Walking at night with no flash light..
Thunderstorms on the way.
Lightning blues color black blue..
Stars leave to someone else's dreams.
Streetlights on in the corner before dawn..
Sun rises in the storm.

That math test in my dreams is even hard.. Even in the dream realm I didn't try and cheat on it. I do my best though.

From the letters of my family.  Ancestors stay:  Toward the mid summer of 1986 I am the family member chosen for the stay.  There is yet to be a letter that documents a normal stay of night at the house Sirs..  But I find myself very ready for such an event.  As to why my family never breaks such tradition is beyond me.  I do not understand such trials.  I suppose it makes us feel we are important to a world that seeks out the normal viewing of life.  I welcome the stay..  I begin my first hour in reading all of the family letters written about this place.  I read under candlelight.  

The first took place in July 5th 1886:
Ben S Olvanas:

i was finished.. i had done what needed to be done..
revenge is mine..
redemtion is defined..

my journey has been long..
everything lost..
i have no one..

i was weak..
all i had was love..
but it was no where near enough..

hate with no pity..
weakness its food..
and that night weakness filled their hungry stomachs..

i gave my soul to my shadow..
i let it take over..
it all started when my shadow said hello...

It fell apart in beautiful ways..

The imagination shattered..

The magic fading..

The hope running down the dream glass..

The trail marks on your face..

Left behind by held back tears..

And all the nothing you have always been..

Remembered and reminded..

From the time you forgot..

I just want to forget again..

The sad shadows watch again..

In all their glory..

With their eyes they take away your color..

With their shade they take away your shine..

With their lies they take away your truth..

Soon there will be only remnants of imagination, magic, and hope..

And maybe with a spark..

You can shine again soon..

What I can give u is simple love. I won't let go. This sun will then only burn for u and I. I can wonder about your face. I can smile at the thought of ur smile. Even if I am blazing through the cosmos I still cannot find any form of beauty that comes even close to your naked body.. oh that view makes my heart skip beats and makes me forget to breathe for a moment in your absolute beauty. I thank you always and my soul wispers to yours that I am in love with all of you......... and forever will be..

Tones and sounds.
Organized in such a way they create music..

Songs heard through darkness and light..


Tangents and pathways..
Transparent clusters of thoughts and emotions...

Actions viewed through the porthole of the universe...


New stars and galaxies..
And the full dreams of undisturbed sleep..

Galactic access to infinite wonders..

Eyes open and mind set.
I ask myself. " Which is the dream?"

You flew in on the wind..
You brought all the colors with you..
My gray soul turned blue and green..
You filled it with life..
You touched my rain cold soul..
And warmed it like the kiss of a spring sun..
On the day you left me..
Forever to the blue skies..
Forever to the stars we cannot see..
You left a shine with me..
One that will never dim..
One that lives on through me..
And one day I hope to spark it in someone else..
Even if its just a glimmer of it..
Even if its just a shimmer of it..
Or even a glow of it..
Your light will carry on and on..

My thoughts take me there.dream vessel of the soul. I stand waiting at a shore never before seen by mankind until now. An invitation is given to me through this song I listen to. The tones form a connection, a sort of dream link to my soul. Let me begin to describe this place. The ocean here glows like our planet in someone else's sky. A glowing blue blaze of wonder. I am even more prevlidged to have come on the day of rise and set. As we have one sun this place has two. There will be a rise and setting of these two suns today. At one point both suns level off in the skyline creating a day of 2 suns. The sun dragons then exchange suns. I then close my eyes as I finish this poem.

Freezing me in running stance...
Activating my sleep paralysis...
Awake and not awake..
I can't even shake..

Awake and asleep..
In a beyond what is deep..
From the darkest corners of my room..
Blooms the cries of doom..

Voices that sing and scream..
Laugh at me in this wicked dream..
Something sits on my chest..
And begins to compress..

Its an old hag or a demon..
Or Something wicked that i'm dreaming..
Trapped in this nightmare trance..
Or under the spell of sleep paralysis..

