she started with the mind..
only the mind..
i could see her thoughts as she created the spirial..

from within she felt what she created..
but it was only dust and stars..
she stared at if for thousands of years and then it came to her..

with heart she then made the spirial turn..
it moved along with the beat of her heart..
she smiled and all the stars lit up..

with her eyes she saw her creation turn..
simply by feeling her waves of emotion carried the stars on a darkness ocean current.. but it was slowing and then it came to a stop.. she would turn it and turn it for yet another thousand years and then snap it came to her..

with soul she created a big bang in the center creating a soul engine..
the engine powered the spirial as it turned and turned..
she was dazzled to no end as her spirial begin to take shape...

she look to me as her galaxy was created..
i told her "welcome to your creation"
she then became a part of her galaxy, i have not seen her for the past million years, i can only wonder what she is doing there..

" once you reach that state of peace and balance you will shine forth your light." Sol..

Amid the chaos and darkness running about this end, I found such a peace and balance through despair.. Although I knew it the end I decided in my soul that I would not let this darkness take away all that I love.. They stood behind me and trusted me with their lives.. I knew this in my heart and soul and could feel them holding on through me.. It was at this point the light came from me! So so bright it was, but it did not hurt your eyes at all.. It shined forth like a beam of hope cutting through this darkness and making it bleed light.. And there for a moment I remembered a promise I made to her that I would always be there for them and never let anything happen to them, And for that short short moment my light cast her image.. I can almost see her.. It was then the blast of hope created the new day.. It was then the sun shined down once again.. through you, I am me..

the moon was bright// light of the night...

sing to me tunes// early summer in june//

shine down your old light// borrowed from the sun tonight..

don't feel ashamed// you are not to blame//

i am sad because of me// all the things i didn't see..

not because i am blind// i just couldn't see her shine//

please don't hide behind the clouds// i swear i will not cry out loud..

i can see you shine// but your light is borrowed, u have always been dark inside//

she is the same// and i am to blame..

for she is the moon.. and i am her sun.........

And now for my first step. This dragon body is huge! I mean I can stand upright and see over this dark forest.. My first step is a bit wonky and I fall over to my side creating thunder on the ground. I get back up and notice my legs are to strong as they spring me up high into the sky where I begin to fall back down.. As anyone falling from some form of height I begin to scream which in turn from my dragon vocals is a rather load roar! I land on some trees breaking them alongside a second thunderous fall..

As I get back up I notice I do not really feel the impact of the fall.. My scales seem to have absorbed most of the fall.. I then realise the sound of thunder is not my large body hitting the ground, but the effect my scales have on impact.. They seem to absorb the energy from the impact and then release it in the form of thunder. I will have to experement a bit with these awesome scales!

Ok here we go.. slowly! Ok.. IM UP! I take a step again but very slowly.. I then follow again with my other legs.. Step by step I move forward.. My feet feel very tight as I walk and I am also very loud.. I try and open my feet like a human would open their hand. And boom! All my feet open up as I am able to step better with almost no sound at all.. This is yet another effect of my scales as they absorb the sound I make with my feet..

Well I am now walking so I guess running is next!

Yesterday light strings..
I strum them with memory glow..
Rememberence of her smile..
To yesterday I go..

Grasses so green..
So cool to my bare feet..
I race my little brother..
Around my grandmothers house in the late spring..

Under bridges, Along the creek bed..
Countless ghost hear voices..
Boys fishing and swiming..
Riding bikes down the hill screaming..

Beautiful fun spirit..
Alive and strong..
Memories of color..
Memories of voices and song..

Entwined in shadow string.
Light of my mind.
For so long now I've been unable to shine.

An old song anew.
Sang cosmic melodies to me.
Verses and choruses and tones to help me see.

The shadow strings begin to give way.
To the always moving forward light contained.
The cloud of all colors begins to rain.

Rays of light gleam on through.
Imaginations can reach their destinations.
To help create new constellations.

The stars shine again for me.
Under the night sky of rediscover.
As my soul begins to recover.

I awoke to a circle shaped chamber made out of some kind of rock and golden wood. My bare feet touched the golden wood floor and my senses activated with delight.

A golden like fine sand kissed the bottoms of my feet with a dreamlike sensation of walking on a heavenly beach.

