12
It was a simple number that meant something to you
And I admired that
You memorized it and it was yours everyday
May 12
You didn't text
You didn't call
You knew
You had to know it was part of our everyday routine
The one person I wanted a birthday wish from
I constantly checked my phone
And I was constantly let down
It hurt me even though I'm the reason we ended
A simple happy birthday

Forgotten?
Is what I'll be tomorrow
A faded memory in the back of your mind
A distant echo in your dreams
Too far away
Never here to stay
We knew it from the start
Every second passed is a missed opportunity
The things we never did
An never dared to say
We missed our window
We missed our chance
The door was wide open
But I let you in
Gave you the world
Made you my world
And you let me go.

Whenever I cry, a part of me rejoices;
A fragment which knows that to feel,
Keeps me grounded, makes things real,
And loves all my inner voices.

When I cry it is openly and proudly,
Though not in search for sympathy,
Or in hopes someone will comfort me,
And certainly never loudly.

When I cry it is for me, and me alone,
I have lost the gift of weeping once before,
And- having missed it- know that there is more,
To grieve once it has gone.

When you were a form upon the image of
my reflections, I never looked into the mirror
seeing what was fading within the moments of
your fluttering wings silent in the breeze/

I held that last moment like a breath never
wanting to expel the words of what were
needed. I could not sew then on a memory,
as they were already fraying on the sides.

She was but a sunrise a beauty that would
have shined upon you, lighting up those
precious  moments before you were like
a sunset never to rise again.

                                      She misses you mum.  
                                             Nanny she knows your gone...

I didn’t know
When you would show
Your smiling face to me.

Time went on
Now you're gone,
I should’ve shone my smile on thee.

You’ll never know
How far we’d go
And now we’ll never see.

Why did I wait
Loneliness is poor bait
So much relies on timing.

I miss your morning kisses
And how you look pretty with your bed hair
I miss our morning coffees
And how you smile at me as you lay here

I miss your cooking — 'twas so heart warming
And whenever you're in the bathroom singing
I miss how you sound groggy in the morning
And how you sleep like a baby during evening

I miss those plump lips on mine
And when our fingers intertwine
I miss your cute little whinings
And those fun sleep talkings

I miss how your heart sounds
And how my heart just pounds
I miss how we mess around for hours
And those childish mini wars of ours

I too miss the kind of comfort you brought me
And those small out-of-this-world talks in glee
I miss everything really
I just misses you badly

I miss you here with me
I miss us together truly
I love you ever so deeply
I love the idea of you and me

So come home to me quickly
Cos I'll be here waiting for you happily
For this heart wants you only
And it'll be ****** if you're far away.