A group for Science fiction.. A lot of my writes are kinda of weird to follow and would love to find such a community.. Thank you!

sunrise.. old sun.. new day.. there are new days everywhere. . if you do wish to return I promise you this.. I will make one day our day.. I will name the day after you. just to have it once.. spend it with you.. because having it once will be forever to me.. and I choose forever to be named after you..

The beginning of this darkness has taken place..
I have learned that this world will be under such a veil for the next 3 years.. We have been preparing for such an event.

We have been talking to eachother in the darkness, we have been feeling for eachother in the darkness.. We still sit at the table and eat together in the darkness..

Voices are heard and conversations continue within the infinite shadow.. We continue to live on despite not having any form of light.. and through it all I have begun to see a beauty in darkness itself..

The beauty is that my dreams are now in darkness.. I hear your laugh, I can feel your hope.. I can see the light coming soon when you speak to me with your words of joy..

When there was light I really could not see how beautiful you truly were.. And now that there is no light I find inside a beauty unmatched by any shine or luster.. Because even in darkness your beautiful..

Land.

Terra..
Endless universe of Terra halos..
The life was in perfect balance here..
The Terra halos of mist floated above..
They kissed the land with the purest of rain..
A constant of the skies teardrops ..

1000 songs inside in my mind, buried in thoughts, buried in time.. tones of hope, tones of sadness, tones of dreams and nightmares of madness.. hands without knowledge, cannot create what i acknowledge.. voice with some talent, but not ever so full, not enough for this challenge.. 1000 songs in my heart, beat along with the life it sparks.. i can hear the sounds in machines, i can hear the hidden songs they sing.. so if ever i drive out to nowhere, without a radio or an mp3 player, i have 1000 songs in my head. i can listen to them instead..

I do not get or understand such a device you hold in your hand.. perhaps beauty behold, watch the skin unfold, takes place over the happiness and hope as the words begin to float but I don't want on this Boat! I see it a source of colorless hope, where the soul begs to be lit up by hope.. what looms over such a relic, for you to worship and relish, its ******* stupid to me, ******* dumb as can be!! Perhaps it is make believe, look at me I bleed! for the gray and the grey for the **** and the twit, I find you colorless and not even worth a *****!! I'm finished with vent so horribly bent, I'm just ******* around, so lose the ******* frown!

mY OUTLOOK HAD CHANGED IN AN INSTANT..
Without hope for so long..  
And found in just a second..
I looked toward the setting sun..
For once I felt alive..
I walked alone in the night with this new found hope..
Oh where oh where did you come from?
I smile at the thought of knowing it was always there..
Never was I truly without it..
The music is beautiful to me again..
The color of your eyes light up my soul..
The rememberence of magic colors my aura again..
This nightmare is ending now..
I hold the hand of hope as we wake up together hand and hand..
I say goodbye to the void..
I say goodbye to the gray me..
I awake to a sun filled room..
The last image I have is that of the gray me smiling at me..
His tears were blue..

I think of the units who are getting a good night sleep with the one worry of just getting up to go to work.   I suppose its because that was me two weeks ago.  Just get up and go to work.  But now I am on the RUN.   Across the nation to destination I can't share.  Tonite I sleep off the grid by a creek with no name.  

It starts to rain down on this old truck I stole from some farmer back in Texas.  I am on the RUN because I have truly woke up.  No longer bound by these invisible chains of programs,  I am free!

My self given misson is to wake all the others.  To let them know freedom.  This can only be done from one destination.  There I will broadcast the freedom code across all bands in a worldwide pattern.  
I just have to make it! I need to RUN!

I HAVE BEEN IN ABSOLUTE DARKNESS FOR WEEKS NOW..

FEELING AROUND FOR SOMETHING I KNOW.. SOMETHING FAMILIAR.. ANYTHING..

BUT ALL I FEEL IS THE GROUND BELOW ME..

I AM TRYING TO HEAR FOR SOMETHING I KNOW.. BUT ALL I HEAR IS MY HEART BEATING..

I CAN STILL SEE THE LIGHT IN MY DREAMS.. THE IMAGES ARE SEEN WITH EYES OF THE PAST..

EYES THAT WERE IN A PLACE I REMEMBER..

I FINALLY COME TO A WALL.. ITS MADE OF SOME KIND OF STONE.. I CAN FEEL DIFFERENT SHAPES IN THE WALL..

