"dispassionately" poems
I open the blinds and see the world - in return, what
does the world see? It sees me, and all my splendid, split
personalities, living these amazing times, of amazing
pleasures, in which we tweet tweets, and post posts re
ego-trips and copyrighted links, videos and things; and,
as stray dogs, we ramble randomly, and all the time,
living in our infinite worlds, of infinite lanes, till infinity;
yet we suffer so much pain.
Our Shih Tzus take us on extended walks, firmly leashed
to our Koss plugs, as we drone cool tunes on multihued
iPods, iPhones buzzing ringtones of tittering babies,
stolid kings and hyperactive frogs, which would all make
my eighty-six year old dad want to gag; we fly
ultralight megaplanes at the sonic sound of speed,
through virtual and real space, connecting dots at low-
cost prices, while we belt-up, gear-up, gulp Gaga and
gorge heat-inducted meals of deer, horse and over-
promoted crap; and then, wow surprisingly, we are all
so unsatisfied.
We consciously all move-in together, and **** on end,
like statistical sheep, pre-married, unloving, and broken
up, and justify it all, to ourselves, with our fully
stretched spandex morality, over low-carb brunches
@Starbucks, two 14” screens of separation; we paint
pornographic images of virgins, all called Mary, in the
name of art, and, white-clad, **** babes and alter-boys,
and penetrate each other, first with our fingers, deeply,
then superficially, without even wondering, for a
zeptosecond, why we can’t stand one another any
longer.
We crank-up dependencies, like high street mainliners,
shamming and slaughtering for neurotoxic fixes of
smileys and Crystal on billion-dollar Kogo yachts, while
we all just pedal on, dispassionately, down and over
interior canals, to the core of our hocked, abbrev lives,
chronically connected and severely distracted, in
aromatic polymer bubbles, heedlessly cruising through
comic-strip farms of mock vegetables, surely to nowhere
and towards no one; and quite frankly, the world laughs
at all this, and sobs, and so do I.
May 5, 2012
May 5, 2012 at 4:08 PM UTC
calling out your name in the dark
It's become an excruciating custom now
An unquenchable thirst
daylight stings and moon hovers
dispassionately
over my head
heavy with laments over a fallen crest;
Still I imagine
still I dream
that you'll tune my painful screams
into a hushing lullaby,
with a promise of forever
you'd gift my gloomy tears a twinkling gleam;
But now I'm wearing this blindfold
refusing to see the light outshining this pathetic hope ;
You are not here yet,
Maybe you never will be,
But I'm not ready to move from you yet,
And I doubt that I'll ever will be free
From these painful lumps,
burning eyes
swollen throat
and prickled heart
emptying it's blood,
so slowly that years go by
And I can now feel the quitting of daylight
while my blindfold lets out a long sigh;
as if stating to end
this idiotic nonsense
of tucking heartbreak and love
under these lyrical verse;
Aug 20, 2022
Aug 20, 2022 at 3:06 PM UTC
Sitting here as the tears haste down my cheeks on to the wooden floor
the frigid floor froze my tear
watching the tear drop reminded me of your hair
when it drops down to your back when you take your ponytail out
your long unending alluring hair.
I wonder what it feels like if my fingers are combing through it
I ponder on what it will look like when i see you
if i ever do.
The tears
still dripping down my face
When will they stop?
when i see your seductive smile
when i see your seducing face in person
just my eyes and yours .
This moment will come
One day, i know it will...
Looking at your pictures i say how beautiful you are to myself
I told Jade i think i love you
but the think went away
I do.
You tell me you love me
I say it back.
I don't tell people i love them if I really don't
Love is a strong word
Just Like Hate.
but hate will never be towards you
your far from hate..
Our text messages.
I look over them ,
only you now why...
The meaning of your name:
a clear, brilliant glass
clear like your mind is on irrelevant things
or the negative words that i'm sure came at you .
Brilliant Glass ?
the brilliant glass of you is your personality.
its effervescent.
Your laugh .
I love the sound of it.
I make you laugh just to hear the intonation of it.
Me still using up all my tears.
Oh wait there endless
so i can continue to cry everyday right?
Its nothing else i can really say but i really love you.
