Just take me -
                              take me home.
I guess I thought you might.
                              Despite everything,
I still hoped that you would save me,

                              yet you didn't.

Who is this person that I have become?
I used to be acute, radiant, true,
but now... I don't know who I am. I flit
between living and lying, feeling then
dying - there's no point in trying. When did
I change so much that I lost who I was
at the start? "What happened to you?", strangers
guise, their sad eyes looking through the disguise
I so pitifully tried to hide under.
Nothing works - my mind died along with the
happiness I used to know; when she died,
I died with her. The rapturous girl who
left along with the world and I was left
dying eternally in her wake.

All I hoped
was once a dream,
but fortune was in my favour.

I came to life
to live and love
and give all light a flavour.

A cave within
was filled with thoughts
drowned by emotions contained.

First of the friends,
show me the way,
to be, no longer, estranged.

Bipolar sunshine;
Life's periodic lullabies
Changing me,
Waking me from ash to animal,
Trapped in the cage
Of my past lies,
Present cries,
Future demise.

But underneath this skin,
I'm still a human;
Boats of evergreen
Floating on tideless seas,
Yet I think I'm dying,
Unready for breathing;
Wild waters, blood oceans;
Mind lost, nightmares healing.

I'll throw my soul
into your fire
To freeze or to thaw,
It's your heart's desire.

Two corpses we were,
alive we've become -
to lie or to walk,
in a week we'll be home.

Unstack your load onto me
as my fountain rusts out, and I will
throw my love on your frozen ground
to thaw, unlock and lift it all away.

I will twist the sun and the moon
to change the weather and seasons for you.
This is pouring rain,
yet this is paradise.

The rumbling of the coming earthquake
echoes beneath my surface,
threatening the very idea of normality.