I TAKE ONE LAST DRINK OF THE WATER I HAD WITH ME..

I FALL INTO A DEEP SLEEP.. ONE THAT I WILL NOT AWAKEN FROM..

I DREAM OF A BUTTERFLY THAT FLUTTERS BLUE LIGHT WITH EACH WING..

I FOLLOW THE BUTTERFLY IN MY DREAM IN THE DARKNESS..

TO A TREE WHERE MANY OTHER BUTTERFLIES OF DIFFERENT COLORS LIT UP THE DARKNESS ETERNAL..

I FINALLY NOTICED THAT I GLOWED ALSO..

I WAS ONE OF THEM.. THE LAST ONE THEY NEEDED..

WITH ALL COLORS COMBINED THE LIGHT SHINED THROUGH AGAIN.. THE GUARDIANS OF THE LIGHT HAVE AWOKE..

It was done..
I did it..
I took everything back..
And the images started to float into my mind..
The wind swayed the grass once again..
The plants stood full of life in the soil under the rain..
And the sun shined down on my son once again..

I am sad to know that this will be the last time I will see such beauty..
From afar and up close..
From above and beyond..
But I am content that I am the one who brought such beauty back to a world engulfed by shadow..
The darkness screams at me as my light splinters it away into a shine of oblivion, into a chaos of dancing light..

I will live on prayer now and the rememberence of my son shining in the sun..
Live through them son as they will live through you..
To believe in one is to believe in all..
Even if its your mother u believe in or your brother or sister or simply a friend..
You at least know what it is to believe in something or someone..
That in itself is worth more than anything else..
I leave you this peace...

I was not aware quite yet..

This seem to real to know it a dream..

I walked among a grassy green field..

The horizon was painted storm blue..

As the storm came in i saw the lightning with legs of light playing and chasing eachother from cloud to cloud..

I then looked to the west of me and saw a tree with glowing blue and green leaves..

I begin to gain control as i knew it to be a plain of my creation..

The grass begin to sway with my winds.. And the flowers with pedals of light begin to bloom..

I then used the winds of the storm to strip the glowing leaves off the tree combined with the light pedals as i created a spinning wheel of light that spun around me..

AS i looked to the tree it seem sad.. So i had new leaves grow in the place of the borrowed ones i had taken..

I then saw myself from above with the spinning wheel of light to guide other dreamers to me..

I have met many different souls..
Through this strange new journey..
Some are alot alike..
But in the end they always show me something different and wonderful..
They bring me comfort.
A type of comfort in knowing this is truly forever..
Forever among this expanse of dreams..
Where I will get to to see the first star being born in the infinite darkness..
See the first light shine..
Because I have already seen it..
It truly was wonderful!
Someone knows what I am feeling.
Because they have seen it also..

The light here was different..
I knew the day..
But only today..
I did it..
I took a step back in time.  
And I went back to one minute ago.
Time travel and its apocryphal meanings were proven wrong..
The past runs on the memory of light..
On the same light that illuminates our dreams..
The stars were leaving to the future..
I could see them..
Even light had a hard time keeping up with time..
To travel forward to my time I did not use a machine..
All I had to do was remember what today looks like..
The present as flowing..
And thus my soul returned to the missing tessellation piece it was a part of..
As the gear that makes time flow.

I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that I can make you see galaxies!
I can ignite your skin like a small lightning storm..
I can pour out your soul and return it..
Time and time again..
But I will only do so if you let me....
The beauty of your waterfall fills my shadow with light!

There are some moments that become still..
In a sense they become a time stop..
If you need me please tell me..
I am at a flux in time where I can meet you for the first time yet again..
Where I see you for the first time yet again..
The sight of you helped me invent the universe..
And I want to invent it all over again..
It was your eyes where I saw the need for galaxies..
But what I am really asking is what did I help you create?
I'm willing to go back and try to see what you saw in me..
I tourment myself with such understandings..
Because they are in no form understanding to me at all..
Is it all real?
This is more vast than me..
At least I will think so when some day I will realise it all..
Imagination really does scare me to no end..

