"hopeing" poems
Acting Out Of Habit
*Acting out of habit
I go about my day
Pretending that the love I feel
Will somehow go away
There is a feeling in my heart
That I hide deep within
A secret love that I feel
Whenever they walk in
I tell myself they're taken
I can never be with them
Knowing that with just a chance
I would let a love begin
I cannot change who I am
Or the way I feel inside
Hopeing they will somehow see
And want me in their life
Acting out of habit
I go about my day
Pretending that the love I feel
Will somehow go away
Acting out of Habit*
Carl Joseph Roberts
Jan 27, 2014
Jan 27, 2014 at 5:14 AM UTC
All I want is you,
and right now in my crazy life thats all I know is real and true.
These games we play,
they are bad for my mental health.
So through these words I want to show you
we should be something else.
Something more then just good friends,
something more that never ends.
I give you my all everyday,
you say things to get my hopes up then let me down in everyway.
But I'm still here holding on,
wondering if I'm reading you wrong.
Cause half the time is seems you want me too,
and half the time its like your screaming Fu** you.
I've fallin in love with a man who cant trust
And you know what they say,
theres no us without trust.
No matter how I show my loyalty
it doesnt matter cause Ill always be
the girl you can't trust,
the girl you can't love,
the girl you don't even think of.
But I'm still here hopeing for you too see,
that someday all your going to want is me.
Sep 30, 2012
Sep 30, 2012 at 11:26 AM UTC
By Me, the Great Duncan
Fickle and ever indecisive,
Destiny such a mistress
Taunting at my soul,
Yet,
When it shines in your favor,
Such a shine, shimmering with your jubilation for everyone to see
Hopeing was now a tired act,
Always the same night, same time,
Deep in sleep wanting nothing more,
Than to wake to someone,
Anyone to just ease this,
This tragic ironic loneliness I had put myself in
"Why?!" I screamed to the heavens of my dark ceiling,
Calling a question that mockingly,
Never was answered,
Yet
No more,
Live,
I whisper to the glass and grass,
Flowing and burning,
Mimicking the nights,
Speeding by,
Blurs on a deserted and dark, desolated highway, thumbing my way down,
Trying, searching,
For the tell tale signs of destiny,
Shimmering on the horizon,
Till,
Finally, in a bar,
"Let the night begin!" We yell as we begin our hunt,
Laughing, yet always on the scout,
Never seeing her,
Passing oh so close,
Almost!
The clock ticked down,
Closer and closer as Destiny,
That fickle mistress of my nightmares,
As deemed fit,
I met her tonight,
For all my cries in the night,
For all my past failures,
For all the ones lost,
I would find the one,
I've been asking for,
But only just,
As the clock,
Ticks,
Down,
Ever,
Closer,
Till...
She smiles sweetly,
I see her, only her,
The rest is blurred,
Distorted in the wake,
Of the beauty,
Radiating,
Only for me
Another smile,
From on high,
Destiny laughs,
We embrace,
A sigh,
Happily,
My question answered,
"Why?!" I had screamed,
Her,
Destiny answered
May 20, 2013
May 20, 2013 at 4:05 PM UTC
United pairs, fall apart, with a broken heart.
can't they see, it just wasn't meant to be.
Everynight they lay in dark, thinking 'bout,
how there life turned upside down.
Wondering if they'll ever make it throgh.
Knowing that, its just to good to be true.
Till the time comes, when the world reminds them.
Can't you see, your love is a travesty.
But then you remind me, of the good times that we shared.
Can't we be, forever eternity.
Like two locks with one key.
it doesnt have to be;
Every hearts tragedy.
Talking through, there issues, is hard enough.
But looking at, eachothers eyes, they see a great surprise.
Asking why, there love divides, everytime.
Tryin' find, there love inside, it seems to want to hide.
Remembering all that they have been through.
Hopeing that, they can move on too.
Till the time comes, when they feel it inside them.
Can't you see, your love is a travesty.
But then you remind me, of the good times that we shared.
Can't we be, forever eternity.
Like two locks with one key.
It doesnt have to be,
Every hearts tragedy.
Now we see, they come alive, no more fights.
