Note: From a real nightmare End Note

I am in a room
Watching people all around me

Change into hideous creatures
Monsters from the deepest depths of hell

The Chief of them all
Wears a Trumpian mask

Completed with orange hair
Half human half pig

His deputy
Wears the face of Putin

But his body
Half human, half horse

The other creatures wear masks
Many of them wear
Green Pepe the alt right
Symbolic frog masks

And have T shirts
Bearing alt right slogans
And **** symbols

And as they prance about
They chant alt. Right slogans
And neo **** chants
Jews with Not Replace us

And the rest of these creatures
Are hideous ugly beasts
With only a vestige of humanity left

And these monsters are engaged
In all sorts of foul evil deeds

****** violence death
All around


And none-stop
violent drug fueled ******
As these creatures

Half human half monsters
Half male, half female creatures

Snort coke, *******, speed
Smoke **** and drink ***** shots
Scotch, bourbon and beer

The Trumpian Pig leads the charge
Starts engaging in ****** with Putin
Who chases after people
Cutting off their heads with his sword

They turn on to their fellow creatures
****** and ******* each other
All night long

Then they attack me
Screaming
Jews will not replace us

And I wake up
Screaming

As the sun comes up
Just another nightmare

The members
Renounce in peace
The idols are there
Still staring
In silence

Monsters beware
We are now
Violent

Sometimes i know how to feel alone,
and i have a king a fear that don't leave me.
I've searching alot for a place inside my lit soul for my demons can't find me,
People said the same "That is just a season" but i always keep hoping for better days,
I lying to everyone when i said i was fine bc i feel alot of pain and loneliness sometimes that i never cannot describe.
I know how i feel when i feel alone,
The voices inside my head is not always my own.
I'm broken, i'm sad; where I'll end up .. I don't know, but maybe this change.
I look to the sky and close my eyes and realize that life is exactly this sometimes,
So im holding on to hope and turn this page cuz i know i'll find some peace on this dark place.
Please tell me tomorrow this will end.. tell me that is just a season and i'll feel ok.
cuz life is life...

Under my bed
deep in my head
they only seem to want me dead
they want to see my blood run red
nothing to protect me
when i finally see
the only real monster is what i see in the mirror
and there is no way to protect those i hold dear
my soul burns with an angry black flame
it wants to point and blame
but i am done playing that game
those shadows aren't the real thing
cause the only real monster is me
and its never been more clear to see

monsters have shoved their claws into my ambitions
you have turned my body into butter
unsalted, not the good kind
my arm reminds me of a tree carved my young men,
hungry to be remembered and to leave an ugly mark
dripping like sap

i feel like Jenny
“dear god, make me a bird, so i can fly far, far away from here”
because i am ******* sick and tired to being forced to look forward to telling my excruciating narrative,
like pulling my nails from my nail beds
and remember, it is my ******* story,
not yours,
it will never be yours

i am not your final girl
i am not even your girl
and i hate to break it to you,
but i never will be

i am the daughter of Khaleesi, and Aaliyah, and Beyoncé,
women who have walked through fire and have come out the other side, unscathed,
women who continue to take no **** form anybody

the world is a *****,
but over realized,
so am i,
yet more than anything,
i have been the cattiest ***** to myself for years ,
and i’ve finally decided,
i am ******* fed up with taking my own abuse

i'm more afraid
of the darkness in my head
than
of those switched-off lights.