Ill simply sleep..
There is where I will burn it down..
Perhaps fire can bring some form of color here..
But as I walk into this empty grey room I see him..
He is me..
The anti me..
We look eachother in the eyes and flow into one another..
He smiles and uses his finger to write into the air..
His finger uses some form of ink made of light..
This is what he wrote..

So..
You are the very artifact that started this all..
You Have the same color eyes as me..
YoU HaD To tAkE it Past what the soul could take..
You juSt couldn't leaVe iT alonE..
UnDeRSTAND thAt all Things are nOT meant TO always go forward
BuT you seem relentless in makinG it so..
go BacK and NeveR return..
YoUr creating A shift ThAT i WILL NOT bE ABLE TO FIx..

The air was warm and cool all at once..
The oncoming storm was a beautiful chaos among the ambient ocean..
The sky was full of colors.  The colors made love to my eyes and soul..
There was enough sunlight to form a double rainbow.. Arcs of rain colors showed all of the storms emotions..  
Soon I will be the lightning..
When I finally leave for the stars again..
Only there are no stars in this beautiful view..
Only memories of colors that I swear I hear music in..
The stars are beyond..
And this storm is here..
And I for now would much rather be here..

I can view the places of rain memory..
Where the puddles gather ready to be taken by to the sky..
The sun calls to the waters...
And slowly takes it back to the clouds..
You had to kiss the earth before you become and Ocean..
And soon you will become a tide to greet the Earth again..
Only this time the moon will call to you to do so..

Gone.
For the moment I was gone.
But the colors would not let me fade away.
No matter how hard I tried I could not dream in black and white.

Forgotten..
I tried to make myself forget..
But the voices would always remind me..
They spoke during beautiful moments of music and ambient thought.

My shadows..
My shadows would continue to write even when I was gone..
They wrote on the darkness of my soul leaving behind words of light..
They answered for me even when I was gone..

I saw my hands begin to glow when I read that my Lightcycles were still filling up with souls.  Even when I was gone my shadow and Miss B saw this through.  My shadow was out building Lightcycles taking new and old souls across the cosmos.. To meet up with Destiny!  I will soon catch up to my shadow and become one once again.. Storm blue horizons, lightning rider, thunderchase dreams Ill see you soon! The green rider will give me a ride.. (S.F.C)

I open my eyes to see my dying dragon.. Dragon eyes welcome me back..  She stands up once again and spreads her silver wings.. With a mighty roar she lifts her body up into the black cloud sky.. Her wings create thunder.. She roars to the cosmos! Im sure you heard her BigM!

On this night a knight picked me up.. Told me to keep going.. to keep fighting..  I thank this knightnight..

And to the LovelyLo! Ill come back strong for you..  You are my poetry

why did you have to smile at me..
could you not of just walked on by and ignored me..
i noticed you first..
you had this luster to you that i wanted to hold you close and smell your hair..
vibrant skin, eyes the color of the earths emrealds..
long brown hair seem to flow with no wind..
and then the smile as we walked on by eachother..
that smile made my heart race..
that smile made time stop..
that smile silenced all sound..
for just a moment..
it happen to me..
i watched you walk on by as you faded away never looking back..
your smile added colors to my soul..
a color of rememberence, and a color of never seeing you again..

There were 7000 of us left here on Earth..
At least 7000 of us that wanted to leave..
The true number is more like 250,000..
They want to stay till the end..
They feel we do not belong anywhere else..
As we depart for Eden I am sadden by the sight of a child that is waving goodbye to us..
So full of life and no fear of knowing..
She waves and waves with a grand smile and beautiful long brown hair that dances neverending in the wind..
I see the blue blazing Earth behind us now..
Although beautiful, the Earth has nothing on that little girl waving goodbye..
Onward to our new home EDEN..

to fat leaves i stepped on..
i begin to petal along..
yay im a tree in the disguise..
no dirt just sky..
i step on a flower..
and it burned bright like a meteor shower..
to fat leaves i still pedal..
my dad made this wooden bike from a tree in the meadow..
i left the bike one day there in a puddle..
it grew leaves the next day so i took a space shuttle..
i flew to the stars glued to my ceiling..
the kind that shines so bright but not really..
they are made of plastic..
they came from a company called shinetastic..
had to keep my light on to make them glow..
if not they become a no show..