Hold the lies, share their minds, happiness collides.
And now we know that love will find a way.
Until another every hearts tragedy.
Apr 18, 2012
Apr 18, 2012 at 11:35 PM UTC
Dear family
I know I always seem busy
The devil is trying to get me
I'm M.I.A
And I know that you miss me.
I'm sorry that I've been distant.
Seems everything changed in an instant.
My life is so inconsistent.
I don't know what I'm missing.
Family time, I really don't mean to miss it.
My life it's needs some assistance.
But.
I guess my mind is in another place.
Thoughts off in another world.
I started seeing another girl.
Went up and down man what a world.
But now.
I'll focus on my crafts.
Slowly go up old rafts.
This poem's heart felt that I bestest could finish te draft.
This poem's to the ones I love.
The ones that I miss.
Wish it could all just be cured with a hug and kiss.
Sometimes I go up to the lake just to reminisce.
Of all the things I shouldn't have I know it's a list.
Meanwhile, I'm caught up in my self, in my world with no neighbors.
Stay to myself even if I get handed some favors.
Haven't opened up in a while.
Maybe since I was a child.
When's the last time that I smiled.
Drive in my car Til it's on E.
Resorted to consanants and vowels.
I know they wonder what I'm doing.
What I really be persuing.
Hopeing I can save myself.
Some relationships I've ruined.
Some days I wake up and just ask what am I really doing.
They say family is everything, I feel as now it is the truth.
I should spend more time with y'all.
But I spend it living out my youth.
But it's everything I love.
And it's everything I need.
Family love's the cure and drug even though it not ****
Jan 20, 2016
Jan 20, 2016 at 2:25 AM UTC
Oh he was crying like he should've cared
It was tight ropes and white coats
And she was screaming like he wasn't there
It was old souls and a cold nose
There wasn't much that she could do from there
It was tight ropes and white coats
They were turning her fast in her chair
It was all she could to keep from being good
There tight ropes wrapped around her face
Old souls screaming out her name
White coats chasing her veins oh
With tight ropes and white coats
He was crawling deep in the ground
Hopeing pleading maybe he's found
The only one who ever let him out
But she was wrapped tight and all alone
He should've never left her to her own
He finally found her deep in the earth
Wrapped in white coats with tight ropes
He thought to free her stumbled on no
If he released her oh where would she go
How much longer could keep her in
Tight ropes with white coats
Bleeding seething all alone
So ******
She was all wrapped in tight ropes
They were all standing in white coats
Discussing how much candy she could hold
Before they would have to carry her home.
Apr 27, 2013
Apr 27, 2013 at 8:19 PM UTC
This life brings me angst
But in the gud or bad
I want to gives thankes,
This life gives me apprehension
Seeing yung boyes on DA block
Getting sidekicked and chopped
To DA coppers inventions.
I miss DA streets I once knew, where da boyes treated yuos
Like a girl in fifth sax. I don't care for dose materials. Or da purses no more on ma backe,
J just want to be treated like a human being for once,
Hopeing for like a woman. I don't need the high class Richie Rich, or da poore boyes thuggin. I'm so sick seeing dat bloodin and crip-out. I just want a blood that will be bout da love, not da colors on his house.
Feb 28, 2016
Feb 28, 2016 at 9:04 PM UTC
it twisted
when i sat idle
hopeing off her horoscope
online, read a few
after that i do a painting
something like she’d do
little flowers smiling fruit
health veg and neon cities
it hard
when i sit back
tip ma cap down
chillin'
then wham
i slip and gotta climb out a pit
overrun with a thousand clones of her
muddy and they’re all babbling questions
everything she ever said streams lucid
concerned 'help me’s tangle
soft 'love me’s whisper
i turn
and she asks me to leave
it easy
after a spliff
or a bottle of wine
a slice savoury unconsciousness
any bite of smoke
its wrong
that we’re going to forget this
she’s ignoring it hid round the corner
waiting till i'm gone
jumping into a river of ignorance
blaming it on being young
its
stupid
that i even give a ****
That even i care so much
tho yes
it over
but where do we leave it
somewhere we might find it?
charity shop?
the attic?