The rock walls seem more natural.  Felt a bit wet to the touch.  But nonetheless natural.  

Very strange creatures also occupied this Circle chamber in the rock.  

A Peculiar like body orbited the entire circle chamber .  It had long silver white hair and a very small head with green glowing eyes.

Then to the right of me a Mantis like creature with yellow eyes stood so still I  could not tell if it was a statue or a lifeform.  It finally revealed that very answer when it blinked its eyes.  

In front of me on the other side of the circle chamber was a cluster of bubbles and lights.  The bubbles moved about chasing the small little lights like a train.  Never did they pop.

And finally a familiar view but altogether beautiful.  A woman with flowing red hair and deep fiery brown eyes made contact with me.  

Neither of us could speak. But we were still able to hear each others voices somehow.  

We both had the same questions.  

And we both did not have the answers.  

The Mantis like creature then spoke to us in a series of hisses we somehow understood..

It said. "  Welcome to the Boardwalk across the universe."

Sometimes I ask for you.
Sometimes I look for you.
Most times I think of you.
Most times I smile in thought.

Sometimes I love you.
Sometimes I miss you.
Most times I want to meet with you.
All times I can't.

Sometimes I dream about you.
Sometimes I wonder if you dream about me.
Most times I run into you the next day.
All times we both smile.

The young boy climbed onto my back.. I was still connected to his mind and told him with my voice to his mind to HOLD ON! But as I thought it through I new I would be moving to fast for the boy to hold on and not fall. So I looked toward the ogres leftover equipment and found a long rope. The boy wrapped the rope around my neck and then around his hands. HERE WE GO!

I could feel the boys excitement and also his deep breathing. It was as if I was the boy! Amazing the longer I stayed connected to the boy the more I felt and saw what he was feeling and seeing. I slowly built up my speed instead of sprinting like before. The boy felt the wind at his face as I begin to go faster and faster!

I then told him again HOLD ON!! I then leaped out from the trees high above the dark forest! The boy gasp for air in awe and let out a scream of joy!! I did not realise my excitment and discovered that I had jumped a great deal higher than last time. But this jump was more of a super leap. So super I clearly jumped over the boys village and landed back at the river..

Both of us were breathing hard with excitement! I then walked the boy back home to his village.. The boy got off my back and called to his father..

This is it.. On the otherside there will be a bridge.. Run across it and do not look back.. Run as fast as you can no matter what!

Once you reach the end of the bridge scream the chant! From there on I do not know what to tell you.. They are coming go!

As i cross over i see the bridge dad was talking about.. i run as fast as i can go.. a heavy fog begins to built with each running step.. there it is the end of the bridge! A huge beast is beyond the bridge and is waiting for me! It then takes a battle stance and waits for me.. at last the end of the bridge! the beast screams and leaps at me! I scream the chant reguardless! !!!! naidraug nogard esir!!!!

I FEEL STRANGE.. I SEE THINGS DIFFERENT.. I HEAR SOUNDS I HAVE NEVER HEARD.. THE BEAST IS BELOW ME NOW.. THE BEAST IS RUNNING AWAY FROM ME.. I SEE MY REFLECTION IN THE DARK WATERS BELOW THE BRIDGE.. I HAVE BECOME A DRAGON!

we have these talks.. although you do not speak I still feel your words.
we need to get you out of this light. I know you miss it..

I saw her today. she walked alone down toward the market. eyes empty, soul filled with the remembrance of you.

one day my friend. I will be able to sing her your song. its going to be a bright night. I'll see you tomorrow evening.

The night was clear with a dreamy sky. The kids were in the back of the truck. They layed on their backs and saw the trees and street lights run by. That is until we drove out of town and into the country. Stars called to my kids eyes like flowers on a spring day. 

On our way home there was to huge flash. The next thing I remembered was waking up in the grass and then seeing my truck flipped over. I screamed. Both my children were dead. 

I held them both. For hours all I could hear was their ghostly voices. In my mind I said all the prayers I knew over and over again. And then there was the flash again. 

When I opened my eyes we were inside of a clear room. I layed my kids down and stood up. I walked toward a window and saw the earth below. 

I turned back to look at my kids and saw that some creature some thing had picked their bodies up and had them floating beside it. I tried to tackle whatever it was but found I could not move.