Strange..  The way the light shines here..  Its not like back at home..  Where all at once light takes over a room in an instant.. Here light moves at a much slower rate..  Amazing how light pushes darkness away..  It seems to do so but in a very gentle manner.  It protects the darkness. It does not want to vanquish it.. The darkness also does the same to the light.  They truly make love to eachother..

Sun and stars..
Moonbeam scars...
Light of the night..
Is my darkness sight..

Under pale silver false sun..
The midnight run...
Hunting for your soul..
In pockets of moon glow..

I felt your lips on my neck..
Ghostly chills leave behind light specks...
Only it was not me looking for you all along..
But you looking for me in this ghostly song..

For so long now.. I have try to create that of which I thought never existed.. But that had been my problem all along! It was until one day a an earth child entered the room.. We have always new there was a life-force involved to any sentient being that had emotion.. But never could we replicate in such a fashion as that of being born and created in the womb.. Thus the period of life starts as a soul is given to such life.. A soul.. That is what I finally created.. for 2 million years I tried this!! I could never get it to work.. Failure upon failure! Today was my final attempt at creating a soul and today I failed yet again.. It wasn't until the human earth child walked in on my experiment.. That's when it happened! The soul animated the body I created for it.. It had emotion! It was alive indeed! The human earth child gave me a part of the life equation I had been missing for 2 million years!!! The science was all there!!! In order! But I was missing one thing! BELIEF! And the child provided just that! My sweet beautiful wife.. I am going to bring you back!

The shop of Little Wonders. Found with a hum that one can only dream of.  A song about how small things have a big effect on the world around us.  Today the lady bugs arrive with gifts of summer magic to this mini shop of little wonders under the grass.  


The Sun wax candle:
This candle has no wick.. But it still can be lit..  It is made out of sun wax.  Once lit the flame will float above the sun wax.  The flame will sustain the day so long as it is lit. A strong magic.  Only ones with true fire can light it....

The Spinner of forgotten time:
Looks much like a fidget spinner.  Created by lost time and time that flies by when you are having fun.  Can be spun once a day to stop time for 10 seconds.  Once spun the Spinner of forgotten time turns into a small galaxy to rearrange time in this galaxy.  A very strong magic.  Only those who have held the needles of time can spin it.

I stare into nothing yet again..
And I see it all before me..
Your face, your smile, your eyes, your naked body..
Sweet memories of the heart..
How you light up my soul..

I stare into the passing by landmarks..
I forget I pass them by..
Yet again I see it all..
Us walking in the sun, us holding hands in the park, us laying together in the day gone by..

I stare into the stars above..
Just for a moment, just for you..
I see it all..
You leaving me, without sadness, without remorse, without you missing me..

How you drown my soul my sweet..

All along it was there.. The reason on why you and me are here..  The image was in the palm of our hands.. The lines there are the beginning and end to which we never truly start or end..  But some have learned to read the lines in their hands..  Thus transcending beyond this life.. The soul map of the hands..

I love how your light takes my darkness away.  The way she lit the room at night.  Glows the shadows away.  Angel life, dream of light.  Come comfort my darkness and chase my shadows away.

Your wispers were made of light..
The words you wispered would let me see the light with memory..
How I remember it clearly..

We bring darkness with us everywhere. In any light we cast a shadow behind us..
Even the most pure cast such darkness..  
The closer you get to any light the bigger your shadow becomes behind you..

As I write my shadow writes with me..
My words are made of darkness, while his are made of light..

The three of us spun in the lights..
On the black clear floor..
The lights would move with us..
Even with no music or sound..

It was a dance circle..
Out here at our secret play spot..
So nice of them to leave it here for us..
My sisters did not want to leave..

I was the oldest..
So I had to tell them its time to leave..
Supper is ready..
We need to go..

We all did one last spin around the dance floor..
The lights moved with us..
We went on outside of the circle building..
And said goodbye..

The next day it was gone..
And people in yellow suits were there..
They told us we could not go there..
Its not safe.. please go home..