maybe she’ll give it to a friend
or she’ll paint over it and just know it was there
on her own she might trace where we drew
and shed just half a sigh
skip a heartbeat and roll back to bed
she’ll wish for that last kiss
but once you’ve killed it its dead
Oct 2, 2016
Oct 2, 2016 at 7:09 AM UTC
The past year seems nothing more then a blur, constant changes, and endless faces, where did our time go,
Something lost,
Once something with potential, you turned your back and walked a dead trail, you’ll see her face and the world turns a dull gray, you’ll end your days with nothing but endless memories,
And promising ways,
You promised the world and all that you could, till I broke your back with my endless ways, you found another, and with her deceit and demanding ways you will disappear, no trace, no goodbye,
Dreaming of a simple hello,
The days with you seem like nothing more then a endless hope and dream, that cant be replaced, puzzle pieces, hopeing, needing, wanting, endless, something that plagues and weighs, I have no words for you,
No deceit,
Maybe I dream to long and sleep to long, hope seems to be the enemy, in this never ending war that buries it weight in my thoughts, and brings lost things that aren’t meant to be found,
Remembered.
May 17, 2011
May 17, 2011 at 1:46 PM UTC
Is love blind?the punchs come all the time,like its respectful for mankind.what go thought her mind? he,s upset he wont do it the next time.he always come with the same line.as her face gets a new design.she give him love and compassion thats hard to find,hopeing this love was on a incline.for these hateful crimes,but her loyalty was love blind.
Mar 12, 2011
Mar 12, 2011 at 3:09 AM UTC
Have you ever taken notice
Of the direction that nature reaches
In this there must be a lesson
That Gods creation teaches
Look at a mountains peak
It reaches so very high
Up through the ghostly clouds
As if to touch the sky
Look at the pine trees tall
Swaying within the wind
Seeking to grasp a star
As a way to lift and ascend
A flower within a tiny seed
Grows up from the darkened soil
Showing forth great majesty
While reaching up with strain and toil
The songbirds sing their songs of praise
While flying up too the highest limb
Seeking up just as the tree
Hopeing to catch a glimpse of Him?
It seems that Gods creation
Within a world that is so abrupt
Is teaching life's only true meaning
And is always reaching UP.
I wrote this poem last week while my wife and I were on vacation in Colorado . As I looked upon the mountains and the forrest this is the thought that came to me. Shouldent we all be looking , reaching , seeking Up.
Hope you like it
May 29, 2014
May 29, 2014 at 10:39 PM UTC
Im going for a walk. A walk to clear my head. Clear it right out. Take away the memories, burn away the knowledge, i don't care. Everything need's to be moved out of my mind and thought's and sold at a garage sale for all i care. This fresh air isnt working. Where's my lighter, come here cancer. I take a deep breath in and take in all the toxin's with it, hopeing maybe a chemical reaction will effect everything going on in my head, melting away everything. Step, inhale, step, exhale. While blowing out the toxin, i blow out my thought's and memory and walk right back into them. Blow by blow, im taking them for you. Puff by puff, im taking these in for sanity. Half way done and block's from home i keep looking over my shoulder hoping maybe you or someone like you will follow quickly after. Oh cigarette, why must the comfort you bring over me disappear once you've left me? But like you, the cigarette did not respond, because the cigarette was gone and out of my hand's. Out of reach. So i stand there, looking at the empty space where the just barely burning end of the cigarette settles into place and i just watch the snow take over. I watch the once visibly lit cigarette turn black and into ash's. Even though the cigarette's burnt out, im still standing here, uncertain as to why im here, but im here and im waiting. I will wait until dusk and if the spark comes back, i will move at the paste the spark moves. Just to make sure i stay with it. But if not, i will go home and i will relight another cigarette, hoping maybe this is the right one.