-nlj
Oct 7, 2013
Oct 7, 2013 at 12:46 AM UTC
Fumbling fingers yearning for connection,
Reach out through negative space,
Crash headlong into rejection.
Curl back in defeat,
Clenched fist to deflect,
Fiery agony of regret.
An empty, disparaging inflection
Cut from a hot pink tongue, flapping
Dispassionately disproves theory of interconnection,
Maybe myth, fable, love story --
Or maybe lack of detection,
From calloused palms,
Roughened with each ingestion
Of honey suckle poison.
Was this the original intention?
Or did the son choose to elect
Another hidden path, indirect.
This haze manifests crystalized predictions,
Of hands meeting thighs, meeting hips,
Pushing forward climactic introspection,
Or just another muddled reflection,
Of my endless projections,
Always failing tests of retention,
Mind permanently trapped in suspension,
Of spiraling tension.
Sep 1, 2014
Sep 1, 2014 at 8:06 PM UTC
Like a cancer I cling to you when I should turn away,
Darkness, please don't fill this space,
Sorrow, please delay.
An incessent yearning leaking onto my ideas, the colour of dismay,
Suicide, be gone from mind,
Please creation, not decay.
The memory of you, a wound untreated, a jewel I locked away,
Me, a safe for your callous act,
Please, don't you dare stay.
Your company, Vincent's night robbed of stars in the cruelest way,
Myself, a ***** amongst kings,
At least, that's what you would say.
Knowing better and feeling worse, duality in the doorway,
A love you have dispassionately marred,
No more prophetic ray.
The clouds are clearing, no thanks to you and your own ego's way,
Light, within me to be found,
And this is my new day!
Oct 11, 2019
Oct 11, 2019 at 4:14 PM UTC
Coming home drunk
(As I only rarely do)
One night, I heard a man
Talking to no one like a reliable friend,
Muttering about having his feelings hurt
And I knew who he was (or at least a kind of who:
Born with no opinions but strong opposition,
Always told, “Hey, you want a revolution?
Roll your own,” and laughed off,
Passed between people and ideas and loyalties
Like a stolen beer.)
I felt the need to be elsewhere, but the street
Dispassionately pressed him and me
Between two buildings.
I didn’t want to catch his eye,
But he caught mine,
I couldn’t look away from his face,
Twisting like he wanted to say
Something else, and then
There came a stillness.
I stared at him.
I’ll admit it, but
He was just so ragged and tough, like
A cardboard box
With bullets inside,
And okay, maybe I was a little scared.
(I was paralyzed, stuck in his eyes
Like the rooms of castles
Where no foot has tread,
Where ghosts sigh and whisper;
And outside there are signs
Saying “danger: do not climb
You will fall”)
Then something broke.
He looked away,
And whispered in a crumbling voice
“You are no one, I am alone,”
And then I knew he was.
Feb 16, 2011
Feb 16, 2011 at 5:56 PM UTC
The electric kettle grooves like a gavel bounce bouncing off the bench when the judge won the raffle
The sound waves baffle the mind as the refrigerator hums along to the microwaves song
A beep beepin’ melody as smoke’s creep creepin’ from the oven
And the blender is lovin’ the distraction
Keepin’ their eyes from the action
As he hatchets and dispassionately dispatches chickpeas left and right
No end to the violence in sight
Who cares about wrong from right
There will be hummus tonight
**** blender got his business done but now the fun begins as the stove channels the power of the sun to heat the pan and the plan is to fry the dough, those homemade doughnuts make the crowd go nuts but the sizzle of the grease unleashes the beast of the band, the main man, the rockstar, tattoo on his arm, rugged charm, protects you from harm, my man the fire alarm.
The fire truck sirens join the orchestration and soon the scene of devastation muffles into a hum, but umm, the night’s still young and we could still go, you know, I’m pretty loco for them Doritos and I may be burnt and poor but Taco Bell is open ’til 4.
Aug 15, 2018
Aug 15, 2018 at 8:01 AM UTC
ever looked dispassionately
in to the mirror of your life,
to see how limited
the freedom as a human is?
Jan 23, 2012
Jan 23, 2012 at 1:22 AM UTC
When you can lose your love with a shrug and a sigh,
That is when you die, that is when you die.
When you dispassionately let the whole world pass you by
When you conquer and don't miss your instinct to cry
When you are brought to your knees and forget to ask why,
That is the day that you die.
