How I learned to deal with bullies:

Let them have their laugh.

Then laugh about the stupid things they say and do later because you got screenshots of all that **** for the cops. xD

I have never been one to not feel every emotion that came my way
And when I feel  I don't just cry and move on
I ache
My chest fills up with an empty air
that makes it hurt of being filled
The weight of my lungs are enough to drag me under ground
My heart is rocks dropping one by one into my stomach
My organs hit my feet and I look down and see them
I'm feeling too much to pick them up

My eyes are burning and foggy even though my thoughts and confusion are clear
My arms and legs are lead attached to my torso that can't move but wipe the tears and sweat of feeling from my face

When I feel
it's not only a sadness but the heaviest blow to the stomach
a punch that won't heal too easily

My feelings are bruises that are blue and black, thick and deep, and they aren't forgiving like I am

I will forgive and move on,
but my feelings...
not so much

It's okay,
I laugh at me, too.

Bang! Bang! Bang!
He hits the ground with a thud
the children laugh at his grief
They don't know the horrors he has seen
Blood, gun powder and destruction.
Where did the peace of silence go?
When did we start laughing at a warrior
Maybe when they started to-
Bang!

Im laughing
when you say that your hair is a mess
Im laughing
when you say you never look your best

Why am i laughing you ask as anger fills your chest?

Im laughing because i see the unique spirit behind your eyes
im laughing because to your own beauty you seem to be blind
Im laughing because you're so **** beautiful, both inside and out

I find it funny that you think your so plain, because that isnt by any stretch of the imagination true, without a doubt

the world carries on outside my apartment
fighting
drinking
laughing
sleeping
a girl finds a flower
a man drives to work
a woman eats some green beans
a soldier wonders why he signed up
for this
a fat law maker *******
and me
I sit
and think
sometimes, cry
don't know what else to do
summer breathes hot air down my neck
and somewhere a baby is born
it is cold there
and her father is dead

Sometimes i laugh at the response of something overwhelming me
I kind of like it at times
It's quite a high that doesn't damage me

I scream it in my mind so loud,
I whisper it under my breath;
I hold it in with all my strength,
I feel it clawing me to death;
I feel it all: the sadness burns,
The happiness swells, frustration
Tears at my insides, while bliss floats
Above me with hesitation.
Curiosity consumes me
And then is swallowed by my fears
While I wish to surrender but
The simple thought brings me to tears.
It's a broken soul within me
Standing in the rain just laughing
At this madhouse where there is not
Much solace in just anything.

Jackie come sit with me
I have been waiting so long.
Come hold hands with me
Then I’ll know nothing is wrong.
I will try to do better this time.
Jackie please try not to be
Seethingly angry and snippy;
Completely ******* at me.

I know I should have thought
Before I laughed loud like I did.
Now I wish I had closed my mouth
And had gone someplace and hid.
But, can’t you see that sometimes
Not laughing is quite a hurdle?
Especially the way you look when
You wiggle into your old girdle.

I’ve told you many times before
I prefer your body without one.
But you insist on wearing the thing
And won’t quit until you are done.
So, that’s all fine and very good
If I am not in the room with you.
You insist on dressing in front of me
And you can’t claim you never knew.

Because I giggle and laugh at it
Every time because it is funny
And I can’t help myself, even though
I know your mood won’t be sunny.
Telling you I have never liked girdles
Or things like those awful ***** hose
Doesn’t seem to mean a thing to you
So, that’s just how it all goes.

Every time you put that thing on
And when I laugh you get mad.
And I am ashamed to admit it
But it’s the best time we ever had.
You wiggle and I giggle, and then
You finally get it on and glare at me.
It makes no sense that you insist
On forgetting our marital history.

To see you in the morning,
Be with you in the evening,
To see you here
At every time of day,
Such a simple prayer,
To see you at every time of day.
                                                                    
To hold you when you're laughing,
Console you when you're crying,
Take care of you
At every time of day,
Such a simple prayer
To see you at every time of day.
                                                                    
So tell me why you push me away,
When I've sworn to be
Forever true,
When I've pledged
My pure and simple heart to you?
How can you be so cruel?
                                                                    
To see you in the morning,
Be with you in the evening,
To see you here
At every time of day,
Such a simple prayer,
To see you at every time of day.