Jun 9, 2011
Jun 9, 2011 at 7:17 AM UTC
I woke up in the morning, took a pill or two, open my eyes hopeing something is new,
I look into the mirror, dreading what I might see, but in the reflection was an improved me,
I see all ive ever wanted, best part is i got it, i turn around to hug you, but u dissipate into a fresh morning dew,
I watch from the sidelines as my dreams fly away, I wish U could've been there before my life went grey, there is no life without love, if only u loved me to, we'd be happy and sky's would be blue,
You went from the apple of my eye, to the wings that let me fly, you came from The cream in my coffee, to what makes it frothy, guess i can only say, without you makes my mind stray,
I can't find any other way to tell u I love u more than anyone I've ever met, I even waited in the rain until I was dripping wet, if u don't think I'm insane, please come with me down love lane,
We shall dance in the Stars, and kiss within the rain, as ive said before, without your love id be insane, **** without you id lose my brain,
Without u I'm constantly in pain, forgive me for my lies, forgive me if I died, coz without u I have no life,
This over whelming saddness, is one caused by maddness, if only us were a thing, and you furfilled my dreams.
Nov 28, 2016
Nov 28, 2016 at 3:33 AM UTC
"Today while the blossoms still cling to the vine, I'll taste your strawberries, I'll drink your sweet wine"
How come life can't be that elegant
With the one you love
Humming tunes of romance
Wasteing the day away
"A million tomorrows will all fade away, there I forgot all the joy that was mine today..."
Memories of joy and delight
Dangling on a chain
Taunting us with our wildest dreams
Calling for us to dream about
Waiting..hoping....daydreaming......
Jan 15, 2013
Jan 15, 2013 at 11:13 PM UTC
Thomas, He's amazing..
Yet that dosent even come close to describing his true meaning.
He's not afraid of his fears, because he knows that fear has no place in his heart when it comes.
He's a lover of many, and steals there hearts was he walks in the room:)
He looks over his shoulder and as do I.. He smiles his glowing smile and I smile back, but that was all.
Loyal, he keeps his promises.. And never fails to forget.
Loving, he forgives the ones who have caused him pain and moves on..
Hopeing, he chases after his many dreams, and without a doubt I know he will achieve them!
Blessed, he Uses his god given gifts and lifts others up
Determined, he rebukes the curses that others throw at him and,
Rejoicing, he smiles :)
...to define him? Its impossible...
But he's an amazing friend.. A friend whose always been there..
he's someone I wish I could be like..
He's amazing...
Jan 7, 2013
Jan 7, 2013 at 2:17 AM UTC
You know what hurt me the most, Larry's last words dying on the phone, "make it better with your dad, you know you love him son" those words stuck in my head the scars have begun, dont Think I'm writing for fun, cuz I tried, you turned your back like it was a lie, Larry's last wish I'd defied, he didn't know the real you, was that a factor, through his eyes, you were a caring chapter, the very next page and I was the laughter, the very next day was disaster, Larry had passed, I didn't do what he had asked, when I told him I would, deep in my mind I was hopeing I could, deep in my thoughts he words are still put, deep in my heart I hate you for good
Farther, mother, Brother, sis, someone pull me from abyss,
Larry im sorry soul, i tried for you but now i fold,
Farther, mother, Brother, sis, someone pull me from abyss,
Larry im sorry bro, i tried for you and i can't let go.
Aug 12, 2020
Aug 12, 2020 at 3:00 PM UTC
poems
my friends my family
the only thing i have to help
when im lost and have no one to turn to
i grab my only hope for survival
this cruel world ruined me
poems
my own counselor and consultant
i have been cursed with evil emotions
yet i harness them in my poems
hopeing for them to leave my soul
poems
always there for me to write
always there for me to enjoy
my only means of entertainment
unless i watch the blood flow
poems
my key to a world unknown
my adventure on this wretched planet
unchained and ready to ****
my last poem still unwritten
poems
still in all of us
like an unknown power
a single poem could save humanity
but still they remain lost to poetry
poems
our last hope to rescue us from the dark
our light at the end of the tunnel
can we really let it go
we thrive to let our emotions know
our lives are not a show
poems
releasing us from the currents
having faith in the poets
the made us who we are today
look in the mirror and write a poem
poems
are the end of the apocalypse
we ended a war inside of us
hoping to end the war in humanity
poems
our own savior from the chains
our master of words
elegant in nature
and true in your words
poems
you steal the air in my lungs
you stop my heart
you are the one we love
dont hide from us
poems
the truth untold
and today you are told
the path you have paved is the one i shall stay on
Dec 11, 2012
Dec 11, 2012 at 12:02 PM UTC
She never understood,
why she got hit,
what she did wrong,
why he was so mad,
she tried to do things right,
but it never mattered,
he still hit her,
she is so tired of being hurt,
but she can't leave,
the man has her heart,
so she stays,
beatin and bruised,
hopeing one day,
he will love her.
