As I write this poem,
I feel pain at all.
As I type the sorrows of odds,
Internal locust is on call.

As I close my eyes
Dark past haunts me the most
As the time goes by
My heart trembles, not fall.

Tomorrow might be another day
But I will choose to stay away.

I woke up late
And try to wake
the happy state
of my inner sane
But, as I move along the way
I felt that there is no other play
that I can raise
the happy state
because as I intake the meds
and remove the shelf of craze
I can see myself
lost in space.

That the happy state
was no longer my pace.

I already taste
the bitterness phase
of you leaving my maze

Stars beneath the trees we see.
As we drink the last bottle of beers
And I got sober because of this.
Then the truth set me free

Drunk and inlove to you is my theme
And when I told you how I feel
You laughed and smiled about it
And answered in a manner I can't remember.

Then we head home drunk and sober
While I was driving , you're leaving marks on my body
Then we reached home.
Love was filling the air.

The last thing I remember,
Was when you told me how you feel
For almost a year you kept for real
And that moment I don't know here

For 4 years of waiting and 3 times of rejected wee wee.
For the 4th time, she said yes to be with me.

And that is the best decision that kept me for years

Have you ever experienced
Having your motorcycle towed?
Have your ldruver’s license ground?
Have your work jammed ?
Have yourself broke till ******?

It is today,
It is where you relay
Your rant to your mom
About how life did dumb?

Yet, as you finish your day
You eventually take your meds
You eventually took the bus
You eventually realise how rush

Thus, as the bus ran it’s day
As your destination gets closer
You felt the need
To go home and get some beer
To feel the sense
Of belonging
And sense
Of living

I took the last pill
reserve for this wonderful evening
until I can only feel
the stabilization that heal

as I stare upon the ceiling
I did recall the rhythm
of the hymn that you are singing
before you left me hanging

after you have left me,
I kept on finding
what love is really hiding
yet, I failed to kept on riding

Past keeps on winding
until an idea rewind it
everything I taught was eliminated
because of something that made me haunted

For all the things that I've done
For all the dreams that I have run
For all that I am for now
Because all along, it was only you.

for all this time I thought it was because I love you
But, it is all because I did all along.

so long, my tiger