Please do not tell me
You love me
Because that scares me so much more
Than loving you
Ever could

I want someone to look deeper
Than the surface
To see what i really feel
To look at my eyes
Instead of my smile.
Because about six times out of ten
That smile is fake.

When you look at me, the first thing you notice will be my smile.
Bright and gleaming, and a little lopsided.
But if you look past that
You will see the hurt in my eyes.
The hurt in my eyes
That means my family has been fighting again.
The hurt in my eyes
That means i've been yelled at again.
The hurt in my eyes
That means i've hurt myself again.
The hurt in my eyes
That means i know i'm not enough.
The hurt in my eyes
That appears almost every day.

But usually
My smile works too well.
I need someone
To look at my eyes.
Because it is my eyes
And not my face
That show my true emotions.

I was never good enough for you,
why do I keep trying to prove something,
you are not even searching for.

I want to lower myself onto you
Onto your tongue

I want to watch while you reach for me

I grab your hair
Feel
Feel
Feel me

I want to move with you
Unit I forget

Rise and fall
I try to stay quiet
But I don't care too much

Look at me
Not in my eyes
Watch when I take you
Watch my eyes roll
Watch my hips move

Kiss me
Kiss me please
Kiss my lips my chin my neck my chest my nips my
Please

So much aggression
And oppression
*** Bay Ya
Or Hell Nah

Straws and Pseudoscientists
          look into spoon  |/|\|/|\|/|\|/|\|/
           hypnotization
          ~take the straw~
religious regard as Lord of the Lard
hole in the Ozone
messed up chromosome
the Earth is flat
flat as my ***

I don't want to live anymore.
I don't want to hurt anymore.
I don't want to waste anymore.
I don't want to cry anymore.
I don't want to think anymore.
I don't want to smell anymore.
I don't want to see anymore.
I don't want to talk anymore.
I don't want to love anymore.
I don't want to care anymore.
I don't want any of it, I want it all to end.
Like a flash in the pan.
The light blinding me then fading into nothing.
Nothing would matter at the moment I die.
It would be the calmness of a thousand night skies.
It would be the love of a million star lights.
It would be the kindness of a thousand moms.
It would be a moment... the one true moment of bliss.
Then it would end.
Just like a rollercoaster,
It is sad but you know you are ok.
The stars will shine brighter at night.
My heart would feel calm and light.
I can't do it anymore,
not in this world.
Nothing can fix me, I'm broken beyond repair.
I need to be replaced but first I must trade in my broken piece.

I am sorry for being like this
Wish greatly I was not
Feeling unhappy constantly
I'm aware I ask a lot

Do not have a clue why I get jealous
It's evident you love just me
Eaten alive regardless
By invincible insecurity

You reassure me nobody else
Could possibly own your heart
Maybe, but if so how come
You smile more when we're apart?

The respect you had for me
Has diminished with attraction
Used to give me your whole focus
Now I get a fraction

I don't deserve your valuable time
The privilege of being the only one
Held in your arms every night
I'm begging you

Please don't run