I am happy for you
Really, I am
I smile for you and I am excited
When you tell me every modicum
Of how he looked the other day
Or your intentional conversations
But I cannot help but feel inside
Like it soon may be over for you
Like it was for me, it always was
And I never want that for you
I want him to be the one you marry
I really hope for your sake he is
I pray you never have to have your heart broken
I pray you never have to live without him
I pray you never feel rejected
But I know your man is different
You chose the right one the first time

you're painting
the kitchen walls
baby duck
yellow.

you have houseplants
despite the lack of
sunlight
but i don't
think you know how
dark it really is.

you painted
my bedroom walls
dark green
i guess you covered
up the words i once
carved in the wall.

florals and snowflakes
now you get the
keyring and
i promise we won't
accidentally break in
like we did to him.

i might be an
incurable cynic
(which i know you
never know how to take)
but i sincerely hope
you're happy here.

i sincerely hope
my pessimism is not
cooling down your
prewarmed house.

i sincerely hope
you never become
jaded by who you
learn people truly are.

and i sincerely hope that
whatever darkness you may
or may not find never dims
your new living room light
or the radiance you've
always carried with you.

As my lungs crinkle and deflate into themselves,
I'm reminded that breathing is easy
I just **** at it.

I hear Lou Dog bark- good dog- and hope he's still out there, biting pornstars because for sure, not all Rastafarian dogs go to heaven. The music's down here.

But you're just the most boring cliche with a pretty face.
And I'm still surprised you're on this side of the dirt.
What a conscience you have.

(Huh?)

Somehow I manage to criticize 
The dust I see in your eye
While I am suffocating under
A pile of crushing beams.

The World Doesn't Care

You are afraid
Leading into a cascade
The World Doesn't Care

Your struggle
That's your trouble
The World Doesn't Care

Show you are afraid
Show your struggle
Cascade
&
Trouble

Clearly define your fight
Grit and show your bite
The World Will Care

why must we all be
angels               or
devils

sometimes both

lets be humans
and laugh
at
our futility

Headlines, deadlines, quotes, replies
Feelings, dealings, truths and lies

Words of encouragement, words of trust
Stories, scandals, fuelled by lust

Paper, vapour, sound and mouth
Questions causing fear and doubt

“Media” – propaganda, facades and fronts
Changing thoughts in changing months

Opinions, minions, priming, deceit
Selling , telling, triumph, defeat

Leering, jeering, whisper, scream
The word noose bound to **** a dream

Amidst the stories carefully told
The media waits to buy your soul.

Party. Party. Party.

All they want to know
Is it worth it to go?
Dressed up, messed up
Party. Party. Party.

All they'll ever do
Forget me and you
We'll go party too
Party. Party. Party.

Not a thought in your empty head
As I'm crawling in your bed
I'll never let you in mine
Party. Party. Party.

Keep my heart and mind apart
When's the party gonna start?
6-inch heels and blurry eyes
Party. Party. Party.

Party in the day time
Party in the night time
Party all the ******* time
Party. Party. Party.

All they ever ask
Where you keep your hidden flask
Dressed up, messed up
Party. Party. Party.