Troubled guy
Troubled girl
He tells her she means the world

Troubled girl
Troubled guy
He tends to only visit me at night

Remember walking down a bike path late, moon to my right
The memories burned in the back of my mind
With the match you and I, used to get high
I inhale and choke on the thought of forever
Even if compared to all the other guys, you’ve loved me better

Remember laying on a playground
You and I, And I on you
Doing things we shouldn’t do
If all our love, and plans fall through
I’ll remember that night and the taste of you

Remember sitting on that roof
Came down crashing hard from a high
Came down crashing hard from a lie
I won't forgive, I’ll just forget
So we’ll lay here and talk about the stars
and you’ll ask if that bright one is mars
I’ll mask the pain present in my heart
And I’ll smile for you my love
I’ll try not to fall apart  
I believe love is something you have to shape and create
We are art

With betrayal you painted my heart
How many times did you get her high?
How late did you stay up talking to her at night?
*******, I’m moving on, you never could have ****** me right

I wish that I could burn every ******* memory along with the sweater and shirt you gave me
*******, I’m moving on, you never could have ****** me right

I wish the memories would fade like your smoke from my lungs my love
I wish the memories would fade like the highs from all of your drugs
*******, I’m moving on, you never could have ****** me right
*******, I’m moving on, you never could have ****** me right

Draw me like the lipstick stained cigarette you so lovingly crave....
******* away with the distasteful grey poison from your lungs....


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You held me in place with that commanding look
writhing under your gaze
unable to look away from the piercing sight
and afraid to disobey any order

If it was uttered from your lips
my heart would have soared, stretched, and broken
to be praised by your words
or tenderly touched with your rough hands

I could feel your hand on my neck
squeezing slowly until the blood started pounding
my pain was your pleasure
and your pleasure was my purpose

Little did I know that you would be squeezing too strongly
the ropes were too tight around my waist
the collar choking my neck
no amount of clawing would have made you let go
so I went limp with my love

A submissive gives trust
yields to whoever they believe is worthy
submitting more than their body
but their very essence

A dominant is supposed to wield that trust
to protect and realize the significance of it
not squeeze and suffocate it
pretending that lies warrant trust in return

I could not have been enough for your demands
and you broke the trust I gingerly placed in your hands
Take your bonds and pretend to wrap them around someone else
my being can take no more of your bruising

Why did you have to write to me.
Pretending that you cared.
Why did you have to write after months of showing me you never cared.
That letter was absolute *******.
I loved you more than never! And you write me with smug comments and a distant attitude.
The truth is what matters and I left you because you became a liar.
Always and never, *******.
What a horrible thing to say to someone who never did anything wrong but try to love you past the pain you inflicted over and over again.
You will always end up alone because you are to blind and ignorant to realize you are the true reason to your own destruction.
Another failed relationship, one right after the other.
Now you can go ahead an add failed marriage to your roster.
You never loved anything in your life, and that is the real sadness.
One day in the distant future you will be old and alone and you'll have no one to blame but yourself.
That letter you wrote me was pure nonsense because you're still a child blaming me when you've destroyed the only real person in your life that ever truly loved you, looked past everything you did and tried to help you beyond her own pain.
That is real love I stayed for all the right reasons even though you failed to ever provide me with one.


I'm so ashamed I ever loved someone like you.