She's someone you love
And someone you've hurt
No matter what you did
How far you've fallen
How distant you've become

She'll open her arms wide
Welcome you to her embrace
Give you rest after all the pain
She'll give you another chance
And she'll say
"No matter what, my son,
I'll still love you."

What do you do when you miss someone you’re not supposed to miss?
When the feeling often suffocates you and stirs up your insides,
When your conscience seems to be blindfolded by the undying need of a second chance
When the flashes of memories came back all at once,
as you find yourself so eager to reach them

Although you know deep in your heart
that he’s not coming back,
not even a thought of it
ever crossed his mind,
in his vast, busy life,
and in no way affected by your absence

You are fully aware
that he broke you.
He’s the faulty one.
But you also realize that
deep inside,
you would wholeheartedly give him
a second chance,
wrapped in a heart shaped box,
with knotted bows,
and a message,
an ode,
for him to come back
in your arms.

— t.a.
12/31/17, 1:58am

Time to forget the pain,
Forget the failure.
Teardrops of rain,
Poison of no cure.

Hold my hand,
I’ll hold your heart.
Nowhere to land,
No reason to part.

Screaming out reasons,
For you heart to exist.
Left here with treason,
Absent of smiles, of wit.

Endless bleeding,
Never give into leaving.
Staying to the end,
Even if it means death,

But every last breath,
I have never regretted.
Loved every second,
Even if they’re dreaded.

I can hide,
For only so long.
Spitting out lies,
Denying my call.

Yearning to stay,
Hoping for a chance,
Love may never reign,
Forever hard sand.

Time to end,
These seconds of silence,
I’ll never forget,
The continuing fight and,

Problems that seemed to last ages.
They were worth all the people and faces,
That carried me through and gave me dreams,
Letting my live them and just be me.

FIRST,
believe you are deserving to move free from
self-judgments, fears, and lack.

SECOND,
go into heart a place where wisdom and love lives
so you may hear its grand song.

THIRD,
don’t care what others say
they are blind and only there to remind you
to realign in your greatness.

FORTH,
live the truth....
You are perfection wrapped in a body.