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samantha page Jan 2018
she says she wants
affection,
kisses,
love.
and I can do that
but I need to know
if she wants it from me
Nicole Jan 2018
I finally took the sweatshirt out of my car
It smells like you
Hotel linen suffocating my senses
And for a moment I'm lost
Even though we're not great together
You still run through my mind too often
The quiet nights in your dorm room
Walking along the beach together
Me making jokes in the haunted house to calm your anxiety
Talking to goats at the pumpkin farm
Even getting hyped while playing video games
You are everywhere
And I'd be lying if I said I didn't miss you
It's so conflicting because
I know we were unhappy at the end
But maybe it could've worked out
If I tried a little harder
Instead of just giving up
But I didn't know where it would go
And it wasn't healthy anymore
You wanted forever and I wasn't sure I could give you that
I'm trying so hard to live in the moment these days
Which is hard when I can't stop thinking about you
But I hope you're doing ok
Benji James Dec 2017
Your body's wearing thin 

Your hearts hanging by a string

You thought you'd take a leap

Off of the ledge 

Now your clinging to the edge

Only by a thread 

And everything you thought you are

Feels different than before

Can't seem to figure out what's changed

I'm a stranger to myself

Thought that was unlikely 

Thought I'd always understand me

But then again I've never been understanding 

Just a little demanding 

Expecting too much of myself

Trying to compare myself 
to everybody else

Look at the mess your in

Look at where you've been

Yeah let's go to hell and back

You need help 

But asking was something you lacked

Now looking back, 

I should have had some trust

In the ones, I loved 

Instead, I thought I could deal
with everything 
on my own 

Only to end up all alone

Can't seem to figure out what's changed
I'm a stranger to myself

Thought that was unlikely 

Thought I'd always understand me

But then again I've never been understanding 

Just a little demanding 

Expecting too much of myself

Trying to compare myself 
to everybody else

Oh my own mind is my cell

All these thoughts are my hell

And now your losing yourself

Following the trends of everybody else

Just be who you are

Be who you wanna be

Don't be somebody else

Don't sacrifice your originality

Just take a moment to see

You were created perfectly

Down to every fault and flaw

Down to every mistake you made

Because they made you who you are today

Can't seem to figure out what's changed

I'm a stranger to myself

Thought that was unlikely 

Thought I'd always understand me

But then again I've never been understanding 

Just a little demanding 

Expecting too much of myself

Trying to compare myself 
to everybody else

©2017 Written By Benji James
Gage B Nov 2017
I love how you use words
that excite me to think about
and how I hate that your
words never turn into the fantasy
i see through my eyes
© Gage B. 2017
Dazed Dreaming Oct 2017
As I drove through a small town in oregon, I couldn't help but pull over and stop.
I don't know what came over me..
But I had to stop.
I got out of my car.
Stood next to a lonely and deserted highway.
And took in everything around me.
All the trees were different shades of red..
Some were yellow with hues of orange.
Simply put, it took my breath away..

I listened as the wind picked up..
I listened to the rustling of all the fallen leaves swirling around at my feet.

I listened to the stream that was nearby..
The urgency of water rushing over bolders and rocks..
Oh, My Beautiful oregon..
I'm going to miss everything about you.


It was a rare moment in my life where I felt completely conflicted...

This was my home...

How foolish of me not to realize I'd actually be this torn.

I knew that with me closing the final door and chapter on a part of my life...
That space needed to happen for me..
I knew..
I couldn't stay...
In beautiful..
Rich..
Intoxicating
Invigorating..
Peaceful..
Oregon.­.

It was this truth that brought tears to my eyes..
As I watched the sun rise...
It was a truth I guess I let slip my mind.

...
So I made a silent promise to myself..

I promised myself..
That someday...
Someday in the future..
I'd return...
To the only place I ever really considered home.

My Sweet Oregon.
I'll miss you.
Xyns Oct 2017
Within this write, there are things I want to share.
More effectively, I want to express my ideas on things- both good and unfair.
Furthermore, this is for me; I'm not writing in hopes that you care.

It's so filled with miscommunication; if you think so, I don't believe malevolence was the aim
No ****** needed; we weren't meant to be more- this is recent knowledge I've come to gain
We were galaxies- within both of us are constellations we're given the responsibility to contain

Both of us seem electric and maybe that's why it had to be emotional warfare
Or perhaps the currents burned us out and now we're emotionally impaired

A temporary Romeo whose mind manufactures illusions of a ride to imminent fame
Met this Juliet whose spirit had aged and set goals of recognition to obtain
Each tortured artistically, with the unpleasant disposition to over-explain

Somehow, despite the floods of words, coherent expressions were rare
You felt unnecessarily taxed while I felt time with you costed me a steep fare
I'm intimately drained after all the internal details I was pressured to share

Ideas of romantic success were forced by naivety to be entertained
Unhealthily encouraged by all the tiny kisses hesitantly exchanged

Journey by my side to where lust dwells- my innocence used to live there
The angels we once were have been tainted by wasted passions we declared
Leaving us merciless, as ours were never the sensitivities to be spared

There was no shortage of moments in which I doubted any of it was sane
With this write, I hope to prevent the ride from being taken in vain
In this write, I hope at least a few of my conflicted thoughts are made plain..
Moonbeam Sep 2017
I try to hide
That I lost my light
It's still inside
Just not in my eyes

My heart is heavy
Along with my soul
This lifestyle of mine
Has taken a toll

I'm always sick
Trying to stay cool
But it just doesn't stick
And I'm being a fool

I'm mostly sad
At odds with my spirit
My intuition says go
But I pretend not to hear it
km Sep 2017
this emotion i’m feeling for you
why is it taking over me?
it burdens me so much
that it brings me all the way down

why can’t i get rid of this feeling?
why is it so hard to let go?
i’m stuck with the idea of you
but all i want is a peace of mind

what do i do?
i'm so conflicted with my thoughts
i tell myself that its impossible to get you back
yet I’m still hoping for a chance to have you around
even just as a friend
lately i've been feeling very emotional and moody idk why
SwordNPen Aug 2017
A bed in the middle of the room
with blankets scrunched up and
shoved in the corner. Dented
pillows scattered like debris
in a field of destruction.
A man in the mirror with
blood shot eyes surrounded
by dark rings. His hands shaking,
his heart racing, and his head is
pounding.
Viany Aug 2017
Why aren't you mean to me?
Why do you respond right away?
Why do you care so deeply?
Why do you beg me to stay?
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