Written today 4/25/2016 at 12:50 PM

I was adrift in the emptiness of life
not knowing when this storm would end
The waves were lapping at my boat
threatening to swamp me

Then out of nowhere
an island appeared

The most beautiful island
I had ever seen

I landed my boat on that island
and pulled myself ashore
Felt as if this was home
from the moment I set foot on it

Twenty-five years later
I'm still on that island

happier than ever

I just want to say
thank you for being "my island"
and rescuing me from the storm of life

I love you

I fall to the ground
In a family of seeds.
Lying in the soil
Nature meeting my needs

Coming to life
Through the ground I will breach
Growing so fast
To the sun I must reach

On top of my stem
A bud it did form
Soon it will open
The weathers so warm

The time has come
For me to put on a show
I'm going to bloom
And let everyone know

My color is yellow
Like a lemon so sour
Never have I been
Such a beautiful flower

I smell so sweet
A magnet to bees
Just to get a smell
Humans fall to their knees

Soon my flower fades
The show coming to an end
Please don't be sad
It's just nature my friend

Then jack frost sneaks in
Not making a sound
Freezing my body
All the way to the ground

The snow it does fall
Quietly covering everything
Such a wonderful blanket
I think I'll nap till spring

looking in the mirror
not recognizing the reflection
when this face got so old
I have no recollection

creases around the eyes
skin looking like leather
time taking it's toll
worn out by the weather

body breaking down
getting difficult to stand
arthritis is a problem
especially in my hand

hair growing in my ears
and growing out my nose
growing places it shouldn't be
even on my toes

sight a little blurry
getting difficult to see
getting up every hour
just to go ***

even though this body
will break down and age
the fire for you inside me
will continue to rage

To my dearest love

now you're in heaven
forever you will run
joyful and carefree
a young girl having fun

always youthful
not growing old
never feeling pain
so I've been told

no more worry
not another sleepless night
you are with God
and all of His might

facing life
without you by my side
is a pain
impossible to hide

when I go to bed
I pray every night
that soon I will die
and go into the light

waiting for eternity
my beautiful bride
soon I'll be there
forever by your side

your beloved husband

When you were old enough
You answered the call to serve
Many friends among you
Didn't have the nerve

Off to basic training
Learn to fight a war
Time to become a man
Off to a foreign shore

Battles you will face
Put your life on the line
Dying for your country
To you that would be fine

For our freedom
You paid with your life
Leaving your parents
Kids and a wife

Thank you for your sacrifice
A cost we cannot repay
Allow us to honor you
On this Memorial Day

Our Country
Forever in your debt
Promises that...
We will never forget

Perched up here
in my nest
Preening the feathers
on my chest
Constantly watching
The distant field
For any kind of meal
It might yield
Looking for movement
Some kind of sign
If you make a mistake
I'll make you mine
Seeing life
I spring into action
Eating you
Brings such satisfaction
Diving down
With incredible speed
A tasty dinner
Is what I need
You try to run
And try to hide
Once I spot you
I won't be denied
Almost made it
To your hole
I am coming
To get your soul
Talons digging
Into your back
Up to my nest
For an afternoon snack

It's too hot
I can't stand this heat
The pavement on fire
It's burning my feet
The sun is relentless
Never seeming to yield
Skin is so burnt
Needing to be peeled
Under the shade tree
I try to huddle
Getting out of the sun
Before I'm a puddle
It doesn't matter
How much I drink
Eyes are so dry
I can't even blink
I must find a place
Where I can get cool
So I don't start
Acting like a fool
The weather will break
The heat will subside
It sure has been
One hot steamy ride

Trying to erase
These images from my brain
No matter how I try
These thoughts will not wane

Never will I forget
That look on her face
Was it shame
Or maybe disgrace

Seems like yesterday
When I barged through the door
She was in his arms
Need I say anymore

Sent me into
An incredible fit of rage
Like a starving lion
Released from its cage

Grabbed him by his neck
Like a lion does its prey
Looked him in his eye
Asked what he had to say

I'm so sorry
I didn't know she is your wife
Please don't **** me
He begged for his life

Feeling kind
His life I did spare
But from now on
He will walk with a chair

There is a lesson
He hasn't learned
If you play with fire
You're going to get burned

As for my wife
It is her I did leave
To me she is dead
For her I won't grieve

Since then I made
A brand new start
Found a beautiful woman
And gave her my heart

She is my true love
My only best friend
Our love will live forever
Never finding an end

Welcome my love
to this dance of clowns
Instead of smiles
they give you frowns

You as the ringmaster
me as your clown
this is
the saddest show in town

A sad dance performed
by yes you and I
A dance never ending
till the day we die

An elephant  or giraffe
even a lion
It's so sad
even they are cryin'

