"You don't understand"
Her dad sighed, begging for a new start.

"You don't understand"
Screamed her boyfriend, his wrists bleeding red.

"You don't understand"
Cried her sister with the voices in her head.

"You don't understand"
Glared the boy, bullied because he was gay.

"but I do understand"
Because I am not okay.

"I understand"
I have a broken heart too.

"I understand"
I need a new start, but you have no clue.

"I understand"
My wrists have bled, my family isn't very kind.

"I understand"
The voices scream and yell throughout my mind.

"I understand"
I am bullied almost everyday.

"I understand"*
Because I am not okay.
Feb 2015 · 7.9k
Ana
Hanna Kelley Feb 2015
Ana
I met a girl named Ana
she is beautiful in every possible way
her body is perfect, and she was
determined to stay

I made a friend named Ana
she promised to tell me her secrets of perfection
what I didn't know wouldn't **** me
until it led to addiction

my best friends name is Ana
she's always talking to me
recommending to skip two meals
maybe even three

I hate a girl named Ana
she promised me pleasure
instead I feel dead inside
it's nothing but torture

I'm prisoner to a girl named Ana
please, somebody listen to my silent crys
I can't speak my own mind
help me before I die!

my murders name is Ana
she made me starve, she made me weak
death wasn't the solution
I tried to seek
Feb 2015 · 1.3k
the voices in my head
Hanna Kelley Feb 2015
Dreadful
Mocking
Torturous screams
They keep on repeating the same things
Threatened
Defeated
Hopeless and scared
When she smiles, no one is aware
Crying
******
Hurt little girl
Pretends to be fine for the rest of the world
Happy
Laughing
Faking a smile
This can only last for a while
Broken
Speechless
Breathing but dead
These are the voices inside my head
Feb 2015 · 2.2k
anorexia
Hanna Kelley Feb 2015
You may not want me here
But I am here to stay
I can help you ****
Those pounds you wish away

To improve your image
And help you feel delight
To stare into your reflection
And love the beautiful sight

We'll start with just a pound
Or maybe even more
Just walk into your bathroom
And behind you shut the door

It's okay darling
Not losing weight yet?
Alright, we'll cut some meals
No need to be upset

Your shedding weight pound for pound
But still you are not pleased
Your own reflection mocks you
And in public you are teased

Even now as you look in the mirror
You still want to lose it all
Down to 60 pounds
And all of your teardrops fall

You still felt worthless,
Not good enough
And life around you
Was getting too tough

You were killing yourself
And you just wanted it to end
You still wanted more
Of what I recommend

And now your dead
Because you were a little overweight
And you never believed your friends
When they told you "you look great"
Feb 2015 · 1.9k
suicide
Hanna Kelley Feb 2015
Suicide was never the answer to your temporary problems
And now I read about your death through the newspaper columns
" teen boy found dead with suicide letter..."
I believed you when you said you were feeling better...

This poem is for the suicidal boys that never get recognized
Suicide is never the right thing to idolize!
Put down the razor, or your item of torture
You get pushed passed your limits, and it hurts, sure...
But that doesn't mean you can't make it through your temporary problem
Do you really want to be idolized through the newspaper column?
Feb 2015 · 5.8k
nobody cares
Hanna Kelley Feb 2015
Soft dirt surrounds me like a heavy quilt
The grass and flowers above my head wilt
Why does nobody love me or even care?
They spit on my grave with no pain to bare
Feb 2015 · 934
the life inside a box
Hanna Kelley Feb 2015
In a box
Are secrets untold
Some are new
And some are old

Locked and kept
on a shelf up high
Safe and covered
With a blanket of lies

Everybody tries
But the box is locked
To find the memories
If how I am mocked

For some are able
To find the key
To open the box
And dissect me

To reach inside
And read my mind
The thoughts I've
not yet left behind

Memory by memory
They skim the box
Soon to be rumors
Where everybody talks

And when they are done
They'll put it back
Empty of all
The secrets I've packed

You see...

In a box
is the life of me
Dissected, tortured
And without a key

— The End —