When you can abandon a place without saying goodbye
When your heartbeat is steady no matter your lie
When you stop failing at things and start failing to try
That is when you die, that is when you die.
You can wither away all crackled and dry
All elements of disease can you defy
Be a hundred and six and still limber and spry
But the day you stopped feeling was the day that you died.
Sep 19, 2013
Sep 19, 2013 at 6:43 PM UTC
I rest my consciousness
On the proliferating meadows
That stretch toward the sun,
That sway in placid solitude
In the tacit winds
That flow across my body.
I rest my consciousness
In the stars of the night
That caress my jaded visage
And assure me that my wishes
Will manifest themselves
Within my beating heart.
I rest my consciousness
Atop mountains and peaks
That envision a world of harmony
By harboring the aspirations
Of those who stand atop them,
Awe-struck by the omnipresent calm.
I rest my consciousness
In the landscape of my thoughts
That, like the meadows,
Will stretch onward
Until I draw my last breath
And exhale dispassionately.
I rest my consciousness
In the world of make-believe,
In the world that accepts me
Not because I am normal,
But because I can only be content
When I channel my inner wordsmith.
I rest my consciousness
In a night filled with silence
And, as I close my eyes
And let the dark fall over me,
I grin, cognizant
That my dreams are boundless.
Sep 23, 2014
Sep 23, 2014 at 9:01 PM UTC
welcome to the drowning valley.
we do not live; we exist.
her legs stopped working months ago.
now she drags herself onward
through the floating, bloating bones.
she forgot what she was looking for
years, decades, centuries ago,
and time drags on without her.
nir leaden lungs drag nir down.
air might as well be metal
for all the good it does.
(nir breath moves slow, hissing.)
ne is not yet drowning,
but the watchers do not help nir swim.
he gave in lifetimes past,
but they will not let him die,
so he stares at the sightless sky,
observing it more dispassionately
than it studies him.
they watch with a curious passion.
rulers need not be dictators or cruel.
to be detached is just as simple.
and they watch the people
existing in the drowning valley.
Aug 20, 2015
Aug 20, 2015 at 10:02 AM UTC
Er träumt davon, eines Tages frei zu sein.
Must I sleep much longer?
Must I sin so dispassionately?
Shall I find an open portal
and leap and splatter?
All of the roads seem sinister
and dogs wag their tails but snarl.
Beneath a dead Elm I witnessed
an Angel weeping and murmuring.
His tears were pearls; his sighs prayers.
A hag with ******* like needles
beckoned to me from near a ruined wall.
I no longer possess an ****** appetite.
Instead, I am gnawing at the sinews of time
which taste bitter as death and bland as chicken.
My brain is a luminous, transparent sponge.
Dare to take a look inside.
I wish to wake in a solid world,
but who heeds my wishes?
Perhaps I must sleep forever.
~mce
Dec 12, 2015
Dec 12, 2015 at 10:29 AM UTC
1.
It’s true, you know
I observed it quite dispassionately
You loved me less
When I wasn’t working.
I know love is a psychological aberration
Built on moments of joy
Shared accidentally
But I didn’t realise that it was based
On conceptions of value.
I did want to make you proud
I wanted to be worthy of your love,
I hadn’t realised
I was supposed to earn it.
You thought I should make something of myself
And I wanted to make myself better
Someone you could love, or at least respect.
It seems we both forgot what Christ said:
“I am what I am”,
There’s no use pretending
To be anything else.
2.
On the day I told you
I had got a job
You sang a song
As though I’d recovered
From an unpleasant disease.
Were you happier then
Than when we tried to make love
Or went on that picnic?
I was glad as well,
It meant we had something to talk about.
But my interest in the subject
Of my unexciting job
Is strictly limited;
Surely you also find it dull?
I wish you hadn’t been so glad,
And said something like,
“It’s a shame
You’ll have to spend the day at work
Away from me and nature and your beautiful thoughts”
Instead of
“At least it’s a start
And better than moping around all day.”
3.
You took it too personally
When I said “I love you”
And naturally thought I was mistaken.
What I meant was
“Today I love the world and all things in it
And I’m glad to share this moment with you.”