The creature then placed 2 color filled orbs on my children's bodies. There were strange sounds and chimes. Every vein inside of my kids bodies seem to be filled with light.. it was beyond what beautiful could describe. Their bodies got brighter and brighter. The creature would look at me from time to time with its white eyes. 

Both my children's bodies were as bright as the sun. Then I saw something enter their bodies from outside this room. Both of them stop shining. And then they opened their eyes. 

Once again there was a flash and the three of us were back at the truck. I then heard a voice inside of my mind. It spoke 2 words.. " I'm sorry"

The sight of it is so beautiful.  Its what beautiful is to me.. Its how its described to the eyes if there was no word beautful..  But I ask myself why am I seeing this? And what is it? Let me describe it to you and the circumstances that must take place for me to see it.. First and foremost I must be asleep and dreaming..  Many times the dream takes place in the past but sometimes in the present and very seldom the future.. The sky in my dream is all black with no stars or moon.. Just a black shadow filled sky..  There above is a lone cloud.. Its white even at night but begins to turn gray.. Lightning then fills and dances within it.. But this is no ordinary lightning.. The bolts and arcs of lightning are all different colors within this lone cloud.. Each bolt does not create thunder but rather creates tones.. Like a song cloud singing from the black skies.. The tones are even more beautiful to the ears and surpass the beauty the eyes see..  This lightning color filled lone gray cloud gets bigger and bigger..  I then float above my dream earth alongside this aura of colors and lightning..  What I am seeing is an idea!  It is an idea that I have had all along inside of my mind..  As this profound unknown idea grows within my subconscious it will one day storm upon my dreams and flood on over into my waking mind..  Ill bring you all back.. I promise!

As of now there is lightning without thunder.. the thunderbolts silently chase eachother across the midnight sky.. from cloud to cloud, from wish to wish.. sweet music to the eyes.. lightning sings its blue glow song to both my light brown eyes..

I knew there was no sure way to fight the addiction in his memories.  Not without interference of what his memories remember.  Doing so could alter his memory in such a way that it would not be remembered correctly and could be forgotten forever without ever being able to access the original memory.  In his sleep state galaxies are created for a short time.  These are known as dreams.  During such time all memories scramble and form moments that the sleeping mind experiences. Although not real the mind has to do such a duty in order to make the brightest of memories shine forever.  To store away light that can be used for another time.  This is where I can attack the addiction! In his dreams.  He will see it as just a dream and feel as though it is no memory at all.  And so the dream begins.

The dream is of a grand dead tree in the middle of a green field. There sitting against the tree was a shadow child with a white mask on.  The mask had the face of me.  This sent a terror down my spine for some reason.  The child spoke in two voices. " Will you play with me."  He held a ball made of pale light that seem to have a spiral of darkness at its center. He threw the ball at me and I caught it.  I held it in both my hands as the spiral of darkness seem to call to me. I then heard beautiful song notes being sung from the sky.  My celestial star owls broke me out of the trance.  I then threw the pale light ball away as the child shadow screamed in anger.  It threw off its mask and went into a hole in the tree.  It screamed louder and louder while inside as the dead tree begin to grow leaves made of darkness and pale light.  The sky turned red and the grass yellow.  This dream had become a nightmare!

That alone feeling..
Comes and goes..
You feel it in the depths of your beating heart..
Everyone is here and your alone.
It does not last long..
But it truly is there..
Its as if emotions felt throughout life resurface from time to time when not used..
I suppose my happiness is the reason for such a forgotten feeling..
The loneliness just misses being felt..
And so it comes and goes with me..
I feel alone among everyone around me..
Sad gray man in a gray painting..
But then the colors return..
And I bid loneliness farewell..
The gift of loneliness today was this poem you read..
I am fine again..
(Time felt alone today.. 5:51 seconds.. )

At the moment it all makes terrifying sense.. What the equation for fear really is.. On where it comes from and how it is felt.. Fear like hope also sends out strange waves that travel far and interstellar wide.. It transmits much like hope.. Where hope is the light and fear is the dark.. But I must simply state neither can exist without the other..

