I can barely remember the year I fell in love
with love. She took me everywhere I wanted to go
and home was wherever she was.

I have detailed memories of when Love, fell
out of love with me. I sat in shock as she dropped
me off at my home. Who knew home could feel
like nowhere at all?

There is nothing I can say or do to ease this pain.
It radiates from the center.
Where my heart should be.
Pulling unpleasant thoughts into its orbit.
A black hole of desperation.
Disconnected and disoriented.
A shark dragging its prey to the bottom of the ocean.
Drowning.
Leaving nothing behind but the ripples on the surface.
The moon holds on.
Dragging waves higher than the dreams you conjure.

Echoes, silence, peace and violence


All we need is peace, love and empathy.
All we have is war.
All we ever wanted was to be set free;
Still they keep us trapped inside these four walls.


Have a food fight with a butter knife;
The sound of bullet’s ricochet through streets with no name.
Life for today and sing with rage;
The super star is filled with hate.


Look at me up in the sky;
It’s so high up here now I have died.
Beautiful bullets in butterflies.
A soldier can never wear a peace symbol,
Because that would not be right?


Down in the dumps, I decided to give up;
All they told us was lies, so we had to confront.
Burst your bubble with a lighting strike above my head;
If I end up dead and my remains remain silent, then do not forget.


Echoes and silence;
Peace and violence.
All I hear you saying,
Reverberates around a room with no sound,
So we cannot remain silent.


Stop the war; what do we need it for?
Stop the violence; all you need is love.
Same old faces out on tour;
Coming back in caskets, without their guns.


Governments lie as soldiers die;
This is our time to change their minds.
Peacefully protest against their war;
Power to the people, we can’t take it anymore.


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Conformity is my enemy


Conformity is my enemy;
Everything they took from me, they didn’t know I didn’t want it!
Your society is empty;
All they have is useless to the kid who never wanted to fit in.


We stand apart, on different plains;
I have evolved, whilst your entire existence has just stood still.
You and I could never be the same;
You are so far behind and could never catch up.
They say I should care, but I never will.


Our destinies are walking different paths;
I am route 66 and you will only ever go back.
Your personal history means nothing to me;
Your memories made you what you are,
But you are trapped by conformity.


What makes a man?  You are made from snow.
I am an iron man and when the sun comes out you will simply go.
You are as deep as glass and don’t make me laugh;
I see through your smile into your empty head
And all I can see is all the meaning that you lack.


Go stand in line, buy another phone;
You are just a clone and nobody that I will ever want to know.
Impress me or detest me;
See my apathy
And realise I do not need to know your opinion,
Because I have my own individuality.


I am a freak;
I am a geek.
I am whatever you call me,
But at least I am unique.


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Life


Everything is pointless; taking nothing in.
Existence is temporary; I do not expect to live.
Only darkness to be found within the dark cloud.
Speechless; silent; broken; down.


First tear in years;
Nobody is here.
Words become truth;
Watch me disappear.
Going, going, gone;
I am the setting sun.


Life in…life out;
I would begin again from the beginning,
If only I knew how.


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Meaningless


I want to write you something that means something,
But all I say is meaningless;
Less to me and less to you.
I struggle to get myself out of your bed, because of my head.
I am trapped inside a box of thoughts.
Which question to ask of you?
No answer to ‘We need to talk.’


Leave me lying here in my own pity;
The dreams I keep inside my head.
You orangutan through one night stands;
A love like this is without love.
Break a promise to be a man
And you will see a divorced wedding dress,
So drenched in mud.


This is how it all begins,
So this is how it will all stay.
You can never remove those stains, those sins;
So tear apart every syllable I just have to say.


Your lies are on fire!  I vow to change;
You and I have never really felt the same.
I say what I need to get you off my chest;
You hold me down with promises.
Tell me when I have passed your test,
So I can admit the truth; that it is you who is worth less.


Less than friendly and now a part of the family.
A part of the furniture; surely soon to be less than all I have.
Prepare to take a grand piano, to the head
And I will tell you where you need to stand.


Stand apart, we are never near,
To understanding the words we never speak
And the thoughts we never hear.


I cover up the bruises on my heart,
To hide the shame of loving love.
I leave behind all the memories of what we are…
By simply giving up.


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In my mind a light no longer shines.


Picture no light shining inside your mind;
Maybe then you can see inside of mine.
All I have ever done means nothing now;
It was just a big waste of time.
My sparkles no longer shine for you;
There is no more light to be found in my eyes.


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Boo who?


My apathy is my gift.
Without it I would not be able to live.
If I had to always care,
Then I would exist in perpetual despair,
And you would all get under my skin.


Keep your love and share your money.
Love is just a word, you are so funny.
We say things exists, but let’s face it,
Do you really think that means anything?
Keep on with your dreaming.


I do not care about your wishes.
I have none of my own, no bucket list.
So leave me alone, it reminds me of a better time…
When I escaped your lies.


Gone and good riddance,
Adios and goodbye.
My eyes never even cried,
As my love for you died.


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Empty being


I only exist inside a hole of depression.
There is no light here, so there is no will or feelings to mention.
I am not getting enough sun to make me smile.
Love is invisible; I have no number on speed dial.
No-one to call on, to hold me close,
No partner in life, no hope for my soul,
Only endless nights.
No love in sight, nothing is right,
Keep your polite encouragement and positive words,
I am no longer listening…


I cannot speak to her.
The grand-father clock melts into a puddle of oil.
The plans of adventure continually foiled.
All hope has disappeared, gone with the wind.
I am clock not-working, no key,
No turning, only ever heading down,
Into my self-portrait image;
The tears of a clown.


Some would say it is misfortune;
I would say let’s give it a miss.
Some would say it will get better soon;
I quietly reply, not without her kiss.


This life is a journey into the unknown,
But I already know how my story goes.
If happiness appears, it is immediately gone.
I see a white swan…
The love bug bites me and breaks my arm.
I see a beautiful flower so I reach out to hold it,
The prickles of roses only leave my heart to bleed,
So I quit.
Keep your love, it will never want me.
I will remain the empty being.


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