If I’d been with someone else
I would perhaps have felt no less radiant,
But I did want and value your company
And then, of course, I made you a giant
To feed my pride.
But the beauty inside all of us,
When it manages to surface,
Is too generous to limit its love to one.
My one ambition
Is to liberate that gold within;
It melts all barriers,
It could free us all.
This morning
I was an hour late for work.
Sep 12, 2014
Sep 12, 2014 at 10:40 AM UTC
Dispassionately cast with no compass to live,
I dwindle like the stars that die, transmissive.
This depth is cold without you or the love I invented.
I embraced it, despite on me you've been imperfectly imprinted and indented.
Take me or leave me, anything to fill that void.
Every intimacy and secret which you've ever enjoyed.
You've spent time designing black holes of savage ruination,
Dying light that spirals into native perturbation,
Inside the one who'd always, and still, followed.
Idly droning black ink... How will we fair tomorrow?
Chasing you, a fading eclipse,
Orbiting that star no one can see.
In a vast, open nothingness, with an only invisible me.
The hot tails of asteroids burn it away.
You had warned me of them, but I never turned to stray.
From a promise, for myself, to inspire the brightest brilliance.
To think I'd been so audacious to assume my own resilience.
The transformation and expansion of what's more massive than us,
I can't possibly predict what may become of scattered dust.
Apr 16, 2018
Apr 16, 2018 at 8:23 PM UTC
you laughed once
at a suicide joke
but now you hollow yourself
numb the crashing
of a turbulent sea
with unfeeling pain
watch with disinterest
as your body seeps ennui
dispassionately
wet cheeks
wet wrists
dry skies
it's fine.
Mar 29, 2015
Mar 29, 2015 at 12:22 AM UTC
Terrors of the waking, existential variety are what keep me up nights.
I know no pursuit, no entrapment. No attachment, in fact, at all.
I drift through life as I do my dreams: aimlessly, dispassionately, at turns bemused and bewildered, beset by a sense of inevitable end.
Ends*,
so soon and so frequent.
Forays into fuller living are inherently half-hearted -
self-fulfilling prophecies of loneliness.
I am never quite at ease in relationships, always looking out for new anxieties to be had, faking a brave face for any you have.
You. Whenever I write what comes out is a love letter (of some kind)
addressed to you, but without the proper postage
words that never hit home, that never ring true
words, half meant or never spoken.
I play-act at devotion, and, that mask falling away, affect grievous emotion.
It's not who pushes whom, but mutual magnetic repulsion.
We turn around and around, looking each other over until we each settle on a face that drives us apart in perfect unison.
Oct 1, 2014
Oct 1, 2014 at 6:35 AM UTC
_Woe to the world, the sun is in a cloud,
And darksome mists do overrun the day;
In high conceit, is not content allowed;
Favour must die and fancies wear away.
O heavens, what hell! The bands of love are broken,
Nor must a thought of such a thing be spoken._
-Robert Devereaux
Goodbye, mockingbird -
I must leave you now.
I have often watched you
hash across the yard
from your holly station,
chop chop chop with such vim,
from the leaf to the post
to the high-lidded lamp
that surveys the night dispassionately.
In return, how ungrateful I have been -
what terrible things
I have offered your shining bead
of an eye. In your tenure
on the gray-green sill
you have listened to the sharp salt
of my many difficulties
with perfect equanimity.
But now I must go.
Perhaps you will find me,
across the living ruins
of this capital city,
in the raining triangle
that corners down to Dupont.
Or perhaps you will stay sentinel
over this nest, deep in the green.
I will miss you, little bird.
My two brightest years
passed under your wing.
Jun 2, 2021
Jun 2, 2021 at 3:47 PM UTC
Perhaps when it all comes out in the open,
All the white lies, the little lies, the epic lies,
Of how we responded to the crying planet,
All will be said in a courtroom of compassion.
The lawyers remove their heavy wigs
And plead my case of guiltiness-
“Your honor, the defendant was no more
Able to change the tide than a red ant
Among billions on a jungle floor.
He took his few tons from the planet-
He took what he needed but no more;
He attended all conservation events.
He voted to save bees and elephants,
He abstained from swordfish to save the oceans,
Avoided pesticides and toxic lotions;
He fervently supported free abortions.
And bicycled to save the ozone
(When it was sunny and not too cold).