Who is this.. why do you talk to me? Your voice sooths me to no end.. for reasons unknown I wonder of your heartbeat.. the life it sustains.. the soul it colors.. there is no end.. I have always known that.. even as a child I knew there was a beyond that awaited.. so why talk to me? Show me.. I see that u are the light of my dreams..

The lines go to the same place..
They are drawn out by belief..
But some lines do not travel straight..
Some bend and turn..
Some even break..
This is the sadness of your God..
At times I could always see my line..
It was not to straight..
But i could still see where it was going..
Where it was drawn out to go..
So why am I mourning..
This is the sadness of your God..
My line one day was fading..
Yours seem to shine so very bright..
As if it was destined to shine over all the others..
A sort of outline to follow..
The perimeter of your belief..
Where your line was solid mine was hollow..
This is the sadness of your God..
The mistake we made was our love we made..
This painted your line in absolute..
With the color of regret..
To your God, The sad one who cries on me..
Because I belive in him now..
I have the sorrow to prove it..
My line will never shine or be lit..
This is the sadness of your God..

I sometimes stop just to catch up..
To the beauty I have been missing..
Here in front of me..

The clouds have turned into rain..
It matches the emotions on your face..
But your hope for sunlight never fades..

I have to go with rain..
And you with the sun..
For I am the storm and you are the clear day..

If I stay to long the creeks become rivers..
And the rivers become lakes..
I have to move on before I drown everything..

I leave behind this rainbow for you..
Its a storm's goodbye..
Enjoy the colors among the dark blue sky..

In between dreams..
DON'T KNOW WHICH WAY TO GO..
Toward the haze..
OR TOWARD THE BLUE BLAZE..

I chose the haze..
And got lost in a maze..
There were etheric echoes sweeping on through..
Sky trees passed on by like clouds on the move..

From their leaves fell the haze..
A pollen of light flakes..
Its what the dream realm is made out of..
Mind dust and star love..

I wake up and its past 11..
I was in the outer rims of heaven..

Do you want to drift with me..
Past the snow and stars..
To see the light scare away the darkness..
Inside and outside of my astral song...

Things will not be left unsaid..
Simply discuss you toward me..
Smile the sun to my moon..
Let me shine in darkness and we can see things through..

Might I be your blaze..
Among this dream haze..
Where time has no control..
Now, Forward, or backwords we can soar..

Shadow stretched out yet again..
A beautiful sight it was..
This meant I had succeeded!
This meant I brought back the light..
For shadows only exist in shine..
In my final hour I am able to see the blue sky once again..
The blackness was being pushed away..
The morning sun sang..
People were coming outside again..
Children looked at the old blue sky as if it were new..
The morning clouds rolled in..
A heaven was remembered yet again..
The blue flames start to dance on my skin..
I am burning away..
The light and darkness are consuming each other inside me..
It is not painful..
It almost feels good..
You see I consumed all of this darkness with my light..
Its what I was meant to do..
Its what I was born to do..
I can explain the magic and science to it..
But that would take forever..
So please..
Look to your clear sky..
The endless blue above..
And never forget the stars..
Its where I am from..

On fractal images of color.

Blended in to create a reality

Blaze through the meanings of all..

I really thought I was on this side of the cage looking in.

Knowing the hollows would soon be full..

A scary thought of the world being inside of your head.

With self given limitations.

I had a dream about thunder. I awoke to silence.  Went out the back door to look at the sky.  It was full of stars.  No moon.   The thunder came from a storm I remembered.  It was a storm with no rain.  Just lightning and thunder.  Endless blue blazing.  No stars. Just clouds.  I could smell the rain that didn't fall. I want to smell the rain in my dreams. When I almost forget what the rain smells like.

I forgot to remember..
Remember what was real..
Real dreams make for moments unbound..
Unbound by all science we believe in..
In the morning at night..
Night was day.
Day of the destroyers..
Destroyers explained to me how it would all come down..
Down would become up..
Up would become sideways..
Sideways from me was it explaining it all..
All in all..
All together.
Together we all fall.
Fall from grace.
Grace my memory.
Memory of them and I.
I forgot my pen and could not write it down..