Bloom, these flowers in my heart. From ash come hither no rot, But arms spread open-- Embrace the traces of life still within, I rise. No longer sing songs of demise. I rise for a crown that yearns as mine.
And so it is, and so I will be.
I took a long break from writing due to personal reasons. I hope to be writing more. It's been a very hard year or two for me. I feel now that I can regain my confidence and accomplish anything. As if I have finally seen some light of... "It's okay to be lost, because you will always find your way again."
So don't give up. If I can figure out what I want, so can you.
Piddling drip drops lightly on the dew drops, Never ceasing, never stops. A love that never rots. Love you now, loved you then, Thanks for being my inspiration when Nothing else takes the place of you.
If I had it my way, I’d spend my life with you.
If I had it my way, I’d marry you. But to everyone, it’s “too soon.”
Guess I’ll be a lonely sick loon. Drink away the hours in a rainy warm room.
Step out of the room and into the rain. The sky is no longer gray, But the cool drizzle washes me clean. My skin is peeled away, like a snake; Someone new, Yet Someone who is me, the one who's always been. I had abandoned her.
Addiction To what was never real. Addiction.
I can see I lied to her, myself, I can admit to my own illusions I was deluded to believe:
I Do not need you. I Cannot save you.
The truth does not make me heartless. Wash me clean and away the darkness. I am compassion. I am nurture. I can be your friend, Care from a distance while I mend,
Because I do not need you. We are not meant to be.
Now you'll have to save yourself. Now I must love me.
The thought of your kiss. How every day I miss you and your ****** **** that ****** me off and I remember I have to stop loving you so I can stop hurting so bad, but why can't I get you off my mind and just spend one ******* evening not feeling left behind? I feel like I'd, just to be with you again, die. Just to see you once I'd rearrange a sky so I could sleep soundly without having to cry myself there. Personify my optimism, turn a blind eye and satisfy my tongue-tied thoughts that just want to find some peace of ******* mind away from the "goodbye" that repeats like a broken record inside.
The quieter nights of "together," Loudly with personality Or not saying anything at all. Breathing, Natural breath In rhythm to pulsing heartbeats. Stifled laughs. You don't have to do a thing. You don't have to prove a thing. We're in the dark, We're called the "lost," But I find something in you... Find your place too, At least for the night.
Arms in knots 'round each other, feeling like bursting. A chin at the crown of my hair. You don't have to do a thing. You don't have to prove a thing. The discomfort of bone on bone I ignore. Please, hold me till I'm not lonely anymore.