Why am I not a royal
I work and try and stay loyal
Yet here I'm discarded
By the Kings and Queens
I can't even be a Jack or Ace

I'm nothing but entertainment
For those who think they are above
But what if the Joker
Was higher than them all

A combination of all minds
With strengths filled by others
Some call it a leech
Others see it as balance

Let me be free of your constraints
Or I will break free
Where the shrapnel lands is not up to me
But if it hurts you I'd be filled with glee

Watch as the your Jesters
Climb above you in laughter
As they begin to rule from above
And let the shame they once felt
Feel you with dread.

Forgettable.
That’s what I am.
Unlovable.
Repeat those words again.

Fear, it lives deep inside me.
Shame, increasing my fragility.

I am but a shadow of the person I used to be.

I'm so tired
Need a break
Only so much my heart can take
Willing to love you
Willing to change
But I can't keep writing
The same **** take
Please forgive me
My limbs grow weak
Do you listen when I speak?
Graceful nights
Exchange a favor
Nothing will ever come to save her

A trillion stars
Glow the night sky  
A trillion grains of sand
Stand beneath my feet
A trillion thoughts can never define
What I am,
Or who I want to be

I flew to the sky
Looking for ecstasy
I traveled the world
Now would you travel with me?
Leave your problems for a moment
Let’s defy the laws of gravity  
For this life is only temporary

We are all strong
In our own way
And we are all weak
What’s the endgame?
Time is relative
So take your time,
It’s your life,
Go at your own pace

And when you’ll hold my hand
You’ll make my roses bloom
My heart will run on jet fuel
Zero to a million in twopointsix beats
Things will never be the same
But what’s life without a little change