I suppose the shadows I am seeing are those of fear that could never find hope.. They are ***** shadows that bleed a purple mist.. Some of them seem to ***** such mist on those whom have the most hope.. They do not see me.. They are not like an ordinary shadow.. A true shadow is natural and is cast from the light of a being standing before it.. These simply exist on minus plain of obscurity.. Outside the human eyes, unfelt by the human senses.. They are chaos collectors.. They thrive on the fear and loss of hope.. They thrive on quitters and suicides.. And they want all of your doubt...

it was...................
it was like floating away in all directions..
slowly i left for everywhere..
the grass, the air, the light, the darkness, the dirt, the sky, and the stars..
i was becoming everything beautiful about these things..
i was becoming everything beautiful with you..
it never ended.
i continued to expand beyond my imagination..
to places that life could not reach at the time..
to places beyond dreams..
i felt everyone i knew..
all at once inside this collective memory..
no one is ever truly gone..
i see that now..
even if you didn't believe, you still become a part of this..
a part of me, a part of you, a part of everything....
forever, whenever...

From above the stars, through the glass, I look upon you..
I put a fresh *** on..
The aroma fills this chamber above the stars..
I often think of going back..
I often remember us..
But here I am because of a wild decision I made so long ago..
From above the stars, through the glass, I wish upon you..
Coffee is ready..

G A S P!!!!!!!! I was breathing..  I looked around in darkness.. I felt no ground below me..  It was then I heard someone singing in the shadows..  With ever note and tone There was a light that was starting to get brighter and brighter..  Every note and tone was to be understood now as it truly was.. What they were was emotions..  Music is what emotions sound like..  Its what kept me alive in this infinte shadow.. Whomever sang to me was gone now..  The music was in my mind and soul now.. All I needed was just a memory of song.. The rest is easy now..  I create light with music and later an entire galaxy..  The center is where it all began.. From someone singing in the shadows to me.. Someone who was not lost in darkness.. Someone I think is darkness.. The darkness itself sang to me..

Simply the tone of a signal from afar.  Trying to call, whimsical voice so deep, and words not understood.  Songs they were, Auras we saw! Stories about where emotions reside.  Clear views explain me. My thoughts have always been yours.  Spirialing around, true galaxy sub-atomic.  God shade sun, moonlit eyes, destiny beauty awakens!  Alexander's box, solar system within. Stare forever imagination beyond those nebula dreams.  Cresent sad shadow, light pulse heartbeat. Pump shine through these veins, bring such life without pain.  Fire eyelids make water diamonds melt away with firey gaze..
Our star resonates still outside existence.

As I walked into the chamber of dreams the lines on both of my hands lit up.. I then heard a voice..  

" Welcome, please stand here and please open your hands and shine the light above.."

There were stars everywhere.. The light from my hands lit up a constellation..  

After doing so 11 others walk on out from the dakrness and did the same..

Seems to me as if i was the final piece they needed for their star puzzle..

And then at the center of the dream chamber a strange looking being was looking up at the completed star puzzle..  Although its face showed no emotion I knew it was very happy..  I awoke from the dream.. But was it truly a dream?

You make all the stars fade away..  it's because you outshine them all..

i SUPPOSE THE END IS NOT SO BAD AFTER ALL..
after all it was us that brought it upon ourselves..
but ILL HOLD ON TO THIS LIGHT ANYWAY..
Ill cup it in my hands and let it shine on the lines..
In the end at least ill know it was with you..
This darkness really does have no mercy..
I smile at the thought of it not being able to consume my hands that cup this light..
The darkness waits and waits until i finally let go of the light..
I look into my glowing hands and day dream..
I can see the clear day..
Blue skies..
The star filled skies wisper their light as the moon's silver rays light up your dress..
Its time to let go..
All i can give you is this sun..
May it light your days until it burns out..

I look to the ground and day dream of times better..
I stare into the grass and see the ants working never even looking toward me..
They continue to work and carry on..
I then look out toward the dying day..
The wind kisses my forehead first and passes through and around me..

I have seen it all.. And lost everything to it..
But there is a small flame that burns ever so..
Why it burns and why it keeps this darkness at bay is still a question I try and ask and answer myself..

In the end I suppose, The answer will be made clear to me..
On why this flame burns brightly and never seems to dim despite the chaos and the extinquishing of other flames that once burned beside mine..

I simply carry on.. Shine shadow, shine in darkness that is belief..

Sunset.. the last colors of the day..
Fall to the silver moon as it bathes the newborn night in ribbons of haunting luner glow..
This is where I think of you..
Alone I am, dreaming while awake, forever driving away..

