how can I tell him
tell him he's been living in my mind since the last time we spoke
I left but I wanted it back as soon as he walked away - the regret didn't overpower my pride and I guess thats how I know my families blood runs through me - we ruin relationships and our egos prevent us from making up sooner

I've learnt you can't walk back into someone's life expecting your space to still be there, and that's what hurts the most.

You say you want to be with me,
Give me a better life to see.
Then why do you push me away,
Teating me like a bored option for the day.

I fell like I'm a hobby to you,
Just a game to play on through.
Maybe just something on the side,
To boost you ego and pride.

Your in a relationship and committed,
And I still try my best I admit it.
Well i can't help my heart chose to,
So it wont change no matter what you do.

Push and attack,ignore or stab to bleed.
It just hurts but i wont leave.
So here I am,its for you to decide whether,
my heart you will torture or pleasure.

But why am I giving away me,
When you share you with another being?

HAUNTED by my own mind,
the ego ghost envelops me.
Judgements fill mind,
collapsing cells that pulsate once born in heart.

The ego entity knows how to get around
under skin and echo lies to stay in control.

It knows in a blink of an eye when to jump in
so I may not notice.

My mother lived most of her life through ego,
as many others do.

The ego spews out its toxic jargon
to infiltrate keeping me at a lower vibration
away from loves blanket.

The ego ACTS like a SLY FOX
creeping around
delving its paws where it doesn't want.

The Ego ACTS like a SERPENT
floating in waters of the brain
ready to strangle one out of their true identity.

But that leaves me on my spiritual journey
to squash this creature so freedom is mine.

To aline with the angel in heart
who whispers with love and wisdom.

To focus with intention
to have the ego surrender to it
to release its reins of control.

Nows the time to say,
“hay ego stop your nonsense and serve
by focusing on my vital organs
and direct my thoughts no more."

And now, on yet another day,
my sword is drawn
to recognize Ego's shadow,
and stand in power fearlessly.

HAUNTED by my own mind
the ego ghost envelops me.
Judgements fill mind,
collapsing cells that pulsate once born in heart.

The ego entity knows how to get under skin
and echo lies to stay in control.

It knows in a blink of an eye when to jump in
so I may not notice.

My mother lived most of her life through ego.
as many others do.

But that leaves me on my spiritual journey
to squash this creature to be free.

To aline with the angel in heart
who whispers with love and wisdom.

Nows the time is here to say,
“hay ego stop your nonsense and serve
by focusing on my vital organs activities
and direct my thoughts no more."

And now, on yet another day,
my sword is drawn to recognize Ego's shadow
and stand in power fearlessly.