The tears drop, the anger had been let out, the stress and heavy weight where you’re just numb, not knowing what to do with yourself anymore. For you? I’d **** a mf in a heart beat, I’d take chances at heavy risk to be that person that you need me to be, I love you beyond my words that I cannot explain. Yes, it’s been 2 months but I heavily fwu and I don’t want to lose you ever. I don’t mean to smother you, I don’t mean to break you apart from what we have. All I want is for you to be happy, I’m tryna gather my life and same time tryna gather myself for the future. No, I will not dip out if I’m at my lowest.. overthinking everything, second guessing and etc. I just need you to know who you belong to, reassure me and make sure I’m well, as I do the same. I know ***** hard right now but I cannot imagine life without you, fwb, together, broken up or friendship wise. I couldn’t ever treat you like average, you’re my queen, mi novia, my life, my world, and everything else in between that. You deserve everything ****** possible to be happy, so does deryk. I knew that I had to make you mine the second I started coming to heidis for card nights, or going out. I knew **** well that we locked eyes, plenty of times but I wasn’t guna act on it until you did. Now here we are, and I cannot appreciate you enough. I love you so much Crystal, like it ****** shot me blind on how much I fell in love with you. You saved me from killing myself, not even 2 months ago. Kind of a blessing in disguise.