Sunrise.. the last weep of a haunting lunar princess..
Fall to the rising sun and its aura of shine and colors..
This is where I meet you..
Together for a day, remembering, holding your sun filled soul..

I took a walk under the night sky..
Through this empty sleeping town..
Thoughts came to me..
Solutions made simple..
And all im doing is walking..
I wonder if these are stray thoughts running about..
I wonder if I am running into them..
They just want to be thought of again..
Or sent to the stars..
So that they can become one..

I can tell you the neverminds..
I can tell you how far we are behind..
I know I won't be alone..
I know I am full of unknowns..
Some of my songs are about you..
Some of my poems too..
Some of my dreams came true..
Some of my nightmares too..
The ghost are coming..
The ghost are running..
The ghost are singing..
The ghost are dreaming..
The song is playing..
The song is fading..
The song is repeating..
What I have been saying...............................

when I run or walk..
in the day or night.
I smile toward the sky..
I sometimes wave..
one day I will get to watch my life.. to see me acknowledge myself from this life before the other..
I smile at the thought of it..
when I become that star I gaze at..

Blackness, shadow of the world, eternal sonata sung by the demons of the cold suffering lost souls forever riding this nightmare..  Singularity of infinite sin, true black abyss,  pulling down all angels from the heavens..  there is but a splinter of light left in this world..

And on this day he runs from the demons, on this day he runs to the light, a small hole in the black smoke filled sky..  There The day exist as a small beam of sunlight that shines on through this black breath of the grand demon sitting atop the mountain of sin, sitting atop a shrine created by sin.. he spews out his hate and black cloud breath creating the forever night..

the pillar of light shines down on this final day, he ran for it as fast as he could.. but he was weak, he was dying, he could not make it as he fell to his knees.. he crawled toward the light miles away, he begin to pray to the angels in the abyss, he begin to hope, he was now on his stomach scrapping across the land toward a fading light miles away..

the demons have caught his scent, the scent of the final man left on earth, this will be the final slaying of mankind, earth will become hell..

he remembers his daughters smile, he remembers his sons strength, he remembers his loves warmth, and he is now on his feet.. he grasp the bracelet his daughter gave him, he calls to his dead son for strength, he feels his wife's love warm him one last time..  the demons fall upon him!

his daughters bracelet lets forth a light that shuns the demons above the black smoke into the sun burning them to a heavenly oblivion! more and more demons give chase.. he cannot outrun them.. he then hears his sons voice shout forward! a white horse with blue flames gallops past the demons lifting the last man as they gallop faster than darkness leaving behind a blue fire that burns all chasing demons away..  at last the fading final day, the fading pillar of hope is reached!

The grand demon stands before them! The final man stands in the light, under the final day of mankind.. He feels the light hold him, he feels his wife's arms around him, he holds her for the last time.. The grand demon roars and begins toward the last man..  all prayers ever said, all the hope ever felt, shined within that light.  the last man stands before the grand demon in the form of the HOLY DRAGON.

The HOLY DRAGON looks upon the darkness with his blue holy eyes.. The grand demon is in awe at what he is seeing.. The holy dragon takes flight above the black clouds.. With his thunderous wings he fans away the blackness letting the sun in once again.. The HOLY DRAGON then dives toward the grand demon spewing white fire of creation!!  The demon tries and fights back only to be torn asunder by the HOLY DRAGONS silver teeth! Thus begins the age of the dragons once again

It wasn't random memories being put together by my mind so that I may dream. This much I know now.  I have read and seen a lot of things that it could possibly be.  But never have I read or seen what I just witnessed and heard now.  Whatever this was it spoke to me in an ancient language that is older than the universe itself.  The scary thing was that I understood every word it said.   It spoke only four words.  "  I HAVE FOUND YOU! "  It was like a whisper and a scream all at once. It had a face of both man and woman.  I also got the sense that it has been looking for me long before the universe existed.  What ever it was it was coming.  The thunder woke me up from this strange dream resetting the strange atmosphere my dream had put me in.  The only thing that was a bit calming was the rain hitting the metal roof.