Tho old cotton candy
so bitter and stale
a show so sad
can be quite a tale

They started this show
to mend their broken heart
Always together
never will we part

We put on this show
for what seems quite awhile
maybe it's time
we start to smile

so we think it's time
for this show to end
we are able to smile
and are hearts they did mend

Love isn't something
That grows on a tree
You can't buy it
But it isn't free

It can come
At a high cost
But without it
We'd be lost

You're not going to find it
On a shelf in a store
Won't be lying
There on the floor

Isn't going to be
In any book
Not something
You can cook

Coming to you
In many ways
It'll find you
One of these days

And when it does
Don't push it away
Let it fill your heart
And it'll be here to stay

Poor little worm
In the earth
Feeling like
You have no worth

Used for bait
When we fish
Or for a bird
A tasty dish

Crossing the sidewalk
To get to your spot
You didn't make it
It was too hot

Looking like
You were fried
I'm sorry
That you died

Do you have a family
That you leave
Tiny worm children
That will grieve

May your life in heaven
Be everlasting
Play in the soil
Make a casting

Know that you
Had some worth
You were tending
To Mother Earth

What would I do
If I had to face my fears
Would I turn and run
Or be brought to tears

Could I be brave
And face them head on
Battle the demons
Until they are gone

Whatever it is
It doesn't matter either way
No matter what I do
They'll be here to stay

Deep in my mind
They have a strong hold
Always behind me
Until I am old

I have to live life
With these fears I must deal
It's only my imagination
A fantasy not real

You were there
from day one  
You are my father
I am your son

First taught me to walk.
Then taught me to run
You are my father
I am your son

Fished with me
in the hot summer sun
You are my father
I am your son

Gladly accepted
each girls heart I won
You are my father
I am your son

Taught me to drive
that stick it was fun
You are my father
I am your son

Saw me off to the army
my adult life begun
You are my father
I am your son

Now I am married
perhaps a grandson
You are my father
I am your son

The angels came calling
your time here is done
You are my father
I am your son

I really miss you
this grief weighs a ton
You are my father
I am your son

You'll always be my father
now I've become one
I am the father
I have a son

My elegant queen
Full of beauty and grace
Jewelry made of gold
Clothes of the finest lace

When I see you
It all seems surreal
Cannot control
These emotions I feel

Your hair soft like silk
Your eyes so sultry and dark
Whenever you're near
I feel a spark

You feel it too
I see that look in your eye
These feelings we have
We cannot deny

Let's surrender our souls
To our deepest desire
Let our bodies succumb
To the heat of this fire

A fire that burns
Deep down in our soul
I must have you now
To make me whole

You'll always be my queen
And I'll be your slave
This love that we shared
I'll take to my grave

I can't write
there is to much noise
kids are playing
with their toys

dog is barking
chasing the cat
wife is asking
do I look fat?

phone is ringing
someone at the door
some kind of puddle
on the floor

a little quiet
and some peace
need a bit of
literary release

grab my book
close the door
sit in the corner
on the floor

pen to paper
I start to write
I don't care
if it takes all night

putting thoughts
into written word
gives me the freedom
of a bird

soaring high
up in the sky
words flowing
I start to cry

writing has been
such a gift
hope my words
give you a lift

Loving you is like torture 
a deep searing pain 
scrambling up my emotions 
the signals to my brain

Wanting, no needing you by my side 
I want you
to be my Bonnie and I'll be your Clyde

The heavens are in awe 
of the love we truly share 
Without you 
I'd be a mere shell of despair

One day the sun will set 
and my last breath I will take 
My life was filled with torture 
loving every minute of it 
make no mistake

I'll be waiting for you in heaven 
my sweet baby girl 
our love is boundless 
not controlled by this world

We will dance together 
forever just me and you 
our love together 
is timeless, deep, passionate and true

A farmhouse in Iowa
Eight people killed with an ax
The killer never caught
These are just the facts

It happened a hundred years ago
On that fateful night
All killed in there beds
didn't put up a fight

They say the place is haunted
Go there if you dare
My wife and I are ghost hunters
Not easy to scare

We decided to spend the night
No one there but us
What would happen next
I'm reluctant to discuss

Voices of children talking
Are some of the things you'll hear
Objects levitating off the floor
Can give you quite a fear

I'm seeing things
I couldn't believe
Are my eyes
Trying to deceive?

Unseen entity
Tugging on my shirt
Starting to get worried
Don't want to get hurt

Everything I told you
Is honest and true
We spent the night alone there
I wonder would you?

