Ich bin nicht mehr,
Nicht mehr die Person die du kanntest.
Und nicht mehr, als diejenige die ich einmal war.
Denn als du gegangen bist,
Gehen wolltest.

Warst du nicht alleine,
Du hast ein Stück,
Ein Stück von mir,
mitgenommen.

Weggetragen.
Fort. Aus und vorbei.

Und das kommt nie wieder zurück,
Nie wieder zurück.
Zu mir.

I wanted to speak myself,
But why can't I?

The Hurting, - they say some things are worst than death and this is one of them.

Sometimes, in instances of grueling
                                 pain
I think
of being
with the                 clouds

you made
that decision
&
you’d have
no idea
How much it
hurts.. where
Was your              judgement
*** this hurts
More than anything.
&
I’m sorry, you had to
go that way.
The clouds lament
your passing on
clear, sunny days.
They overshadow the
very demon you
tried to escape from.
&                                  
I’ve made a promise
To live for you.
To show you
that it didn’t have
To be this way.

You’re gone forever.
Lost within the fabrics of time
I’ll carry you as a lantern -
inside of me
till the end of the days.

&
I hope you finally can rest.
For once.
                                          
                                     Goodbye
                                      Forever
                                      Bao Bao
We miss you already.

Bao Bao - 2000-2018