The cure is in the tone.. At the right tone you can cure all..  I found out how to do it last night..  But when I awoke I could no longer remember the tone..  This is when the tornados came..  From all over, from all directions..  But this time I did not run.. I see from above that the tornados themselves are writing on the earth..  They write symbols at first.. But these symbols soon make sense to me..  They are a mystical musical note that will cure when sang.. Each note does something different..  Simply looking at them I can sing the tone they represent..

I awake..  For the moment its dark..  Then the light comes..  Slowly this place makes itself real to me..  And if I am seeing what I am seeing I know that I have finally let go..  It felt alot like the spring.  A beautiful comfort in the air kept me warm and cool all at once..  I begin to walk and notice the flowers..  How they are there to simply look beautiful..  I let go some more and am able to smell the atomoshere.. Its as if the rain just finished kissing the earth..   Then my memories flood on in!  My eyes water at the sight of her! She is here..  I tell her I love you so so much!! At this point I am lost to this amazing technology! Not able to tell what is real anymore they break my link.. I am lucid once again! My eyes still filled with tears..  You see I am a product line tester.  This new tech and invention is called Soul-Cell..  And I was its first user..  By God! Tears still ran down my face..  What you people have made is simply heavenly..  And I have one question.. Did I just visit heaven?

i can simply add a shadow to your light..
shell of the soul, solid and is but a vessel..

a chamber and a collection of dreams tell me something about you..
your chamber is made of thoughts and your dreams are a collection of wonders..

so i come back with an emotion..
a relic of some sort of meaning..
bound to love and hate..
guidied by hope and despair..

even the smallest of flames can send the infinite darkness running in all directions..

even if it was just for a moment..
but the darkness has always been there.. and no matter how fast light travels it was there before the light.. it has always been waiting..

So.... All you have to do is keep on shining..............

The morning glow sings its chorus to the verse of darkness.
I jump on my bike and ride toward the forest.
I cut through the trails at the speed of light.
Lightning surrounds me and I move through time.

I am above the clouds waring the cloak of a star.
I move through the twilight sky near and far.
I see myself below as I see myself beyond.
With only one of me knowing how all this corresponds.

I reach the outer rims of our galaxy.
Where shadows of angels view their transcalency.
I pass through the veil beyond what is all.
And find the being playing with the universe emotions enthralled.

I put on the Godsuit.. And I see you! When you died you came back as a storm. Your so beautiful. I hear your thunderous call.. I can feel your lightning kisses.. The smell of atmoshere is your dream perfume I remember, the scent of your soul. I let you embrace me with all your tears of joy as they rain down on me. My Godsuit lights up with the colors of emotion! I see love.. What it truly looks like.. I see we become this place we live in.. And the sun will only burn for us now.. One day I will rain with you!

you always knew right/ about how you viewed things in and out..
you knew you would one day leave/ beyond it all, to observe and create again..
you knew it never ever ends/ it just seems to always begin..
you smile at the thought of it/ the first leap out..
you finally see it/your imagination has come to life..

Every now and again there is a street light. Most my walk is done in the dark. I feel wicked things watching me from the trees. But that's all they can do is watch. 

My dog angel walks beside me fearless. She will follow me into hell if need be. She barks and growls at the wicked eyes that watch us. She chases the ghost away. 

Another street light shines over the star filled sky. As I walk on by not afraid of the dark.

I have looked to the night sky in my dreams many times.
Sometimes the stars are leaving.  
They shine brightly for a moment and then blast off into the universe..
This time the stars were chasing eachother..
I could see them..
It was as if the stars were childeren playing tag with eachother.
But then they noticed me looking at them..
They stopped for a brief moment..
Then faded into the darkness..
This strange beyond is reaching out to me..
Again and again..
I love it!!
Makes me feel at home!
Which makes me question..
Where is home?

The science on how it works will take forever to explain.  But in a brief description I will share with you the feeling of light control.

In a normal room lit by normal light bulbs I will test my new found power.  I learned how to do it in my dreams.  For in the dream realm you can turn seconds into centuries and centuries in millenniums.  

Light is something that makes things visible or affords illumination.  Also known as luminous energy and radiant energy. It promotes a sensation produced by stimulation of the organs of sight.   In my dreams I am able to capture such light and glow.  I am able to do this using what I call shadow hands. The shadow men were the ones who taught me how to use such amazing power.