Jan 26, 2012
Jan 26, 2012 at 4:39 PM UTC
Blood drips as I lay.
Hopeing I could say, "I'm sorry."
Drained from pain,
adrenaline in my vein,
spilling on the floor.
The end is near,
i'm not scared here,
because i'm just worthless...
Apr 18, 2012
Apr 18, 2012 at 10:30 PM UTC
I was
I was feeling
and I was thinking,
and I was wondering,
and I was hopeing,
Dad was
he came to me and he said
then he
and he also,
and he also,
he said to me
while he was
I said to him
and I pretended,
and I thought,
and I felt,
and I wanted to,
and I wanted him to,
when he left, I
and I thought,
and I felt,
and now I think,
and I wonder
and I feel,
and I want to say this to Dad.
Jul 8, 2010
Jul 8, 2010 at 7:03 PM UTC
You allowed me to move from place to place
I wish you could see the tears on my face
You ripped my heart out of my chest
Now all I feel is anger and detest
I wish you were feeling all of this pain
I'm hopeing that it will drive you insane
Every tear that I shed
It fills me with dread
It easy to say that to me you are dead
Jun 8, 2013
Jun 8, 2013 at 10:01 AM UTC
Sometimes the most simplistic poems are beautiful.
I eat apples because i'm sad, and I like coke too much;
My gums hurt when I bite into the skin of it.
Reminding me that sometimes, the Pleasures of the things that are simple,
are sublimely painful.
like apples, coke in mouthfuls.
It hurts because my gums bleed from chemical burns of stimulates that are lacking opalescence experiances
Jacking my sails that left me high and dry.
in all odible sensible seriousness,
I'm ready to cry,
hopeing by the end
that I beg
like the children forced to manufacture it,
Hopeing to die.
But I beckon for that pain
Not out of self destructive gain.
But out of recognition for what i've lost.
The identity of the man drowning in Desolate porcelein desserts and tossed into oceans named after the many emotions i'm swayed by.
Sadness leaves me floating,
Anxiety leaves me floundering, Depression has me drowning.
Not a matter of difference but for the sake of juxtaposition.
When Thoughtfulness is chosen.
Happiness lets me see my position.
Then Confidence puts my gears in motion.
Because i've seen bouys floating,
men in yahts gloating,
Survivers floating,
Kids in rags
Not clothing
But like a light house
Your smile
Glowing
I can't think right now because my teeth hurt. From eating apples and likeing coke too much.
But at least I feel alive
Jul 23, 2019
Jul 23, 2019 at 12:56 AM UTC
Love is a dream so warm and safe
A perfect land and a perfect place
But no matter how hard i try
To live my dream, again i'm denied
If theres good in the world i beleive that it missed me
If love is for real then that girl never kissed me
Whenever i try to explain i confuse
Whenever i try to retain it i loose
My heart flows like water I beg for it to clense
My words carry dreamers beliefs to the end
But the tears that fall from my eyes
never put rainbows above in the skies
It's frustrating the waiting, the hopeing and doubt
Love is a dream that i cant live without
For never to love is a loss in itself
For my dream i would sacrifice everything else
So this is the cry to the tears that i hide
No-one to love and nowhere to confide
My loneliness clothes like a gown
Forever my smiles have been turned into frowns
I love you, I need you, Theres so much to say
But to me these lines are far from cliche
If you cant comprehend just pretend
But words such as these i could never defend
Jun 21, 2015
Jun 21, 2015 at 10:25 PM UTC
If you ever decide its time to leave me alone
Please take my hearts pieces when you go
Ill bury myself in brimstone and fire
Hopeing one day you'll return my desire.
Jul 31, 2015
Jul 31, 2015 at 2:59 PM UTC