Let it be prismatic,
Make it enigmatic,
You can even let it be exotic,
Avoid allowing it to be toxic,
Don't be like an alcoholic,
And don't let it turn melancholic,
For god's sake make it romantic
But make it happen.

Let it be prismatic,
Make it enigmatic,
You can even let it be exotic,
Avoid allowing it to be toxic,
Don't be like an alcoholic,
And don't let it turn melancholic,
For god's sake make it romantic
But make it happen.

A split second can change everything
A sudden kiss
A pull of the trigger
A simple step

Can change your entire life
Whether it’s a good or bad second is up to you

A hour of conversation can change you
Secrets and Confessions
Experiences and Arguments
Taking the time  to understand

It can change your perspective
It can change your actions

What you make of it
How you see it
How you respond
Is up to you

Just make sure it’s a good one.

I know you've been calling,
for a long time
but the sunshine never came,
the rain just poured in

I am clawing at my brain,
feeling like there's demons in there
gnawing
that I can't escape,
I need your help, to take them away

Your words have the magic, that I lack in
'cause the darks, back again
and I'm captive to it,
like a kidnapper, with a ransom note,
that nobody pays

The pain hits me, I get on my knees
and pray
hoping tomorrow, will be a better day
It's gotta be, 'cause I can't cope with this
it's clouded black and I'm surrounded
lost in a fog of, madness
swept away in a sea of, sadness

I don't know what's gonna happen
to me,
my soul is torn in tatters,
like fabrics worn out, coming apart at the seams
gotta fix myself back together and follow my dreams
'fore it's too late,
my fate awaits to be seen

It seems the latter option, is for me to give in, easily
so I'll go for the former
and go for, and control my destiny
don't underestimate me
I shall restore, the aspect of respect, successfully

and what's more, everything that was stripped from me,
ripped from me, had a grip of me
but not anymore,
I had an epiphany
I awoke from the chokehold that restricted me

Chest is rested, I feel blessed with a
second chance to be connected,
resurrected and reject the negative
influences,
I'm through with it
I won't accept it
they don't expect it, my voice to
raise so they can hear it,
'cause for years I feared it

Now I gotta push through that one
last strand, I hang onto, of hope
to
hope I can pull myself up this rope and clear it
land on my feet and pursue this feeling
I'm reeling the strength, I need to
complete the road that's ahead
'cause, now I see it so clearly

To think, I nearly wrote myself off
when I crashed, then I wouldn't be here to know
I'd get past that fast and come to grow,
all these things, I didn't know, before

They gave me power, so I could show myself,
I owe myself, to not let go
go full blast, show them *******
what I'm capable of
and keep 'em on their toes

You sold me a false dream. You told me that I could make it home after I graduated. High school. College. I’m still ******* here. I told you that I was a failure, I failed at achieving my dream of finally escaping hell. Everyone else got their form of happiness. My turn will never arrive.
You told me that the future would be a happy time, but when I thought of the future ten years ago, I didn't think I would still feel like this.
You told me that people loved me, but they never showed it. No one put in as much effort into the relationship as I did. It was always me who responded first, initiated the conversation, sent reminders that hey, I guess we’re still friends, even though you don't act like it.
You forgot that I did not work well with the routine of muttering in my head, “I’m fine, just relax and breathe.” You told me that I needed to make the most of where I was, which was like forcing a fish to live on land and expecting them to breathe.
You told me that I moved on, and then I didn't, and then I did. Quit playing games.
You told me that it was okay to tell that guy extremely intimate details, but I ended up disappointed.
You told me to assume that someone I loved would be just as willing to love me fiercely in return. You told me that someone special will come along. Where are they?
You told me that I have to make everyone in my family happy, but everyone has different expectations and I’m struggling to fulfill one person’s wishes without upsetting the other.
You told me I need to go out more, accept invitations to attend some concert in Dallas, or hang out at her house for New Year’s Eve. I hate going out.
You told me to pretend that I was in a cliché high school movie at a party and try to flirt with a guy. He didn't like me. He was more interested in my brother.
You told me that no one cared how badly I presented my speech in my last Spanish class, but I felt everyone’s pity cutting into my mouth.
You told me that my soul is the one thing I can’t compromise, but it’s already shattered into irreparable fragments.
You told me that people would admire the way I loved sunsets, the lights on the streets after dark, the small things. No one has told me that they noticed my habits.

I placed myself back into my body and walked away from the mirror.

He brought out the worst in me
Cruel actions and words his weapons
Ones he kept well oiled for use
Every syllable spoken in perfection
Hitting the bullseye of my patience
Bursting out a fury I long kept hidden
With a marksmen’s skills he teased out
Anger overcrowding my being like rain clouds
Bringing heavy showers of unrealistic vows
A wild gust of cruel decisions sweeping sanity away
He welcomed this flood with manic laughter

He brought out the worst in me
But
I still loved his soul
Though how cruel and selfish it truly was
Blinded by ancient kind actions
I skipped over the puddles of each storm
Hopping towards our reconciliation island
Hoping always for the sun to break out
Foolishly falling for the momentary calm
Putting the rest the rage and reality
Losing my fingers in the cords of us
Reattaching the damaged strings of trust
Dreaming of an ideality…..Us
But the truth broke in easily

In the finality of us
All that remained was nothing
An infinite of emptiness to run away from
Before it’s long tentacles pulled me in
Grief slithering into my heart
Taking full control of a shattered soul
A breathing living body
Now turned into a shell of nothingness
With sharp fingers I cut out the dead
Letting the ****** mess taint me
Until I let go with a sigh

Dusting away my disappointment
I got up
And walked away

Lonely and only the left eye cries
For a past the “right” never knew.
I notice this itch mostly when it rains
Come the dogs that remain silent.
Being the ******* I am,
I welcome it, as somewhere
Not too far ago, I’d dropped a tear,
The last, I’d thought, but maybe,
Just maybe, it’d only been the

First.

The First –

To ***** miasma upon this once
****** dream, static to this once
Working TV, surreal to this forever
Overcast; Perchance and to breath,
To know, to understand, to kiss
“No tomorrow,” a gift only she’d offer.
It’s when the “left” drips parallel,
That I’ve now known life, death,
And how it can it end, mend and trend

A’second.

The Second –

And oh how eternity could endure.

Please let it endure.

Playing this Game has now become my aim

All while hoping that she feels the same

Guess what? We're in a class together

Today just happened and I believe it will only get better

You never fail to surprise me, entice me, excite me

And from that shyness you're suddenly all noisy

I the canvas and you the book

I happen to melt when you give me that look

I tried to make you laugh to get you to fall

Laugh you did but it was I who got struck by love's fly ball

The chemistry between us is perfect

It's a symphony of Yin and Yang

These are feelings I cannot reject

Especially when I hear your name, **a *ng