" The shadow men fell from the sky.  They came from the darkness and the light.  They blended in with the stars with the blanket of shadows they wrap themselves with. The light holders of the dream realm."

In the dream realm we can see.  And simply seeing means there is a form of light that can help us see.  I call this " the memory of light. "  For in the dream realm there is no electricity that runs all of the lighting nor is there a sun that lights your dream day.  This means an endless amount of light is stored within our memories.  And we can use this light in such wonderful ways.  
End Notes 1)   3/2/16

Some of those streaks of blue you see in the sky are not comets are falling stars.  Someone has found their star glass machine, hidden in the darkness of doubt and despair.  They have learned to ride and balance on thought. On memories of light and imagination caught, within a star glass machine the emotion engine starts.  

Endless blue blazing fills my Lightcycle machine, lightning bird wings spread far and wide, I travel at the speed of thought to places unseen.  Across the stars and into your mind.  I find the universe and your beautiful shine.  It is all endless! All forever! Eternal memories, Infintie light melodies.

i was content..
content in not knowing it all..
because if i knew it all then there truly is nothing..

I heard thunder come out of the cloudless sky..
It resonated through my bones and came back out of my soul..
I felt the winds at my face, a message from another place..
I saw through the eyes of light and darkness..
A linking of some sort, a connection of shine and shadow..
I then heard the thunder again..
But not from the sky..
It never was from the sky..
It was coming from me..
The winds begin to spirial around me..
A cyclone of blue lightning revolved around my body..
I was connected to everything..
The stars connected the darkness as the darkness connected the stars..
I could hear the music of everything..

When you hold the hand of someone..
Capture their warmth..
Feel a connection..
And walk with them..
Under sky..
Under sun..
Under the shadows of both of them..

A conversation will be carried along..
Memories and worries..
Encounters from the walk..
A passing of vehicles of people looking who you are..
Under stars
Under clouds..
Under the shadows of both of them..

At last we can write our names in the road..
To the eyes of the living the names cannot be seen..
But to the eyes of a shadow they will shine with light..
The names are hidden well..
The void of my shadow will make them shine..
Its crazy..
I truly never understood how much you need darkness for the light to shine..
Its what makes the stars so beautiful above..

Sunny days really never change..
But yet I remember them diffrently as a kid..
They seem to hold more magic..

Moonlit nights really never change..
But yet I remember them diffrently as a kid..
They seem to hold more luster for the soul..

I remember you asking me what my favorite color was..
I smiled and said storm on the horizon blue..
It was then you smiled back and said that was also your favorite color also..
And that you described such a blue in the same words I did..

I see a storm coming in from the north..
Those blues remind me of you..
I wonder if you feel the same..
The magic is still there..

The end of darkness is at hand..
A being of eternal light is taking revenge..
It lost its universe to a being of darkness grand..
And this Light God wants its universe avenged..

It consumes all darkness where it stands..
It now has 10,000 suns spinning around it..
It gathers shadows in its hands..
Until all darkness is gone and the universe becomes lit..

A final light rift will form..
And all true light will die..
A white hole will be born..
When the last of darkness has died..

I see the 10,000 sun halo among the cosmos..
And I head toward its direction..
I now have to use the power of darkness..
To stop this universal light infection..

For everything a reason.  Our universe within this mind will go forth eternal.  His struggles are far from over.  The addiction was not able to corrupt him so.  His new found light was able to shine it all away.  Its then I come to a realization of who I am in all this.  I was his light all along.  And he has forgiven his self for not believing in the terror he went through that night.  I have found the memory of what happen to him. On what happen to all of us.  This memory is a lone star outside of all other galaxies that exist within.   My celestial star owls dare not venture close.  But I must return to this memory.  Because the memory is me.  I will share such a memory with you.  