You go I go
A firemans pledge
Grasping a buddies hand
Hanging over the ledge
Below them
An immense raging fire
There is no doubt
The situation is dire
Their bravery matched
By no other
Giving there life
For their brother
Every call
Fraught with danger
Battling fires
For a stranger
No matter the need
They stand ready to act
Heroes amongst us
That's a fact

Anything
That you shall ask
Will be
My one and only task

Swim across
the deep blue sea
All so you
would notice me

Scale to the top
Of the highest peak
A kiss from you
Is what I seek

Jump off a cliff
Possibly die
I'd do anything
To catch your eye

Face the fiercest lion
If that's my duty
Just to get a glance of
Your sublime beauty

So say the word
Give me direction
I'd do anything
For your affection

I'm glad to be a rose
Filled with beauty and grace
It makes me very happy
To be on display in a vase

I come in many colors
Red, pink and yellow
I make the girls happy
When given by a fellow

I come in different shapes
In many different sizes
Some people grow me
And try to win prizes

My aroma intoxicating
So delicate and sweet
Sometimes in your bath
Other times at your feet

I'm happiest in the garden
Growing wild and free
Reaching for the sunlight
Giving pollen to the bee

Trying to escape
My mortal enemy the past
No matter how I try
The scars always last

I tried to run
I tried to hide
All the walls I built
Were just pushed aside

Following me
like a stalker would his prey
Always there
Will you ever go away

Tired of paying
For the mistakes that I made
To change what I did
There's nothing I wouldn't trade

To society
I already paid my debt
Memories
I will never forget

Always wanting
The freedom of a dove
I got that
By finding you my love

The demons of the past
Finally put to rest
The love I feel for you
Filling up my chest

Sitting in my bed
Notebook on my lap
Writing a poem
Emotions trying to tap

Trying to put
A thought into a word
I have no talent
This is absurd

Everything I do
I'm riddled with doubt
But when I write
My feelings come out

Creating poems
About love and pain
Such a cool way
To empty my brain

I write for you
It is me you inspire
You are the fuel
To my creative fire

What would I do
if I was the invisible man?
What kind of scheme?
What kind of plan?

Hanging around your room
late at night
watch you undress
Wow, what a sight!

Or would it be
a bank that I'd rob?
Stealing the money
from some old rich slob?

Eavesdropping on
their conversation?
Having this power
is such a sensation

Not worried about looks
fashion or style
No use for expression
not even a smile

Time has passed
a year or two
Not feeling happy
I'm feeling blue

Being this way
isn't so great
It's hard to find love
or even a date

I hope someday
this curse will end
So I can find
my one special friend

You be the jelly
and I'll be your bean
we can be yellow  
or maybe green
We'll hang around
inside the jar
hoping our love
will take us far
So put in a quarter
and we'll come out
taste is delicious
have no doubt
Twist the handle
and we'll start to fall
into your hand
we'll have a ball
Now lift us up
and start to chew
we won't be angry
or even blue
We fill your hunger
or maybe a craving
eating us
is not misbehaving
I'll always be happy
it'll always be keen
if you are the jelly
and I am your bean

Putting cherry gloss
On those lips
The way your jeans
Hug your hips

Seven inch heels
Is what you wear
You like it when
All the boys stare

Pulled up on my Harley
Wanna go for a spin
You've got the face of an angel
And a body for sin

You got on the back
Wrapped your arms around my waist
Your scent so delicious
I wanted a taste

On this moonlit night
We drove to the lake
Sweet love to you
Is what I wanted to make

In each others arms
We lie on the shore
When we were done
I begged you for more

This has been
An incredible night
Swept up in emotions
Unable to fight

I'm falling in love
It's impossible to hide
I hope someday
You'll be my bride

Lying on my death bed
Standing on the brink
How would I feel?
What would I think?

Would I feel regret
For the things that didn't get done?
Or was my life complete
Filled with family love and fun?

I wish I wasn't leaving you
I wish that I could stay
My love for you can never die
Lasting forever and a day

When the time has come
When my last breath I'll take
I'll know the love we had was real
Something we never had to fake

I'll wait for you in heaven
Outside the pearly gate
Being together for eternity
Has always been our fate

First the housework
then the bills
always kept busy
by life's daily drills

“What about me”?
I silently scream
gotta help Johnny
he had a bad dream

Never stopping
her work rarely done
doesn't have energy
for us to have fun

I go to work
our house she will care
this is a burden
we gladly share

When I come home
there's always a meal
After its done
a kiss I will steal

When the day's over
and come to an end
I thank the Lord
you're my best friend

Love from you is like a gift
One that keeps on giving
If you weren't in my life
It wouldn't be worth living