He purchased ripe fruits from Whole Foods.
He recycled books, old boots and shoes.
He forbade polyester to touch his skin.
He kept his flushes to a minimum.
His got 28 miles per gallon in town.
He never was seen throwing garbage around. "
"Your honor, the murderers of the buffaloes
Have been pardoned by the courts long ago-
It is true, he killed a rooster and a kangaroo,
But evidence shows they were clearly confused
With no reason to be loitering on the roads.
This man is unjustly accused, and if I must say,
Writes poems about the birdsong in May.
From where I sit, the court must acquit!”
The trial continues daily, like reality TV,
But nothing seems to alter prophecies.
What good if I set myself ablaze
Like the Buddhist in the center of Broadway-
I am haunted by a future I cannot explain
Trying to live out my life without blame.
The next generations are unknowable beings-
They will find their beaches in the rising tides
Made of plastic corals and robotic fish;
They will play in virtual forests with android slaves;
With perfect teeth and perfect pitch
The genetically enhanced go off to the galaxies,
In search of planets to greedily consume,
To spread the seeds of the earth and start anew.
What can a simple man as I know of such things?
The jury gives verdicts dispassionately-
For now I’m out on bail, I’m free to go,
No more guilty than my brethren of old
Who slayed the mammoth and fantastical dodo.
Apr 30, 2018
Apr 30, 2018 at 11:49 PM UTC
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I am on this poetry site called Hello Poetry
//
It is a quasi religious site
specifically one of
DEATH WORSHIP
& the
GLORIFICATION OF PAIN
//
The phenomena is being studied in
Many college and university psych courses
and in many sociology courses
//
Most preliminary papers on it describe it as
A symptom of a completely decaying culture
( both nationally and world wide )
and of the mind control apparatus of the state
Which makes the people feel totally helpless
And with no ability to heal themselves
Or to change things
//
This leads to the defensive mechanisms as
Shown on the Hello Poetry pages
//
I suggest that anyone interested in the health
Of these children read these poems
But to do so dispassionately
For
( as has been noted )
The brain washed
In the depths of their programming
ALSO LEARN THE PROGRAM !
and become quite adept also
In the
Mind game genre
May 20, 2015
May 20, 2015 at 3:15 PM UTC
They could barely relate to each other. Unpolished as is the human
way when observed dispassionately, but like humans they tried to
seem certain. Thinking they could carry out their plans, manipulate
and get their own way. Their eye contact had become forced and
staged; their smiles of acknowledgement were masking
estrangement. When the woman choked on the hard part of a
tomato; they were forced into immediate action; one of them applied
the Heimlich manoeuvre while the other called the emergency
services. We do not have to get on to compliment each other
perfectly
May 19, 2019
May 19, 2019 at 4:33 AM UTC
It was a damp kiss
of an image.
Dispassionately you drop
an old coin into my hands.
Faithless in your poem.
I adored the Venus in twilight.
Carnation. A rose pink color,
appears in your eyes.
Rising from the marshy
slush, greater flamingos
keep watch underneath, at the
army of urns.
The sameness now dithers.
You want to weave the moon
in your breast, unpreparing
to open the heart.
Jul 18, 2017
Jul 18, 2017 at 11:22 PM UTC
.......
??
( simple lovers // simple love )
••
The passionate cluster bombs
Exploding in the school building
Sweeping thru
Passionately seeking tiny bodies
For passionate fiery embrace !!
///
children
Screaming for LIFE
( mere life --
Which we passionate poets know
As
MERE EXISTENCE !
//
The passion of hate embedded
In the blast !
•
The poets leap in ******** ecstasy
And cut their wrists is solidarity and shared joy !
PASSION !
//
//
Somewhere sane people gather
Dispassionately
I go there
May 22, 2015
May 22, 2015 at 6:39 PM UTC
I am wary of these arachnoid beasts.
How foreign they seem!
They are resting now,
Curled delicately upon my lap at each folding joint,
Looming faithfully.
They cling to me, and naturally so.
Yet, we are not one entity.
They are far too elegant
To notice me, their blundering mother.
They suckle my blood dispassionately,
Yet it is painless,
A numb event.
Mar 21, 2018
Mar 21, 2018 at 12:08 PM UTC