#hiding poems on Hello Poetry

Tamara Walker Jul 2018

An artist,
I’m scared to be left to my thinking atoms and nuclear cells
Why solder my raining thoughts to reality
In my head I can’t trust these clockworks
Rusted gears precariously tricking forward
Tensions unbalance on a pinched nerve ending
Hesitate I retract to others knowing what I don’t know
That once I start I might fail
I don’t do what I want to
I don’t speak when I want to
When I so desperately need to
Before I explode
Violently, into a void
Void of emotionless urges
An artist like me if I so believe I am
Doubtfully attempts to act in the face of thunder
Only to cowardly hide in a cat’s whisker
Inner bricking delays outer progress
Progress I provocatively flaunt to the alive bodies
While knowing the fallacious congrats is unwarranted
I don’t believe in magical rainbow kitten surprise wishes
But I won’t also hide my love
With the internal flame dimming
I want to act the part by flipping over the stones
For the mysteries hidden away
To see them crawling out
My untapped desires

This is a piece from a much longer poem called "Plenty Words." It's about my feelings as an artist without much to say.

#artist #silence #fear #failing #speaking #desires #dreams #waiting #hiding

Sachiko Jul 2018

She is hiding.

She is in the midst of hiding from the people who is babbling.
They applaud when you soar high,
but after reaching the peak you see yourself with a sigh.
She is silent for a little while.
She is gathering an energy to walk from the pile; A pile of hardships.
But still she smiles because she knows she will eventually get through it.
She might have been hiding.
But she is preparing.
She might have been hiding.
But she closes any negativity.
So she is detaching,
Detaching herself from the people who fake honesty.
She is a diamond.
She is clearly shining.
And that’s why she is hiding.

I actually wrote this when I was in a bus going to work, and by looking at my environment nobody was being real.

#people #honesty #hiding #shining

Bree Jul 2018

Tired of hiding

I'm running out of breathe
My limbs are feeling weak
My heart begins to throb
An aching in my feet

My head it starts to spin
My eyes are slow to blink
A pounding in my temples
It's getting hard to think

My legs are cramping up
My arms are feeling sore
Tears are running hot
I'm falling on the floor

Pretending perfection
It's draining me quickly
Hard to recognize myself
I'm looking rather sickly

The energy it takes
to keep this smile in place
To hide my depression
I'll die at this pace

#depression #hiding #sick

Cameron Jul 2018

Not so see-through

The girl who puts on a mask
Who is scared to tell anyone she’s hurting
She says “I’m fine” when they ask
The questions she’s been avoiding

Because they wouldn’t care anyways
All of the pain that she is in
All of the beating and pounding away
But that’s just one part of it

Her mind goes off to anywhere but reality
Because reality is too hard to deal with
And she’s suffocating and drowning
In her own mindless thoughts

These thoughts that appear and intrude
To her brain like a wave
The girl who is perfect
Because, obviously nothings wrong

The girl who puts on a mask
Who is scared to tell anyone she’s hurting

#depression #hiding #hurt

forestfaith Jul 2018

Hiding (response to smiles by Amber)

I know that not everyone is happy.
I know that people would hide the crawling, killing monster in them with smiles and laughter.
I know that tears are necessary.
It's waters healed wounds.
I know that those monsters inside might even be a learning point.
I know that monster can be tamed.
I know that monster can be destroyed.
What if this isn't the meaning you were writing as you pen down your thoughts? I really do not know.
I just know that we can be happy.
We can be loved.
We can be used to eternal purposes.
We are unworthy and a mess.
But that is what makes God's love so much more beautiful.
I am sorry for hiding, the brokenness in me.
I am sorry for showing the moving darkness in me.

#hiding #smiles #necessary

Blade Maiden Jul 2018

Her

When I met her
I was in a dark place
She made me feel better
alone with her I felt safe

When I met her
I fell in love easily
Me and her alone
protecting me in isolation furiously

Her's was the fear
but I knew why I had to be scared
the danger was clear
I wasn't meant to be shared

But hidden in front of everyone's eyes
better still behind closed doors
safe and sound and internally screaming
my lively body lying dead on barren floors

When I met her
to love her felt so right
easier yet but to walk amongst strangers
simpler yet to swallow all forsaken pride

Since I realized that I loved her wrong
that I only grew fond of her protection
I started taking her out on walks
I've written her a heartfelt song

"I love you dear,
you are my fearful guardian
and I thank you for reminding me
to keep an open eye, to always look for the hidden scorpion
Let me find comfort in you
when I know being terrified
makes less a fool out of me
but only a soul less traveled, barely petrified.

In my way of loving,
let me find my kind of freedom
I don't need you solving

Anxiety. "

Totally freestyled this. Might change it later. Let me know what you think.

#her #hiding #scared #discomfort #isolation #safe #protected #terrified #pride #anxiety

Phantom Poet Jul 2018

Work

I keep myself busy,
Try to make music,
With no knowledge on theory of music,
Try to make a game,
With no knowledge on coding,
I am engrossed in these works,
Work for days,
Exhaustion lurks,
I push myself too much on these,
I love these,
But the real reason,
To keep myself in a prison,
To not feel or remember,
Memories locked away,
To hide away in this work,
But then,
My work feels fake,
Everything mentally it takes,
And I end up resenting,
What I make

#work #busy #distracting #feeling #hiding

Sara Kellie Jul 2018

Your Mask Is All I Ask.

You're a glitch in the system,
a ******' mistake.
But carry on regardless
'cause I know you're fake.

I'm sure that you know,
you were never all that.
A big ******' lie
and then you did that!

So take off your mask
and show me your face.
'Cause to me you're already
a ******' disgrace!

You cast a steel shadow
yet still hide your face.
You shared all my secrets
and told them my name.
Now, step into your spotlight
and reveal your game.

Poetry by Kaydee.

No? I didn't think so.

#hiding #online #behind #fake #mask #troll #sociopath #family #gaslighting

Marianna Jul 2018

Rivers started rolling down my cheeks

i ripped my eyes off before anyone sees.

i feel betrayed. i got drunk and almost cried. its 2am and i am not ok

#melancholy #sad #eyes #rivers #cry #crying #sadness #betrayal #hiding #depressed