He asked me, once:
"Would you die for me?"

I looked up at him, a smirk forming at my lips.

I slowly ashed my cigarette,
as if I was thinking of a suitable answer,
one that proclaimed my undying affection.

As I caught his eye, I said:
"Well, frankly love, I wouldn't even **** for you."

This is where my journey begins. Where my life starts because the life I live now will define who I am. The scars in the past will never mean anything if I don't become something greater... If I don't become a fighter. If this was the end for me then I want to go in peace, content with the life I lived because it was better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all. I'm a girl who doesn't mind being alone, sometimes I crave it. I like curling up on the couch with a book, its away to be who I want and forget the world. I love having a good adventure and exploring. I have traveled the world and one day hope to do it again. Life is a beautiful thing when you make it out to be. I just hope my last breath is a sigh of relief.

collarbone pressed to the windowpane,
the green hills roll down your house,
trickle down into the water and sift
into sand, stretch out the coast

across that ocean, i am waiting,
i lift my foot off the ground and twirl,
body pointed like a weather-vane
metallic and rusting to you

when i see you our mouths will fuse
and i'll paint you concrete like the city
and your eyes will be revolving doors
that adults get stuck in to twirl

I've always been slightly frail,
A little doltish as well
If I must say!

Reckless and careless,
I stumble;
on my feet not ready to support myself.

Going in a trance,
An ugly yet beautiful trance.

What am I to do?
If gravity pulls me
towards him.

Again and again,
Why?
I keep making the same mistake.

Falling for someone so recalcitrant,
So demanding
and absurd.

Now that he has left,
I feel;
different.
Not at ease though
But,
just different.

Wondering to myself,
An appropriate word for it.

Oh yes !
I know now
What it is.
Regretful !

stare up at the sky
like theres some place
youd rather be

"why isn't it enough to be here
with just me"

look down because its plain to see
that i love a little too much
but today i am not me

lost in the bar crowd
look for the bathroom
sound of the bar band
look around the room

ex girl is sitting there
i think its understood

I wish you were mine,
Your beauty is divine.
Your personality brightly shines.
Your overall is just so fine.

I just look at the sky, wonder why.
No matter how much I try, You'd probably deny.
I'd always do something awry, You'd just decry.
I wouldn't wanna be shy, but you make me wanna cry.
Even when the tears are dry. I'm not the one you'd rely.
Well, I'm not the tough guy,
***** the retry,
F*ck those other guys,
I don't need a reply.
I don't need a goodbye.
I'll just go die.

I just ran a red light and I thought of you. but you always liked green lights better didn't you? you were always go go go. you never wanted to stop always on the move. do you remember when I needed to stop and I just needed a break? do you remember when you kept going, dragging me alone behind you. I remember vividly you taking me along for the ride. but I remember crystal clear when you didn't yield for me. you had to go you said, life doesn't stop for anyone. just like I didn't stop at the red light but I did stop when the other car hit me. I stopped when you left me all alone. it hurts and i miss you. I just needed a break I just needed time to think time to slow down and come to a complete stop. I tried to be like you and never stop but sometimes life is just too much and sometimes you run red lights because your mind is full of a boy who didn't stop long enough to love you back. but you always liked green lights better.

My hair is an untameable wave that cascades
down my back and is an even flowing river that drapes
onto my shoulder blades and biceps.

As I sit in the swivel chair waiting for the scissors to
shear off the last dead ends, I think of you.
With these ends, you'll be disappearing, too.

You haven't touched me in over two years, now.
As wisps of hair drop off onto the tile below my feet,
I can be rest assured that a new beginning has dawned.

you hurt me everyday and yet i'm supposed to forgive?