When you want something
When you know it is within reach
Like water and bread within an inch of the bars of your jail
A jail which keeps you as only prisoner
Life is joy
Life is fair
Life isn’t fair
Life is cruel
To know your limits
To know you will never be able to surpass them
To know that you will never be accepted
It’s eating me up inside
Everyday
Every week
Every year
Until the day I die
I want to be a part of every day’s course
I want to work I want to celebrate
I want to try I want to fail
I want to live
But the mind cannot keep up
It tires the body to the very core
To see everyone walking past me
Leaving me behind
It makes me sad
It makes me want to cry
But I can’t
If I could express these feelings of mine
Being a prisoner of your own mind
To know and to experience
I wish I was just ignorant and dumb
Being smart but never being able to use it
Even a prisoner needs to move forward
A life without a goal isn’t worth living
I don’t condemn my life
I just wished there would be someone who understands
I know that I will be a prisoner for life
But it would mean so much
If there would be someone
Who would reach out to me
Because it’s just within reach
The water and bread
In this lonely prison
Within my mind
Living with Autism isn't easy, I enjoy my life but sometimes it is hard to accept that even with all the capabilities that I got, I will never be able to use them freely.
There are so many things I want, so less chances and opportunities to make it happen. And to know that there are so few people who understand.
Sometimes it makes it hard, but I will never stop trying.