Living in Hell


I’ve never been one to believe in myself;
I’ve never tried to seek any help.
I’ve just sat around and lived in Hell;
Now it’s time I made it matter and did something else.


I’ve lived too long in sin;
The fire rains down on your Heaven in flames.
I am not, or never will be, all I could have been,
Because I have apathy for everything and I embrace the pain.


She is deep inside of me; I cannot be set free.
She eats away at me; I need myself to be,
Gone and long forgotten.
Left for dead, going rotten.


Hell is all I have ever known and all I feel with you;
Break my mind to pass the time, because I have become unglued.
Rip my heart from out of my chest and leave me here to rot;
Loving you cost me my soul and your lies are all it took.


Now I know I’ve got to get away;
I’ve got to escape, to get out of this Hell you have made.
Because I have become somehow, the sacrificial cow.
We are nothing when we are us, so leave here now.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Dumb and numb.


Gone is the future that they promised to us;
I have come undone and fallen apart…all because of love.
In a world of shadow stalkers I am lost in the dark
And all the love in the world could never be enough.


I stand here defiant at your claim that love matters.
It doesn't, I've had it;
All your heart has left to do is break and shatter.
In a life without hope, I stumble and fall right into your arms.
And so it begins, prepare for war;
I have become lost inside your alluring charms.
Another story of a love that became the enemy.
Why did you do your best to turn me into a man without empathy?


Too old to care now I live in a box for the dead;
I keep my heart locked away from you all so you cannot see.
I have no regrets apart from the things I never said;
I have nothing left to say to you so just leave me be.


I can no longer take it, so break it into pieces;
This life is so needless with a first degree in mistrust.
Three sixty degrees of sadness all around;
I am your disease and you are contagious.
All because I chose to follow my broken heart and fall into love.


So no more of this love thing, I reject all your advances;
I can no longer take a leap of faith without a faith of my own.
I have done all I could and given them a million second chances
And still the song remains the same; my heart has turned to stone.


A dagger through love, a betrayal by a lover;
A death of a true heart which will forever remain undiscovered.
I am but a cog in your torturous love system of sinning,
So ignore me, do not call me anything; I am no longer forgiving.
And please, oh please, for the love of all the love songs,
When it comes to expressing your love for me or anyone!
Be like me and remain dumb,
For I have become too numb.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

No faith in love


I don’t believe in love anymore;
Love has been stained it is no longer pure.
Love was my life, but not anymore,
Because I have lost my faith in love.


You broke my heart apart,
When you said you had to depart.


I struggle to get myself out of bed,
Because there is nothing left, except the pain inside my head.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Apathetic to your positivity.


We keep on running, because we can’t stand still.
We keep on climbing, because we have got to get up the hill.
We keep on searching for a better thrill.
We are humans and we strive to advance, using all of our will.


Forward we march, dragging the weaker man with us.
Onward we go, for the good of our health.
Drop and give me twenty one-handed push-ups;
I am too lazy to evolve, so keep your thoughts to yourself.


You can advance the entire human race
And you have my full support.
As long as that doesn’t require anything from me.


I will not hinder your quest to find out more,
But I cannot bring myself to need anything but peace
And a place to be alone without your positivity.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.