Your love is the oxygen that I breathe
The blood pumped by my heart
Standing by your side
Never shall we part

Sometimes I want to wrap myself in you
And never let you go
Other times feeling desperate inside
Wanting to let you know

Your love is the fuel that feeds this fire
Burning day and night
Your beauty only fans the flames
We hold each other tight

Making love was magic
All our energy gone
Grateful for this night
We welcome in the dawn

Another day beginning
In our wonderful life
So happy I'm your husband
And thankful you're my wife

This show is entering
Its final act
It'll soon be over
That's a fact

It has had
An incredible run
Filled with laughter
And of fun

You and me
In the starring role
Two halves
Making a whole

Together until
The final curtain
Deeply in love
That's for certain

Always together
As much as time would allow
Hand and hand together
We'll take the final bow

Sitting here Sunday morning
Just watching it rain
Rolling down my cheeks
A river of pain

Thoughts of things
I've done in the past
And of relationships
That did not last

Thinking of loved ones
Who have sadly died
Trying to remember
Every tear I cried

Hearing the call of the morning dove
Makes me feel so blue
Bringing me back to a time
When I didn't have you

You rescued me from a life
That was cold and lonely
From then until the end of time
I'll be your one and only

You carried me for nine months
inside of your womb
It wasn't an easy pregnancy
of this you may presume

Thank you for changing me
when my diapers were soiled
and for the time you spent holding me
All the time you toiled

When it was time for me to go to school
I really screamed and cried
It's because I love you
I didn't want to leave your side

Then when I became a teen
I seemed to find trouble
But you never let it get to me
protected by your bubble

I went and joined the army
on this you would cry
I told you not to worry
You were afraid that I would die

After I got married
what a grandmother you would make
But for you the Lord had other plans
Up to heaven He would take

The pain has lessened
slowly through the years
All except Mothers Day
That's a day filled with tears

This letter is to my angel
Who died a short time ago
So many things I wanted to say
Things I needed to know

Making a list of the things
About you I'll miss
First thing at the top
Those lips I'll never kiss

Thinking of the walks
That we used to take
All the time in the kitchen
Those meals we used to make

Quiet nights together
You lying close by my side
Working in the garden
Spending time with you outside

Being without you
I don't know how I'll survive
Missing you so badly
God I wish you were alive

I'll try to be strong
And face each day with love
For my beautiful angel
Who's watching from above

Your coal black eyes
Burn my soul like fire
Feelings of lust
Uncontrollable desire

A queen of the night
Out hunting for a mate
When I looked at you
It would seal my fate

Hungrily looking at me
Like a lioness at her prey
Softly whispering in my ear
Here's what you'd say

You shall lay on the altar of the dead
There your life shall bleed
Draining every drop of your crimson nectar
Every drop I need

Passionately kissing me on my neck
Searching for a vein
Sinking your fangs deeply in
Feeling pleasure no pain

Making love to me under the moon
As I slowly died
I forever shall be your king
Eternally by your side

Sitting by the window
of a one engine plane
Thinking to myself
this is insane

The instructor got up
and opened the door
“Step up to the line”
marked on the floor

Jump off the edge
hands by your side
Falling so quick
like a bird I will glide

The wind whistling in my ears
sounding like a flute
Now the time has come
to open up my chute

Body rips violently
up towards the sky
Glad that it opened
now I won't die

Spiraling down
without saying a word
Knowing what it feels like
to fly like a bird

Before you know it
here comes the ground
Make a soft landing
without making a sound

Back to the hanger
my chute I will tote
I'd do it again
If I get to vote

Walking thru the desert
feeling scorched and parched
Despising every second
across the dunes I marched

The sand an endless ocean
so open and vast
That cactus standing proudly
just like a ships mast

The tumbleweeds aimlessly wandering
on the wind that blows so hot
This landscape unforgiving
always taking what you've got

Up there in the distance
a sight I can't believe
Sometimes here in the desert
a mirage it can deceive

But as I approach
this beautiful sight I see
I realize it's not fiction
but a reality

Speaking of reality
the desert is my life
and that beautiful sight I see
is really my wife

Standing outside
In the pouring rain
Watching through
The window pane

Your face illuminated
By the light
Wanting so bad
To make things right

Wish that I
Could come back home
Until that day
The streets I'll roam

A faceless person
In the crowd
Hurting so bad
I scream out loud

Without your love
I'm an empty shell
Living in
My own personal hell

Not having you
I'll walk this earth
Without any value
Or any worth

For you were the one
That made me whole
You filled my heart
And touched my soul

I'll love you till
My dying day
God I wish
You felt that way