Beyond heart broken, and time remains frozen
Hanging off an intangible edge, holding on
To what feels like emptiness, I’ve lost it
Me, myself and my eroding shield of skin
Is wearing thin, along with my hope
Wearing paper thin, i’m transparent like a ghost
Feels like only my being remains
Since my guts fell outside my body a while ago
Falling, and I’m still watching them fall endlessly,
**** this because I still feel it, it’s never ending pit of pain
My heart has collapsed within itself
Yet has preserved hers to make me remember
Every moment she told me she loved me
Scarred within my pupils, when I looked into hers
I almost want to forget, how real it was in the moment
So I could never tell myself it must’ve been a lie
All along, I guess I could say I felt it somewhat
Denial is dangerous, so keep a second opinion handy

You say I smile to often
You say I don't know pain
Well, friend, if you knew my night time dreams
You wouldn't say it again

They say that us smilers are silly
That life is simply the loss and gain
But they don't know our secret
They think it's all trained

Here is the smilers secret
We walk through the dark tunnels of life just like you
But when you turn from the light at the end of the tunnel
We walk until the light is our point of view

And we never get tired of the light on our face
We never return to the dark
For who would want to walk in that tunnel
When you've seen the light of His heart?

I think that's part of your problem
You're afraid of what you don't know
I think that you've only known darkness
And that's all you think you can sow

Yes darkness still follows me sometimes
It's just a part of this life
But you chose to let light or dark lead you
Through the tunnels of strife

But please, don't follow the tunnel's dark paths
And next time the light shines in your eyes
Remember it's not pointing out your pain
It's helping you see past the lies

So walk through the light at your tunnel
And if you are able to
Remember to take some of that light
And take it to others, like I've done for you

I am the her that is his muse
I am the her that makes him shine
I am the her that called to him
And caused the stars to realign

I am the her that is his breath
I am the her that is his smile
I am the her that made him see
Joy is not synonymous with guile

I am the her that fills his heart
I am the her that gives him life
I am the her that takes away
His suffering and strife

I am the her behind his words
I am the her that sees the man
I am the her that shows him how
The power of love is in our hands

Being confined,
Limited,
Strained,
Contained
By the few words
I need to say
It's exhausting,
Frustrating,
Chaotic,
In the inner workings
Of my brain
Why is it so
Impossible,
Improbable,
Imperative
That I say these words
In such a way
That I won't
Discard,
Disarm,
Discord
You

Essentially,
I am afraid.

I'm living in a
Static state-of-mind.
You're the antagonist
In this story
That has become
My strife.