On April 7th 1984, I was born.  My mother and father held me close and gave to me warmth and love.  My fathers eyes looked to me with pride and unconditional love. My mothers eyes look to me with love and endless worry.   My mothers light was as bright as any sun I have ever seen. She contained a belief  that was unparalleled by any.  My fathers light shined beautifully with a perfect balance.   One dark day my mothers brightness took her over.  She loved me so much that she did not want me to experience any form of sin and darkness.  That I could be part of an endless heaven if I was to go  while I was pure.   There was a ****** into the light that night.  A ****** that would forever grant me passage to a heaven and beyond she believed existed.  He found us that night when he got home.  It was the end of him.  It was the end of his belief.  My mother smiled at him and said she will forever be in a better place. He turned to drugs to numb the pain.  The only glow of belief he had left was not to take is own life. For there may be a chance he may be able to see me again.  And he was right.  We battled the addiction together. We believed in the light together again.   He knew then I still existed somewhere.  And that one day he will see me again.  It will be the day when he breathes in the light...  My name is Hope.
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i had seen this old indian outside alot..
he was moving rocks and digging holes here and there..
i asked him if he needed help..
he spoke in indian to me but i more less knew he said "yes please help me"...

i did alot of the work for him..
his old body could no longer really move or lift some of the rocks he wanted to move..
we followed this strange old writing in some old piece of cloth which he seem to understand..
the old writing was like a diagram or map on where to put these white stones we were moving..

i wanted to ask him why we were doing this..
i try to use sign language the best i could..
his answer was a pointed finger to the sky..
as i was done putting the stones in place the old indian dug up one last hole..

he then grabbed my shoulder and pointed to the top of a mountain about a mile away..
then he pointed at the hole..
i more less understood that the final stone had to be on top of that mountain..
so i made my way up..

much of the rock on the mountain was more of a red color..
let alone the mountain was not to hard to scale..
there was only a few places where i really had to climb..
finally when i made it to the top there i saw it sitting there..

the white rock seem out of place up here..
i gathered it and put it in my pack..
i look down toward the indian in hopes he was looking up at me..
then i saw what we had been doing..

the white rocks we were placing in the ground created a symbol that was on that piece of old cloth..
this final rock would make that symbol complete..
as i headed back down the mountain the wind begin to pick up..

the wind carried a smell of atmoshere (rain) it was quite nice..
my little adventure back down seem to stir up a storm on the horizon..
as i finally made it back to the grounds i noticed the storm almost above us..
there i saw the old indian fully dressed in a beautiful head-dress..
his face painted with black and red..
although old he still looked like a warrior!
he then held out his hands and i gave him the final white stone rock..
It begin to rain as he placed it on the final spot he had dug up..

The symbol was complete..
He then signaled to me to come to him..
I went to him as we stood at the center of the rebulit symbol.
He then pointed to the sky.
I looked up and saw the sky light up..
Lightning then danced all around us!
I was scared at first but saw that the stones were absorbing all of the lightning..
Then a sound alot like thunder came from the clouds..

The clouds seem to open up as i saw these strange lights emerge from inside the storm..
A vessel of some sort hovered above us..
I was in absolute awe!
I could not speck and was suprised that i remembered to breathe..

A person or something waring a head-dress made of light came from the vessel..
It took the old indian inside the vessel and then away back into the storm clouds..
There was then a surge of lighting once again and all the white stones flew into the air and seem to wisp away in all directions..
I know I saw what I saw! But till this day no one believes me..
I am now in search of all the white stones and have been for the last 50 years..

at first i feel the water..
it carries me to this utopia of thoughts upon thoughts..
where the sancutuary of dreams reside..

all worries have faded..
i finally open my eyes and see that the skies are a purple and beautiful blue.. the clouds are as white as the holy light..
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i close my eyes and feel the air under me..
it carries me beyond my thoughts and into the thoughts of others..
where i see beauty through the eyes of another.. a beauty that has always been there but i could not see with my own eyes..

there is no more ugly.. its a feeling of content like no other.. i see only beauty.. i am happy beyond anything..
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i close my eyes and feel the sun shine down on me..
it warms my body with a warmth that i will have for eternity..
i will never be cold again.. never will i be cold to anyone again..

i will only hold you and help you shine on through..
it will never be only you.. it will forever be us..
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i close my eyes and feel this earth below me..
i now stand in absolute of who i am and where i am..
this place is an ascension of my soul..

i have been through the bad and the worse.. i was able to keep walking on through.. hand and hand.. forever, whenever!
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Come on kid!!
Come on kid!!
COME ON KID!!!!!!

(Wispers heavily)
" one, two, three, four, five, six, seven ,eight, nine, ten, eleven, twelve, thriteen, fourteen, fifteen, sixteen, seventeen, eighteen, nineteen,twenty,twenty one, COME ON! twenty two, "

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