I can feel that a rivulet of my unsaid desires has pleased my inner demons...

You are beautiful to me,
and i never told you this
but the way your scars
light up in the sun just
proves to me everyday of
how incredibly hurt you are,
and i hope it's not because of
me because that would break
my heart into a billion pieces.
and i pray that one day you
will open your eyes
and realize that what you're
doing to yourself isn't right
because you deserve the world
and i know that your cuts
sting because mine do, too.
but we can mend eachother's
wounds while lying on the beautiful
quilt your mother made the day before
she killed herself
as we watch sad movies at two in the morning,
crying our poor little selves to sleep.
not only crying because the movies
are devastating but because our
lives are.
the desire to want something better
for ourselves is torturing,
because we all know
that'll never happen.

You came across my presence like a blowing wind,
A fair stranger I've met a couple of moments before,
You sang softly words that gave life to my hopeless heart,
A kind of feeling none ever made it explore in thoughts.
Could this be love?
''No'',my brain says,
But the heart denies that.

"Want you to make me feel like am the only girl in the world"
You sang,
I gave a longing look without response to your words,
Your voice, the gleam in your golden eyes,
Your giggles.All this you don't know I think about.
But I what gave you was nothing so you don't see my heart.

Who is this girl?
I still search through my adventurous  heart,
I seek only at the places I've seen you before,
I wonder if you did mean your very words,
Is thee willing to see the monster in me?
Where will I the hermit get the strength to give you me?

Part one and two
                                                       I
She looked …how?
Like she’d been broken,
Her heart, has, now
Been lost, stolen….

By the sting,
And eyes that hide,
Overwhelming,
Hidden lies.

Like a rose,filled all with spikes...

                                                    ­    II
Red and green,
It's all a lie,
But desire,
Kept her high.

All is carpe,
And diem,
Regret meets after,
Home, the sin.

Follow pleasure,
And you will write,
A love letter,
Filled with lies.

I got a flustered mind.
With a cluster of dreams,
Got a bundle of hopes,
With no time to fulfill
I need peace,
Is that all I aspire for?
Been so edgy lately,
Don't know what I am tired of.
Connecting and disconnecting,
This motion is very disappointing
I said it right,
Even when I wasn't strong
Things get farther and farther,
The ones you desire the most for.
Nothing is wrong,
Yet everything seems not right
These jumbled emotions just aren't divine
I am not hallucinating,
Neither nostalgia got me this time
Yet something is weird.
I wish I could find
What troubles my mind

Everything gets better with the time,
At times you feel completely torn apart
its the exact time you have to keep yourself together from falling apart,
Things don't get better with time, they just  gets harder
But you gradually get immune to all the difficulties.
You get stronger with time, your problem get tougher so do you
And people come and go,
Every person has a significant impact on your life,
It can either be good or bad.
It's your choice how to cherish those long lost memories,
Its your wish to hold onto every moment, or just let it go.

It's a funny thing
When listening
To what your heart desires
A neutral mind
Forgetting time
Is all that is required