Your the one who lights up my sky
Your the one who I want as my only guy!!!
Your love is all I desire and what I yearn for....
Not some other who will probably be some bore!!!
Your the one who makes my knees quake...
Being with you , makes my soul ache !!!!
Reason being ....I want you all of the time!!!
I need you back in my life....
Then life will be fine!!!

I don't think I want to meet him...
im only going to compare him to you and we both know ....
he WONT win...
So I doubt this weekend will be any fun like all of them before...
unless I get  really ***** and need  to have some and then not  talk to him anymore.....

but I don't think I will *** I only want you...
so please come talk to me so I know what I should do....

laughing laughing i love u laughing
         i’m scared of loving u
                          just joking. u’r scared
                                    i hope u understand
                                         love u
                                                   u
                                             just u wait
                                                      u’ll see
                                                        u fell into her arms
                                                          u’­ll fall into mine
                                     haha i’ll ask u out
                                                     just u wait
                                                            ­  u’r sweet
                                            have i told u that before? ;)
               how many times have i told u?
                                                  i’ll guess u’d say ‘lots’
                                                          ­          u need to loosen up.
                                       just joking. i like u
                                                                      u’r ******* gorgeous
                                        did i forget to tell u?
                                                              ­ well. u are
                                                   sorry. it’s all u’r fault
                                                           ­                u’r not pardoned
                                                      ki­dding yes u are
                                                             ­                u’r sweet
                                                           ­        (yeah u are)
                                                              sorry. it's ur fault i have butterflies
                                              in conclusion: i like u
                                                               ­       (sorry. u can’t avoid me)
                                                             ­             i like u, and
                                                         there’s nothing u can do about it
                           hahaha.
                                                         ­                   laughing laughing laughing.

I wanted to have forever and share it with only you!!!

I wanted us to have happily ever after and I thought you did too...

We used to come up with ideas about things like the perfect 1st date.... Id think of the idea and set the scene and youd tell the rest of the story and make the ending beyond great!!!

That's what got me to really have a deep desire to at the very least be able to meet you.....
with your way with words...you put a spell on my but im sure you intended to....

I looked forward to our very long talks that we had at least once a day... you made me smile and it made me a lot happier then how I was living day to day!!!

I really loved spending time online that summer each day with you....
I just never thought in my wildest dreams that I would ever meet you...

The stories wed make up and you always ended them so very sweet... got me all ga-ga over you and the flames for that love has yet to loose its heat...

I really wish we could see each other for just one more day.....
to be able to talk and say the things we never had got to say.....

I just wish so very much that maybe someday down the line.....
again I will be able to feel your touch.....
*** in my heart your always going to be mine.

He is so very smart for such a young man.....
Always saying a kind word to me whenever he can..
Always a sweet text almost each day when I awake....
Reminds me of the things you did for me.....I wonder if it was real or just REAL FAKE!!!
I enjoy talking to him cuz I am always alone.....
Wanting you back but you you erased my number from your phone.
He can't replace you not that he tries.......
He just enjoys talking to me and in silence my heart silently cries.

In two weeks it'll be 4yrs...thinking about that makes my eyes bleed tears....
If I could only get you to understand and really see....that the person I was before wasn't the real me...
As I said it before and I swear it to be true... that I jjust  thought you were some random guy who was cheating on his girl like a lot of men do.,,

If youd said the facts of what now are known to be.... then you would have gotten the real and true person of which I want you to see.....
I never knew that you were YOU....
So I didn't think of it as anything meant to be and I for sure didn't think that you wanted any of the love I may have had for thee....

If id known that you were YOU....I would have been real....honest, loving, and so very true.....
I even told you that I had love in my heart but my true love was the one who held the key...
little did I know that you were HE!!

I knew back then 4 yrs ago that I loved you with passion, unconditional and that our love would only beautifully grow.

As for now I just cant let you go...and deep down I think you feel the same but for what ever reason are in fear to let it show...

There is something deep within you and me.....
We've searched for a life time or so it seems to me
But I truly feel that deep in my heart we are meant to be..
Please stop fighting what destined to be and let your love flow free.

I did love you but didn't see it for being very real...and surely I didn't think you cared for the way I really feel...
I just thought you wanted your cake and to eat it too....
like so many men these day always do..

If you'd been straight up with me we could have have loved above the realms of reality...
I need the chance so you can see the actual person I have grown to be...
I need this to happen and for it to take place *** my heart wants no other and no other can ever take your place.
You cant even compare you to any other.....
I only want you as my one and only lover..

I don't want , hope or nor will I pray....this  I need and my heart and soul know that there is no other way..

To heal or repair my mind In any way/..... I need this to happen and after that let the chips fall where they may...

Im not asking but its more of do or die......I need to prove to you that I want you as my guy...

I want to love you with all of my heart
and it would have been that way if id known all the facts from the very start...

We both did things that could have done right..... but that doesn't matter know...
I just want to hold you when I sleep each night...

I want to love you like no other has ever done.....
and every day show you why I love you and why your my #1

Cant you see how very special you are to me?
It wasn't fair how it all went down before....
and I want to start over and love you forever more..

There has to be a reason for why I feel this way.....
and if after we meet if you don't want me then I will sadly walk away...
then never again will you see or read a word from me....but if you hate me so much isn't that how ud like it to be???

So can you please grant me this one last wish ...
so we can either let it grow or put an end to all this...

So YEA....in 2 weeks = 4 yrs ,
again thinking about it makes my eyes well with tears.

face to face we always got along~
it was always my over thinking that made everything wrong!

I promise when apart to not sit and dwell~
id just be grateful to be able to talk and touch you since in love with you I seem to have fell~!!!!!!

I know I'm not very pretty or overly smart

But I truly do love you

And I mean that from the bottom of my heart.

How do u let go when they are the one person you've been looking for ur whole life?

I want to write a poem for you
But I don't know how
I don't know how to put it into words
The hatred or love I feel
The confusion or pure clarity I feel
The
I feel
I feel everything and nothing all at once
I want to write a poem for you
But I don't know how