Higher than ever,
my heart rolls down a river.
Carried by the smoke.

He is taking his chances
Wasted his life chasing a buzz
For years the only things that mattered
Were money, power and drugs

He kept running after the high
Gotten from clout and respect
Phone blowing up 24/7
Altered by success

And he can't imagine a life
Other than fast and fun
No matter how far he goes
The distance is never enough

So he falls and spirals down
To the bottom he heavily crashes
And he struggles to climb out of the hole
As his body crumbles like ashes

my love, my sweet, this pulsing beat
ringing in my ears
a heartbeat in my stomach
head heavy and  d r a g g i n g
nodding out, nodding off
getting off
she did
who did?
jill, jacking off
hijack my life
jumpstart my words
I am plugged in
ready for the ride
shaking fits, out of control
can't help it
help me
things are spinning X
i guess this is why they call me
blackout girl

I enjoyed dancing with you while you were drunk.
I was stone cold sober.
Unless my prescriptions counts as a high.
I got drunk off you.
Your hands around my waist.
It actually feels like you want me.
But you’ll forget about this in the morning.
Until then I’ll enjoy you slurring sweet nothings in my ear.
Your lips touching mine.
I've never drank beer but I’m guessing it taste like your lips.
Maybe I'll start.

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high
higher

Silence.
We sit in stillness with our thoughts.
Conflicted.
Emotions running rampant.
High.
Out of control.
You were better- you were happy.
You were the man that I fell in love with again.
For that sweet everlasting second I saw a glimpse of that man.
If I had known I would’ve stopped.
For you.
But now that’s not something I can do.
Silence.
Uncertainty filling the air between our touch as we lay on opposite sides of the bed.
I see this shell looking back at me and my heart is sore.
Silence.
Saddened to see you like this.
I missed you for so long.
I’m sorry that I couldn’t-
Or wouldn’t, be strong.
I thought we could go back.
We can’t.
Silence.
Have you ever realized how it makes the air thick?
The anxiety that lingers like lint from the laundry.
How damp and humid it becomes?
Wondering who and when the other will spill their souls.
Silence.
I can’t even hear you breathe anymore.
Only the sound of my own shaky breath ticks the time away.
Holding back the tears.
Four years,
And silence is what sits between us.

So I’m A...
... High Calibre Weapon... !!!
Who Writes Lyrical Lessons...
Constructed To STRENGTHEN...
Our Need To Pay ATTENTION...
To... Social REGRESSION... !!!

Because It’s Now Become CLEAR...
That Most Folks Live In... FEAR... !!!

FEAR of... Each Other...
FEAR of Their Brothers...

Meantime They Still Cheer...
For Those Who Adhere...
To Ideals of Hate And Racist Tirades... ?!?

That APPARENTLY Will Make...
Their Countries SO GREAT...
That They’ll No Longer Need...
Immigrants To BLEED...
Their Countries Dry...
While They Peddle LIES... !!!!

... HIGH CALIBRE LIES... !!!!!

So You’d Better Be WISE... !!!
BEFORE... Making Ties...
With These Types of Guys... !!!

Which Just Goes To Show...
That Everything That Glitters...
Sure AIN’T.... GOLD.... !!!!

LOW Calibre Thinkers... !!!
Are Those Who... CONTROL... !!!

So Their Calibre Is Stationed...
Right Next To HYPER INFLATION... !!!
And Then What Comes Next...
Is... HYPER Starvation... !!!

Think About What I’m Saying...

If Prices Continue To Rise As They Do...
High Calibre COSTS May Well Start To Shock...
When Prices Cause... CRISES...
Cos They Go Through The ROOF... !!!!!!

For Something ESSENTIAL...
Like... Just Buying Food... !!!

Dunno' Bout YOU...
But Something So CENTRAL...
Should... NOT Start To FUEL...
High Calibre Weapons...
To Shoot To Get Loot... !!!

Well This Here Is The TRUTH... !!!

These Types of VENOMS...
Have ALWAYS Been Used...
To KEEP People FEARFUL...
And UNWILLING To USE...

A Calibre of Thought...
That Puts An End To...
....... Price Wars.......
That DON'T Help The Cause...
of Those Who Are... POOR... !!!

It’s A PROBLEM For Sure.... !!!

When Financial Managers...
And... Political Handlers...
KEEP PROVING Themselves...
To Be All About Wealth...
Who Could Really Care Less...
For... Societal Health... !!!

Because...

When All’s Said And Done...
From Morals To Models...
That Are Bruk’ Down Like Hovels... !!!

These Guys Are The Characters...
Who NEED To TAKE A SHOT...

of Something....

....... “ High Calibre “......

When you are up
     you don't realize the pain
of coming down
Because the higher you are
     the prettier the view
and the longer the fall